[CONDENSED]Turquie

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on 9/8/2022

Posts: 1920

compassionatequeen, on 9/8/2022:
I still plan on becoming Queen of America
It is what it is 😊😇 people being jealous or trying to discourage my super positive intentions and goals is not going to phase me just saying

compassionatequeen, on 9/8/22:
I might have aspergers but I still think that I would make a goodQueen
I am sweet and loving and I have a good heart and I want good and positive things and healing for everyone Idk I probably have some autism traits, but a lack of empathy is not really an issue for me I have all of the normal range of human emotions Idk if you can have autism traits but also the full spectrum of normal human emotions but yeah
Idk if I have it tbh lol I think that I just get very introverted sometimes but then I become extroverted after I am finished coming up with the solutions to all of the problems than I was trying to figure out when I was in introverted mode ?
I do not see it in myself personally, but some people have tried to label me that (never actual therapists or doctors or anything) maybe because sometimes I act weird because I get super inside of my head and kind of stop focusing on normal social interacting when I am in introverted mode

compassionatequeen, on 9/7/2022:
I am not addicted to or interested in toxic dick anymore
If you are a toxic person, keep your dick and your energy away from me and yes I include being addicted to using and abusing women sexually and misogynistically and treating them like objects and alcohol and partying while pathetically being 40 years old and really creeping everyone out as toxic, so Michael Majlak keep your toxic dick and your toxic energy far away from me forever permanently

unless a toxic person does the work to stop behaving toxically, then I do not want their dicks or their energy anywhere around me if you are behaving toxically do not expect me to allow you to use me for anything, get right with yourself and with humanity first and stop behaving like an abusive asshole
I am pulling away my energetic support from you and putting up boundaries and barriers between you and me, as well as attempting to reverse all of your evil intentions back onto yourself for you to learn from what abuses you are attempting to put onto innocent other people and binding you
this thread is completely 100 percent serious, and I do not care if people have a problem with it enough is e freaking nough
stay away from me you are repulsing me
cx3 said:
consider the following:

the dick is clean

compassionatequeen, on 9/07/2022:
lol pretty much all of Michael's latest tweets are himdefendinghimself
trying to defend himself anyway but really he is just attempting to keep offending everyone without repercussion and I doubt that anyone is going to allow that to continue anymore, this is going to be good 😊😇🍿
ashes to ashes, dust to dust, this karmic debt, full payment it must :p
💅
Turncoat said:
Definitely not the intent behind white magic.
surface level emotional reactions to positive intentions do not change the fact that my intentions are positive and to bring more compassion and peace to humanity, and just because some parts of me are reacting to my magick taking effect with any sort of smugness or sadism does not change the fact that that my my intentions are positive and benevolent for humanity. meditate on this 😊😇

compassionatequeen, on 9/7/22:
I am beautiful, good, lovely, calm, safe, and spiritually protected
I am beautiful, good, lovely, calm, safe, and spiritually protected and I love myself 🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🌻
😊😇
feeling like a disney princess :p

compassionatequeen, on 9/7/2022:
Michael I will spend every single waking second of the day reversing
and binding you until people see the truth about you, do not fuck with me
there is going to be karmic justice for you psychologically fucking with me I promise
you want to play this game, well I have all of the time and energy in the world to spend on my goals
you think that I am playing ? I am not playing I am locked and loaded with white magick
It is over for you just surrender to it, you have seen what happens when I get obsessed about something
Turncoat said:
compassionatequeen said:
you think that I am playing ? I am not playing I am locked and loaded with white magick
This shit isn't white magic.

^ just because It is working does not mean that it is not white magick Turncoat, stop being jealous that I am powerful
evil does not always have to conquer good you know

last edit on 9/10/2022 3:08:36 AM by Turncoat

by Turncoat

on 9/10/2022

Posts: 32790

compassionatequeen, on 9/6/2022:
Michael Majlak, on behalf of those you would insult, harm or
Michael Majlak, on behalf of those you would insult, harm, or intimidate, I call upon Justice. With this ancient power, I bind your ability to harm.
what are you going to do about it, you stinky constipated old man ;p
😏 LOL
since being a bad witch has not worked out for me in the past because the benevolent side of me would always win out, then I am going to be a good witch 😊😇
Tryptamine said:
doesn't he just make mental popcorn for kids? pretty sure he can't harm shit or he'll be cansouled
oh he's not going to be harming anyone anytime soon ;p don't you worry about that

compassionatequeen, on 9/6/2022:
when some of my parts start enjoying other people's suffering
when my parts that are used to reacting to having been hurt in the past by enjoying other people's suffering start acting up it fucks up my white magick and their reactions have to be worked through in therapy
THERE TURNCOAT It fucks up my white magick, but it does not not ever change that the intentions of my white magick have been positive and benevolent and have been wanting to bring about more peace and compassion to humanity the entire time
*remains peaceful and calm*
I am on a learning curve of healing my own self too you do not have to attack me for it or make false accusations you could have just politely stated that my white magick is probably less effective when I have certain less than calm and peaceful emotional reactions to seeing evidence of it being effective
Turncoat said:
compassionatequeen said:
I am on a learning curve of healing my own self too you do not have to attack me for it or make false accusations you could have just politely stated that my white magick is probably less effective when I have certain less than calm and peaceful emotional reactions to seeing evidence of it being effective
All the same I'm glad you're noticing how tricky intent can be.

What's on the surface is resonance of what is within, and what we apply to the surface has room to sink in.
*compassionately has positive feelings towards you even though most people probably do not react to you attempting to push buttons this way and is feeling super calm and peaceful* 😊😇

compassionatequeen, on 9/6/2022:
I am learning how to do acupressure
so yeah you guys know how I have allergy problems and stuff well I am learning this to try to do energy healing on myself, and I do not even have to use needles like in acupuncture
https://acupressure.com/acupressure-basics-fundamentals-beginners/acupressure-points/

https://acupressure.com/articles/pressure-points/
Turncoat said:
Pressure points are not the same as energy healing, even if some of the rhetoric goes there from some authors. Lumping it with Energy Healing means also taking shit like Reiki seriously.

Can literally be explained by science, and it's why having a masseuse can be totally worth it. Massage, or "Physical Therapy", is a practical skill, often supplementing other areas of your life ranging from fitness to romantic applications.

compassionatequeen, on 9/7/2022:
learning powerful protection against black magick
christianity was not it lol christianity actually leaves you super weak to back magick attacks, but I am going to learn actual real powerful protection against black magick now freaking sick of being victimized by psychological bullies, and not only do I want to protect myself I want to help protect all of humanity
Turncoat said:
A lot of what resists intention related 'magic' tends to be based on your willpower, which can piggieback faith.

The 'Armor of God' motif works for a lot of people.
Turncoat said:
So what sorts of practices are you doing, circles of protection?

You strike me as someone who would prefer sharper shapes, even if it's for utilizing offense defensively.

Do you have a sigil?

compassionatequeen, on 9/6/2022:
I think that both Michael and I binded each other LOL
Is this an impasse ? now what lmao what the fuckkkkkkkkkkkk are you serious rn
13:49 compassionatequeen: GOSH DARNIT

13:50 compassionatequeen: WE BOTH FUCKED EACH OTHERS MAGICK UP 🤭

13:52 compassionatequeen: FUCK

13:52 compassionatequeen: FUCK I AM NOT EVEN JOKING YOU GUYS THIS IS REAL

compassionatequeen, on 9/6/2022:
k so when lilith tries to come out it actually binds me
I shit you not

Ę̵̚x̸͎̾i̴͚̽s̵̻͐t̷͐ͅe̷̯͠n̴̤̚t̵̻̅i̵͉̿a̴̮͊l̵͍̂ ̴̹̕D̵̤̀e̸͓͂t̵̢͂e̴͕̓c̸̗̄t̴̗̿ï̶̪v̷̲̍é̵͔

last edit on 9/10/2022 3:37:24 AM

by Turncoat

on 9/10/2022

Posts: 32790

compassionatequeen, on 9/6/2022:
what goes up must come down
and what was down must come up sweetie this is called sharing energy stop being scared I am actually not your enemy I picked my person wisely I know that you are not used to sharing but it is not going to kill you I promise

do not be scared you are going to be okay and none of you be scared for him either I am not going to hurt him yes I am doing this to him because I need a significant other to live out my future with and he matches my qualifications

everyone calm shhhhhhhhhhhh

🤭:p this has always been my favorite movie for a reason

compassionatequeen, on 9/5/2022:
power back this fast damn ^.^ I scare myself Lmao

just need to get rid of this extra weight and I'll be back to normal 🤷‍♀️
this was a fast as fuck comeback I was not expecting to come back this fast Lmao ? I amaze myself sometimes

"No"

Woke up feeling like the baddest bitch I've ever known
Feeling even stronger than I've ever felt before
Pushed me to the limit, now I'm in a different zone
Now you're all alone, now you're all alone

And I know that I was always scared to say it
And I fell into the games that you were playing
Yeah, I know it's up to personal opinion
But you never seen me like this
Oh, now I know why I feel so amazing
Yeah, you mad, yeah, know you gonna hate it
Now I got the power and I claim it
So baby read my lips

I say no, no, no
I said yes too many times
Now it's no, no, no
Told you "I'm no longer under your contro-o-ol"
No, I'm not the kind of girl I was before
Cannot go with me no more, no more
I say no, no, no
I said yes too many times
You should know, know, know
Told you "I'm no longer under your contro-o-ol"
See, I'm not the kind of girl I was before (Before)
Cannot go with me no more (No more), no more

I was sick of being a prisoner living under your thumb (Thumb)
So now what doesn't kill me better hurry up and run (Run)
I let you try to kill me but I rise up like a phoenix
So when all is said and done (Done)
But you're the only one (One)

And I know that I was always scared to say it
And I fell into the games that you were playing
Yeah, I know it's up to personal opinion
But you never seen me like this
Oh, now I know why I feel so amazing (Yeah, yeah, yeah)
Yeah, you mad, yeah, know you gonna hate it
Now I got the power and I claim it
So baby read my lips

I say no, no, no
I said yes too many times
Now it's no, no, no
Told you "I'm no longer under your contro-o-ol" (Oh-oh-oh-oh)
No, I'm not the kind of girl I was before (Before)
Cannot go with me no more (No more), no more (No more)
I say no, no, no
I said yes too many times (I said no, no)
You should know, know, know
Told you "I'm no longer under your contro-o-ol" (Under your control)
See, I'm not the kind of girl I was before (Before)
Cannot go with me no more (No more), no more (No more)

It's a shame it had to end out this way (This way)
But better off at the end of the day (The day)
So let karma do its thing
'Cause if you're not right within you're never gonna win
So baby read my lips

I say no, no, no (Yeah, yeah, yeah)
I said yes too many times (I said no, no)
Now it's no, no, no
Told you "I'm no longer under (Yeah) your contro-o-ol" (Your control, babe)
No, I'm not the kind of girl I was before (Before)
Cannot go with me no more, no more (No more, no more, no more)
I say no, no, no (Yeah, yeah, yeah)
I said yes too many times (I said no, no)
You should know, know, know (You should know)
Told you "I'm no longer under your (Yeah) contro-o-ol"
See, I'm not the kind of girl I was before (Before) (Girl I was before, no babe)
Cannot go with me no more, no more (No more)
I said no

compassionatequeen, on 9/5/2022:
Turncoat is trying to convince me to be with Michael
"No" means "No", Turncoat and what bribe has Michael even offered me yet ? because so far he has been pretending not to want me, meanwhile scheming on how to tempt me to him like Count Olaf from a series of unfortunate events because he knows that I would be the best money source ever since everyone likes me more than him because I am so sweet and loving and compassionate and stuff

If you think that I am insane you'll see it the future that Michael has been planning all along, because I only did love spells on him for like 20 minutes a couple days ago and then I unbound him because I realized that I did not even want him around me anymore, but he keeps coming on here even after I told him to stay away and I can sense his stinkass presence 🙎‍♀️😡 *pouts*
he thinks that if he can think of a way to convince me to be with him that people will like him more, it is all about money for him like always and maybe I do not want to be used and profited off of anymore maybe I would like a nice quiet humble life without his stankass face in my vicinity anymore, ever think of that ? I already know how he really sees me, and It is with greedy dollar signs in his eyes
and before you say "oh you are not acting very sweet loving and compassionate rn", yeah well I am perfecting it and my healing is actually happening a lot faster than I anticipated because of the IFS books that I am reading and my IFS therapist sessions

I am able to be my true self a lot more now, and I do not want to be profited off of by some creepy looking man who behaves like a prideful scumbag like he either has to change for the better with me or convincing me to want anything to do with him is never, ever going to happen
Turncoat said:
JesusistheKing said:
Turncoat is trying to convince me to be with Michael
Wtf no I'm not.
[Posts the "No" song and lyrics]

Ę̵̚x̸͎̾i̴͚̽s̵̻͐t̷͐ͅe̷̯͠n̴̤̚t̵̻̅i̵͉̿a̴̮͊l̵͍̂ ̴̹̕D̵̤̀e̸͓͂t̵̢͂e̴͕̓c̸̗̄t̴̗̿ï̶̪v̷̲̍é̵͔

by compassionatequeen

on 9/10/2022

Posts: 1920

dude, you cannot condense my threads under a name that is not mine or associated with me, also why the fuck would you put threads that are way far back and not even on the front page in a condensed thread

I know that you are super obsessed with me now that you know that I am leaving and even planning with other people to make a new more positive vibe forum because my vibe has become way too positive and beautiful and full of love and life and joy to be surrounded by complaining whiny negative hateful vibe people, but this is like a whole other level of attention seeking from you holy fuck

last edit on 9/10/2022 3:52:51 AM

by Turncoat

on 9/10/2022

Posts: 32790

compassionatequeen, on 9/5/2022:
MICHAEL LITERALLY DOES SMELL LIKE SHIT AND IT IS NOT BC IM CURSING HIM

I did not curse him I am a good witch not a bad witch :p

:p😇

:p

compassionatequeen on 9/4/2022:
I am not doing schizo stuff I am working out my relationship issues
with fake Michael these issues need to be worked out and unfortunately having a therapist for every hour of the day would be too expensive
Turncoat said:
Definitely seems like Schizo stuff.

compassionatequeen on 9/5/2022:
going through some awkward health issues
yup pretty much my life trying to be compassionate with myself and take everything a day at a time
like is people shaming me or trying to make me feel embarrassed about my health issues supposed to help me heal ? I do not get it I thought that love and compassion was supposed to be "the great healer" but what do I know ;p
oh yes I am the toxic one uh huh. mmhmm keep telling yourselves that but the truth is more obvious than you'd like to think, Isn't it ?
Buttered Toast said:
What? Who's doing this?
Idk lol secret excema and people who have allergies shamers :p It is not even contagious............ it is not like leprosy or could or something lol

compassionatequeen, on 9/5/2022:
my darn blocked eustachian tubes
causing so much sinus problems for me having to look up exercises online to get everything properly draining again
well it is actually probably allergies causing the problems but yeah the solution is to try to unblock the eustachian tubes

compassionatequeen on 9/4/2022:
I am going to go to good person land without you Michael
and I am not your trophy unless you follow me and come with me to good person land you won nothing, you did not "break" me, I chose to become a good person and it started with converting to christianity but that religion has too much contradictions and violence so now it is just me choosing good values and morals

I freaking fell in love with your seemingly soulless personality but it can only be temporary because you are not changing and becoming good to be with me

we are choosing two different life paths I guess because the selfish form of satanism and black magick that you practice is just not for me anymore

all that you are going to be to me when I look back in the past is a person who helped instigate my transformation into a good person with values and morals and who wants to love and help people
cmos said:
roastie is toastie
not a roastie I have an innie really pretty vagina

compassionatequeen, on 9/4/2022:
I would rather have physical health problems then be filled with fear
and and anxiety and self-doubt and self-hatred that spills out onto other people you could lose all of your physical health but still love yourself, and when you learn to genuinely love yourself and believe that you are more than just a physical body then you will never be in significant torment again Imo It's that unconditional love vibe

like I still have goals, and I still want to improve my physical health but I am not going to psychologically and emotionally beat myself up or hold myself to any standards set by other people or my own harsh hateful judgmental Inner critic that is still learning how to speak more respectfully to myself (I am training her to analyze my personality and my progress more respectfully lol) I am just going to look within and ask myself how to accomplish my own personal best at whatever goal that I have

compassionatequeen, on 9/4/2022:
doing yoga and getting my fitness together again and it feels so good
learning from my mistakes and becoming that much more powerful and leaving the past behind and focusing on loving and taking care of myself feels amazing

Ę̵̚x̸͎̾i̴͚̽s̵̻͐t̷͐ͅe̷̯͠n̴̤̚t̵̻̅i̵͉̿a̴̮͊l̵͍̂ ̴̹̕D̵̤̀e̸͓͂t̵̢͂e̴͕̓c̸̗̄t̴̗̿ï̶̪v̷̲̍é̵͔

by Turncoat

on 9/10/2022

Posts: 32790

compassionatequeen, on 9/4/2022:
It was never me who was wrong, it was other people who were wrong
and I believed what other people said, so in a way I was wrong for doing that but that is the only thing that I did wrong so I am done believing what other people say that is wrong out of their own fears and insecurities and not understanding how life and karma and spirituality and magick works so all I can really do is learn from my mistakes of believing what people said that was wrong, and never believe or agree with their wrong beliefs again you live and you learn and I am done letting fear or doubt hold me back from anything that I want to accomplish in my life

compassionatequeen, on 9/4/2022:
letting go, cord cutting, releasing Michael from energetically connect
ing with me try doing black magick on me now, but do not actually because it will not even work first of all, and secondly I do not appreciate it being done on me and I am not doing it on you anymore please leave me alone I am done and I am moving on to try to find a good man who will be interested in and cherish my calming and peaceful value that I am nurturing within myself and will treat me with respect

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compassionatequeen on 9/4/2022:
the only way for me to win is to become a good person
fuck.
I think that the only way to win is to become a good person, because Michael already "outbadded" me so there is no ego boost reward for me to be bad anymore I have had so many thoughts in my head about how to come out of this having gained something because all I see around me is loss and embarassment fuck, you know ? ugh god

compassionatequeen, on 9/4/2022:
Michael you are too ugly for me never come back here or talk to me
again I hate you and you are a disgusting pathetic piece of shit you could die right now and I would not care at all anymore
I tried to be good for you I tried to change for the better but you did not change with me and so now I am going back to me old ways and I do not want you anymore I hate you
I am going to get a way hotter boyfriend whose face does not look like a freakshow
Buttered Toast said:
no I am not like that I want to become a good person and he is ugly and a bad person and he is not even coming with me into good person land

compassionatequeen on 9/4/2022:
k stop with the sex magick and I will stop the love spells
stop I am moving on like you wanted
why are you so obsessed with me ? leave me alone
you are such a freaking weirdo get over me I just want a normal hot boyfriend not you
I know that you have been stalking me and putting sex magick on me through the energy that I post on here to try to keep me from taking my power back, stop being such a nerd it's cringey get a life please now it is your turn to move on I am not your trophy and I never have been you will never own me I just had to go through some spiritual lessons but now they are over and I am not interested in you anymore leave me alone bulbous face
Imagining myself having to wake up every day and kiss your bulbous face makes me want to never wake up again lol leave me alone for real

compassionatequeen, on 9/4/2022:
I invoked Lilith again got sick and tired of being victimized
time to get all of my power back being a good girl just is not for me I guess whatever I tried to be one and that is what counts it just does not work for me

compassionatequeen, on 9/4/2022:
going to manifest a boyfriend hotter than Michael
Michael is too ugly and old and probably std ridden for me
like it's pretty disgusting ew gross
I want a hottie not a used up old man
🙂

compassionatequeen, on 9/3/2022:
OH MY GOD UNIVERSE PLEASE FIX MICHAEL
HE NEEDS WAY MORE HELP THAN EVEN I DO FIX THAT MAN HE IS 40 FREAKING YEARS OLD
oh my god I cannot

compassionatequeen, on 9/3/2022:
what if Michael stays an immature conman forever that would be so sad
I see so much potential in him but what if he is just............ that and will always be that ? It is in my feminine energy to want to nurture and mature children but he is like I don't even know I do not want to see someone as a lost cause but if karma does not smack him in this lifetime he is probably going to be like that forever and it is so sad and pathetic a freaking 40 year old man child conman who thinks that he is a big pimp
I really just have to let him be that even if it is so wrong............ I know that I cannot control or change another person no matter how delusional and sick and wrong that they are

Ę̵̚x̸͎̾i̴͚̽s̵̻͐t̷͐ͅe̷̯͠n̴̤̚t̵̻̅i̵͉̿a̴̮͊l̵͍̂ ̴̹̕D̵̤̀e̸͓͂t̵̢͂e̴͕̓c̸̗̄t̴̗̿ï̶̪v̷̲̍é̵͔

last edit on 9/10/2022 4:23:37 AM

by Turncoat

on 9/10/2022

Posts: 32790

compassionatequeen, on 9/3/2022:
Ignoring me is not going to make your karmic lessons go away
and neither is sending mean negative thoughts towards me lol the only way out is through I am not taking responsibility for your karmic lessons because it is not even possible for me to do so grow up
*refrains from calling him a fart boy because I am becoming more mature myself lol* :p
NO ONE SAID THAT MATURING IS EASY MICHAEL you are not the antichrist or some big pimping player, you are a conman and you have been scamming everyone and it is time for you to own up to it and stop stealing from people they all want their stuff back so give them their money and their emotional health back stop stealing from people no one is into it anymore
nope not going to insult you I am a good mature woman now

compassionatequeen, on 9/3/2022:
WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND
FREAKING PREPARE THYSELF MICHAEL MAJLAK :p
PREPAAAAAAAAAAAARE THYSELF IT'S A COMIN' FOR YOU :p
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA YOU THOUGHT 😂:p YOU THOUGHT YOU WERE GOING TO GET AWAY WITH IT NOPE :p
you'll see, there is not a doubt in my mind about what's going to happen to you I've seen it play out time and time again and you are no special exception I promise your ass that :p I did this all on purpose lol for the greater good of humanity so do not come crying to me, man up and get your shit together and then we can talk

compassionatequeen, on 9/3/2022:
my Innocence is shining through and I am living for it :)😇
Just because you went through a phase of behaving in toxic ways in the past does not mean that you are destined to living like that forever karma teaches lessons but she also forgives and sets you free once you stop participating in the toxic behavior
Just say "No" :)😇
I just want to bask in my own peaceful and loving energy forever oh my gosh It is lovely :)

compassionatequeen on 9/3/2022:
sometimes it is better to let karma take over than try to
take matters into your own hands, I am freaking dropping all of that and going to let karma do her thing lol I freaking love her, she made me a better person and I am living for it
karma and I are like 🤞
she my bitch and I am her bitch

compassionatequeen, on 9/3/2022:
had a dream about Michael last night
Idk what to do anymore it feels like he is my soulmate I keep trying to fight my interest in him but part of me is like I can totally land that ass as my boyfriend I just need to come out of this depression and get myself in shape again
how do I know that I am wrong unless I try you know ? If it is motivating me to improve my health then maybe it is a good thing for me
guys Idk, I just want this person to act right and I wanted to try to help heal him but I just received the intuitive guidance that karma is coming for him and is going to do all of the work so that I do not even have to or have to have anything to do with him so I am going to get what I want in this situation and it is actually not to be with him because he does not act right and only karma can do the job that I was trying to do 🤷‍♀️
I cannot do someone else's healing work for them and I cannot take on their karmic lessons either, he is going to have to go through all of this on his own and if he comes out a better man then I might take him back someday who knows but I might have a new man in the future so who knows about that either

compassionatequeen, on 9/3/2022:
Michael you gotta start acting right karma's coming for you now
I was not acting right and karma came for me, now karma is about to come for your ass it is not my fault but this is what my intuition is telling me you aren't acting right and it's about to backfire on your ass
again like I am not trying to be mean but karmic lessons happen I am not initiating it or anything but it is going to happen even though I personally have been forgiving your awful behavior you gotta get your shit together like I am poots and then we can work as a team kk ?
look Ik that my intention was to use your ass when I moved to hollywood the first time, and karma came for me hard, but I got mine pooter and I changed as a person but you have not, you keep using women and karma is about to slam the door to the world on your face until you start acting right no one is cheering for you anymore because you are not using your talents for good and you are about to get exposed coming up in the future and it is not my fault this is a karmic thing coming for you
I feel bad about it but I also know that it is for your own good

and karma's not a liar, she keeps receipts ;p you'll see :)😇 lol you thought that you were going to get away with everything good god 🙄

compassionatequeen, on 9/3/2022:
self love thread
oh fuck yeah you're so fucking hot babe
:p Ik
uhhhhhhhhhhhh ride my face 💋😘
lol k I'll try :p
Dexciple said:
I was so busy looking at myself i never checked for hot chics

compassionatequeen, on 9/3/2022:
radical acceptance I used to be scared of Michael but now I'm not
kind of disappointed in myself that I was scared of him in the past but idk he is probably a little bitch Irl tbh and I would whip him and that is probably why he is scared of me now because he knows it and im more than willing to call his bluff lmao
radical acceptance life sucks sometimes and I cannot undo my mistakes from the past
Dexciple said:
I like you, but im more the other one, i didnt start bad, its just bad press.

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by Turncoat

on 9/10/2022

Posts: 32790

compassionatequeen, on 9/3/2022:
@Michael taking back wifey offer and emotional support offer
we are done you deserve nothing from me I was in psychosis and I am not anymore I do not want you at all and I have lost interest I feel repulsed I learned my lesson and that is all that you were to me a disappointing life lesson
you act like you have no self respect and it is disgusting and disturbing I do not want that in a significant other I want someone mature and respectful and you are behaving toxically af we are not compatible
Dexciple said:
i thought you were talking about the erhm brother, you are right?

compassionatequeen, on 9/2/2022:
I made a lot of mistakes in life always giving my heart to the wrong
person It fucking hurts and it fucking sucks that it took years and years of therapy for me to finally learn to stop doing this GOD IT FUCKING SUCKS IT SUCKS TO NOT HAVE HAD THE COMMON SENSE TO NOT HAVE DONE ANY OF IT IN THE FIRST PLACE IT SUCKS THAT I USED TO BE INSANE AND MAKE REALLY STUPID DECISIONS WITH MY HEART

I KNOW THAT YOU LIVE AND YOU LEARN BUT IT STILL SUCKS MY PAST HURTS IT IS SO PAINFUL

I LITERLALY KEEP CRYING AND CRYING AND CRYING IDK WHY IT TOOK THIS LONG TO FINALLY START RESPECTING MYSELF AND SETTJNG APPROPRIATE HEALTHY SELF-RESPECTING BOUNDARIES
GOD I JUST WANT TO SCREAM AT THE UNIVERSE AND AT MYSELF

UGH

compassionatequeen, on 9/2/2022:
k someone make new threads I am just doing boring healing stuff lol
*passes the talking stick* :p
Dexciple said:
ok, hi, im a bit drunk but you seem nice. when betty:matt@ shows ill buy wine. the only wine i buy is buckfast. hi anyway

compassionatequeen, on 9/2/2022:
accepting that there is a man out there who I want who doesnot want me
back this is not easy for me because even Sam Hyde when I was going through that obsession had one of his cameramen contact me to get more information about me and was trying to convince me to join their team but I was too scared Sam can be horrifically mean to people, and I have compassion on him but that is way too harsh of an energy for me to be around and to trust that I would not be mistreated

but anyway I am accepting that Michael does not seem to want me, Idk why and I probably never will I mean I know the reasons but idk why the reasons are not changing men have plenty of reasons not to want to be with me but all of those reasons usually start to disintegrate because of my seductive energy so yeah my pride is really struggling to accept that Michael genuinely seems to not want me it sucks but staying obsessed with him is only going to confuse and break my heart more so I am going to move on and I am going to try to manifest a significant other life partner who has all of the qualities that I am looking for, and Michael has them but he is not communicating with me so I cannot have a relationship with someone who does not even want to talk to me or be with me Irl............

I suppose that I was rejected I do not like this feeling but It is not the end of the world and I will heal and recover but yeah it sucks to feel rejected even after you tried everything that you could think of to win him over 😭💔
I am going to move on and heal though and I will be fine I am ready to have a stable committed relationship with a man even if it is an equally open relationship I still want like a main significant other life partner

compassionatequeen, on 9/2/2022:
I want my significant other life partner to be a male extrovert who
practically bounces off of the wall with energy because I was thinking a lot about what type of significant other would compliment my personality the most and would be best for me to spend my life with, and I realized that I always felt healthiest and most alive around extroverted men with lots of energy that are basically bouncing off the walls with energy lol because I calm them down a little, and they hype me up a little and it becomes a good balance and they also pull me out of my shell and get me to participate in the outside world because my interest in following them around overrides my tendency to prefer being in the house and in "quiet safe zones" because this leads to health problems and obesity for myself personally

so yeah just putting this out there to the universe and we shall see what happens eventually I suppose that I have realized that I might not be able to manifest a specific person being my significant other, but I can probably manifest a significant other with the personality traits that I find most attractive and healthy and balancing and complimenting for my personality :)
I want a real human being significant other you know, not a fantasy lol there is a time and a place for fantasizing in manifesting but If it is never actualizing into reality it might be time to change your manifestation into something actually achievable :p

compassionatequeen, on 9/2/2022:
offering emotional stability to the right man
for most of my life I have been very emotionally unstable and mean to men because I was driven my my harsh judgmental hateful Inner critic, but after my last *ahem* karmic lesson............ I am leaving these personality traits in the past I desire to bless my future life partner with peace and trust and being a good nurturing teammate but he has to be the right one for me because my personality is pretty complex, and I am not going to become a completely different person and I do crave stimulation and being brought out of my shell and taken on adventures I know that I could settle for a relationship that does not bring me out of my shell because I have many options ranging from introverts to extroverts, but my heart craves someone who will bring me out of my shell and I think that extroverts are good for introverts, because us introverts tend to shut ourselves off from the world if we are not encouraged to get our booties out of the house and out of our "safe quiet zones" that we tend to gravitate towards if forced to leave our houses lol

I personally believe that an extroverted male is going to be the best for me in this lifetime because my physical health is declining and I think that it is in part due to my introversion keeping me away from participating in the outside world very much and my most enjoyable relationships have been with men who pull me out of my shell because my interest in following them around overcomes my introversion

even being with a crack addict which was my last serious relationship was better for me than when I used to live with my mother and grandmother and barely left the house ever lol yeah I was sober and not getting into trouble but I gained so much weight then too and I felt like I was dying inside

Ę̵̚x̸͎̾i̴͚̽s̵̻͐t̷͐ͅe̷̯͠n̴̤̚t̵̻̅i̵͉̿a̴̮͊l̵͍̂ ̴̹̕D̵̤̀e̸͓͂t̵̢͂e̴͕̓c̸̗̄t̴̗̿ï̶̪v̷̲̍é̵͔

by Turncoat

on 9/13/2022

Posts: 32790

compassionatequeen, on 9/12/2022:
SHOVE YOUR DAMN RULES AND "SHOULDS" UP YOUR FUCKING ASS
shove them waaaaaaaaaaaay up there SLAM THAT SHIT UP YOUR POOPHOLE

compassionatequeen, on 9/12/2022:
do my fartshakes bring all of the boys to the yard ?
Important question of the day

compassionatequeen, on 9/13/2022:
my farts tribute
songs to worship and commemorate my farts

😱:p

compassionatequeen, on 9/11/2022:
It is time for us all to take all of our power back from the haters
listen guys, all of us have come across people in our lives who want to try to make us feel like we are not the beautiful amazing awesome people that we are, and it is time for us all to make an effort at not giving any of our power away to people who are lying to us and telling us that we do not deserve love or acceptance or this or that when we are just trying to live our best lives I am tired of all of the hate and taking negative complaining people seriously and I for one am going to be taking all of my power back and I would suggest that everyone else do this as well, for your own mental health 😊😇👍

compassionatequeen, on 9/11/2022:
I am not going to resort to scat whenever Michael ignores me anymore
It was a way that I used to act out my annoyance when people behave in ways that annoy me (like not doing what I want), but I honestly do not even care that he ignores me anymore because if he does not want to work consistently as a teammate with me and collaborate together to spread love and compassion to the world, then what is even the point of us talking anymore anyway ? and yes Michael is the sociopathcommunity member username Omari but feel free to think whatever you want
I am on a mission to spread love and compassion to the world, soo yeah not going to compromise my mission just because Michael is ignoring me lmao like ooooooooooooh it is just such the end of the world 😱🙄🤭 yeah umm nope not really dude
soo yeah I consider myself in remission from scat acting out now, and hopefully I will not relapse............

compassionatequeen, on 9/13/2022:
I need an overcoming addictions expert
to help me overcome my scat acting out addiction Mackle
I have reached fart bottom

compassionatequeen, on 9/13/2022:
🥰😭 baby
you're taking care of yourself oh my gosh I am so happy I love you
I am so proud of you 🤍
you do not need to abuse yourself anymore I am here for you I will take care of your heart

compassionatequeen, on 9/15/2022:
gaslighters and scapegoaters are soo annoying
please learn to take personal responsibility for your own actions 😊👍
Turncoat said:
compassionatequeen:
DUDE IM NOT DOING ANYTHING
you slicing your own damn thumb open is not my fault
stop blaming me for everything omfg
and I'm going to send all of your negative energy to be transmuted into white light I am not even returning it to you
so be fucking grateful for a change asshole wow
I'm not your fucking scapegoat
we've been over this I was never Jesus and I am sure not Jesus now
you need a therapist
go get therapy
like rn
go start making phone calls
bye I'm ignoring you now
Your magic cut his thumb?
🙄 no, he cut his own thumb

Ę̵̚x̸͎̾i̴͚̽s̵̻͐t̷͐ͅe̷̯͠n̴̤̚t̵̻̅i̵͉̿a̴̮͊l̵͍̂ ̴̹̕D̵̤̀e̸͓͂t̵̢͂e̴͕̓c̸̗̄t̴̗̿ï̶̪v̷̲̍é̵͔

last edit on 9/17/2022 4:54:20 PM

by Turncoat

on 9/17/2022

Posts: 32790

compassionatequeen, on 9/15/2022:
I am not allowing my borderline pd tendency toblamemyselfforeverything
(formerly: I undo any reversal or return to sender or binding spells that I)
I am not allowing my borderline pd tendency to blame myself for everything bad that happens to be taken advantage of by people anymore, leave me the fuck alone I am Innocent (editted)
see there now if anything bad keeps happening to you there is no way that it could be my fault at all I am a good person leave me alone
Turncoat said:
Your spells are this simple?
😊😇
Turncoat said:
Really though, a lot of practitioners utilize incense or candles, sigils, incantations that involve some twist on language or meaning, invoke some force to assist with it, sacrifice something to grant their magic spirit...

The intention here seems kinda weak without all these ritualistic aspects that could otherwise boost their faith.
yeah so he needs to stop blaming me, because I only used to blame myself for bad things happening because of struggling with borderline pd- and that disorder causes you to beat yourself up for like even just breathing essentially
If he is going to continue blaming me for every single thing that goes wrong we are never going to be together and that is becoming freaking fine with me at this point
Angry nose Michael is a turn off, I only want to be around calm peaceful angel Michael
I am so glad that I am single and free
Turncoat said:
Different title and OP?

Why'd you edit out the undoing spell?
because I have nothing to prove to anyone except to myself, and I am not going to try to be in a relationship with someone who wants to take advantage of my struggles with borderline pd and gaslight and scapegoat me and make me sicker anymore

compassionatequeen, on 9/15/2022:
I do not want to be a leader anymore I want someone to take care of me
to help me take care of myself and to support me and nurture my happiness and health in exchange for my love and obviously you know what is between boyfriend and girlfriend soo this is what I am looking for in my next partner and I want him to have his life mostly together so that I can depend on him to be able to help me during the times that I am feeling sick or confused
I used to want to be a leader but I cannot be a leader because I am too sick (sometimes physically and sometimes mentally) and confused a lot of the time my ex tried to be this person for me, but he did not have his life enough together to be able to actually be what I needed in a significant other

Ik that I am easy to fall in love with, soo I am not expecting it to be difficult for me to decide on someone new to partner myself with soon I am not wanting to stay single for too much longer because I feel like my heart is healing enough to be able to open up to my future significant other soon

compassionatequeen, on 9/15/2022:
embracing the torture of transformation
controversial thread but

sometimes when you are transforming into the better version of yourself you have to let go of some stuff that is not good for you and sometimes it was stuff that you were addicted to and the pain of having to face your problems without your old bad habits to help you cope can feel like you are being ripped to shreds while you are transforming well this is how it feels to me anyway, like tons of sharp knives tearing at my body and my mind and my spirit

and I guess that instead of running from and resisting the pain, I am going to embrace it, because I know that after the pain I am going to be the better me, the me that I have been wanting to be for a long time but that I was not ready to be until recently the braver, wiser more forgiving and compassionate me that tries her best to treat herself and other people with respect and compassion
super deep thread whatever lol :p
Idk, there reaches a point where you are no longer willing to return to behavior that just was not loving and supportive of yourself, and sometimes that leaves you with a painful alternative but even when you know that it is going to be painful that the pain is worth not abusing yourself anymore
Turncoat said:
lol not me, I always used to run from pain and discomfort but like I am 28 and we all are dying and dying hurts and I might as well just accept that dying hurts and so does saying no to impulsive behavior that leaves you feeling like you are unworthy of being loved and accepted for just showing up as you are (as long as you are not like intentionally trying to hurt other people, because obviously healthy relationships are about trying to get along with people and not purposefully hurting them but yeah no one is perfect at this you cannot please everyone so they say)

It's just, I do not want to dive headfirst into behaviors that I know will leave me feeling not appreciated anymore and I used to because of the self-sabotaging borderline pd thing

I guess that there is good pain, and pain that is destructive and unhelpful for your goals and I want to embrace more of the former, and avoid the latter but I used to experience more of the latter because the behaviors that I did that ended up in me feeling that destructive unhelpful pain usually felt good in the shortterm, but later on had unrewarding consequences you know the whole addictive cycle

I kind of feel like people can get addicted to anything, but some addictions are much more toxic than other addictions and we all die eventually lol

lifeisamazing, on 9/16/2022:
I like to focus on everything going right and good in life
Yes 😊😇🤍🕊💋
soo many blessings to be grateful for if you just take the time to look around and pay attention to them :)

:p
The Waltz said:
That's true. People tend to focus just on the bad because the bad are basically problems that are pending to be solved. The good has already happened so we focus on "what to do now" instead of being happy for what good happened to us.

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