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my body is not traditionally attractive even for a "fat person"

but I still want to teach all of America to unconditionally love themselves how am I going to make my dream come true ? is it even possible because I feel like it is my life purpose but what if people do not like me or want to listen to what I have to say because I am not "traditionally attractive"
but like I really want to stand up for all of America that might be overweight or you know not that pretty to look at because I think that everyone is beautiful

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Turncoat said: 

Original title: sad that I chose food over physical beauty and physical health


do I look better obese ?

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I have a lot more curves and my boobs are bigger, but I should still lose weight for my physical health though

tfw I realized when I try to paintMichaelwhiteimalwaysdescribingmyself

tfw I realized that whenever I try to paint Michael white I am always describing myself and not him  what the fuck

what the actual fuck ?

umm, yeah I would definitely recommend doing shadow work it gives you some pretty lifechanging realizations....

holy fuck I was projecting all of my goodness onto that person when none of that goodness were actually even qualities of that person what the fuckkkkkkkkkkkk....

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soo my vagina is still super tight it went back to normal lol ;p

I was just feeling paranoid lol

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Turncoat said: 

Let me guess, another "mackle my poopsikins come back" topic? 


bored of this forum

I'll lurk and see if any of my obsessed stalkers come begging for me back but other than that idk pretty boring here lately

Turncoat said: 

Do you think it's over how people are losing their patience talking to you? 


you are beyond delusional soo cringe, I lost interest in the forum a couple weeks ago and have been pulling back my attention because I am onto more important stuff now and you are all self entitled narcissists so you think that you lost interest in me nah that is not how reality is seek help! (forreal, like completely seriously seek help)

Turncoat said: 

Just asking a question. 🤷

You seem agitated and defensive. 


yeah because your specific type of narcissism is especially toxic and delusional and annoying  like it is even worse than most because you have no ambition and try to drag everyone else around you down usually by lying and trying to twist reality into what you would prefer reality to be even when it is so far off base from what is actually happening 
but no you know why I am really pissed,  you know why I am freaking pissed,  is because the actual way to successfully manifesting anything that seems out of reach or difficult to manifest  (for me it is a significant other that I am attracted to physically and personality and the life of my dreams)  I have to let go of feeling like I need any of it and that really fucking sucks because I do not like my life the way that it is right now and trying to be grateful for it is a fucking struggle

but no one fucking understands what I am having to go through right now and why it is soo important to myself living out my ultimate life purpose and destiny that I have had since I was a little child to teach people to love themselves and STOP BULLYING EACH OTHER SOO MUCH  I AM AGAINST FUCKING BULLYING I HATE IT I THINK THAT IT IS SOO FUCKING UGLY AND I WANT TO FIGHT IT AND I AM GOING TO PUT MY FUCKING ALL INTO IT AND IDFC WHAT ANYONE ELSE THINKS AND IF THEY AGREE WITH ME OR NOT I AM STILL GOING TO SPEAK MY MIND ABOUT IT AND DO WHAT I CAN TO SPREAD THE ANTI BULLYING MESSAGE

one thing about me is that I would prefer complete peace but since people around me are always bullying away and then they bully me too and then I get angry at that and retaliate because guess what fucking ignoring it does not make it go away- the only thing that is going to make it go away is actually taking a stand against it and even then bullying is still probably always going to be around, but I am going to do what I can to be an influence for it to decrease

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You've been making a lot of these lately, it's been interesting to see how you respond to awakening your sense of shame. 


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Original Title: LOGAN

OP is lost, but it was like one or two sentences over how Logan not giving her a job is somehow Majlak's fault. 


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I have been finding posting on this forum uninteresting lately

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You could accept that you are a liar who lies, in order to work on no longer doing it. 


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I shall pretty much only pay attention if michael is posting stuff on here anymore probably, but I might get bored of that too and just stop paying attention to this forum at all


Original Title: lying is not the same as having opposing unintigrated perspectives

of your personality and changing your mind a lot because of that  like if I have some form of mpd or whatever I do not know but I know that different parts of my personality opposite each other like almost all of the time and it makes it extremely difficult for me to decide on what I want to do and then commit to it long term  there are strengths and weaknesses to being able to see life and situations from many different perspectives,  but for myself it is very confusing and that is another reason that I desire a significant other who can help myself reason through all of the insanity that goes on on my head and make good productive decisions for myself

Is this a form of mpd or add or what ?  it is very disorienting and I do not do well on my own but I have historically chosen less than ideal significant others for myself  I feel like I have narrowed down the types of qualities that are most ideal,  but it is again difficult to remain confident in my decisions because I do not seem to have an integrated perspective on anything

and I have kind of resigned myself to if I need to protect myself from whatever trauma might have happened when I was younger to this extent,  Idk if trying to integrate is even the best decision for myself  because maybe I do not want to know and should not know what happened to myself when I was younger that would have caused this much damage to myself psychologically  but if I find a therapist that I can trust someday maybe I will become more integrated but I always seem to lose trust in them soo idk

also joking around and teasing is not lying either and I do that a lot too  it might be confusing to other people on what I am serious about and what I am joking or being sarcastic about but it still is not technically lying  (and I am not going to stop joking around because I like doing it and I am not a student of some like professional career where I have to be super serious about everything soo)

soo in summary changing your mind a lot due to having a mental disorder that causes a lot of confusion and disorientation and joking around a lot are,  while still confusing to other people,  not the same as lying


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0 votes RE: [CONDENSED]Turquie
I am not going to work for Logan's company soo

especially not since you told me that he flips out on female employees if they reject him because I do not want anything sexual with him I was teasing you obviously you need a better plan but I am moving on soo

fine michael majlak is not my cuck now phone call or im ignoring

this forum larping is ending today either make it real or im ignoring the forum
oops I forgot that I was not posting on this forum anymore

oops lol

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Turncoat said:

You seem more self-conscious on Ritalin, interesting. 

I was on ritalin for the entire last year except for the last couple months what are you talking about, I posted way more on ritalin I am done posting on here because people are constantly trying to gaslight and invalidate me and it is just stupid and I do not appreciate it soo I am not coming here for advice or other people's opinions on this forum on what I have to say anymore and I said that I probably will only respond to michael if anything at all until I get bored of even lurking in which case I will not even be paying attention to the forum


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Turncoat said:

You seem more self-conscious on Ritalin, interesting.

I was on ritalin for the entire last year except for the last couple months what are you talking about

Would you say you were just as extreme then as you'd been on Addy? 

,  I posted way more on ritalin I am done posting on here because people are constantly trying to gaslight and invalidate me and it is just stupid and I do not appreciate it soo I am not coming here for advice or other people's opinions on this forum on what I have to say anymore and I said that I probably will only respond to michael if anything at all until I get bored of even lurking in which case I will not even be paying attention to the forum

Okay how is this even Gaslighting? 


are you upset at me ?

and if so why ? I stopped doing the scat comments soo all that is left is if it is that I am posting too many threads ? or what is soo distressing about anything that I am posting lmao just curious why people seem to be upset with me more than they used to I was hoping that people would be happy for me that I seem somewhat more neurotypical but idk doesn't seem like people are liking that hmm

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Golden_Eagle said:

Not really. 

Give us 5 minutes.


people have just been seeming really attacking here lately and idk if it is just that I am more sensitive to it because I have been healing myself orr like if I did something to upset people ?


Turncoat said:

You aren't powerful enough to upset people, other than through frustration, and frustration won't make anyone leave until it's seen as a pattern. 


look Idc what people think about my process because if I come out of

it more confident and doing well mentally then it does not matter how insane my dark night of the soul was because at least I made it out of the insanity and that is what I believe

my Inner system / brain did the best that it could with the information that it knew at the time to try to protect myself and unfortunately even knowing a lot of therapy techniques was not enough at the time and soo it turned into this big overdramatic thing

*twerks gently* idk how to stop guys my booty wants to twerk

I just got this vision of me in a club on a stripper pole fucking around and entertaining everyone ;p



good song but omg those women's asses are tiny compared to mine the fuck



should've would've could've right ? too late weeeeeeeeeeee ;p

Turncoat said:

 good song but omg those women's asses are tiny compared to mine the fuck

"It's not about the size, it's about how they use it." They didn't go to the ER over it either. 😉



🤦‍♀️ no did you even listen to the song, he is singing about big asses but has women with tiny asses dancing in his video if his ass is bigger than the women in his video that he is singing about having big asses there is definitely a problem, and all women are beautiful and little booties matter and all of that but the problem is that they do not match up with his song lyrics, like at all


Turncoat said:

Why not watch successful Twerk songs with big booty bitches then, like Bubble Butt from Major Lazer? 


 

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