Sociopath Community

 super deep thread whatever lol  :p

Idk,  there reaches a point where you are no longer willing to return to behavior that just was not loving and supportive of yourself,  and sometimes that leaves you with a painful alternative  but even when you know that it is going to be painful that the pain is worth not abusing yourself anymore

Turncoat said: 

lol not me,  I always used to run from pain and discomfort  but like I am 28 and we all are dying  and dying hurts  and I might as well just accept that dying hurts and so does saying no to impulsive behavior that leaves you feeling like you are unworthy of being loved and accepted for just showing up as you are  (as long as you are not like intentionally trying to hurt other people,  because obviously healthy relationships are about trying to get along with people and not purposefully hurting them but yeah no one is perfect at this  you cannot please everyone so they say)

It's just,  I do not want to dive headfirst into behaviors that I know will leave me feeling not appreciated anymore  and I used to because of the self-sabotaging borderline pd thing

I guess that there is good pain,  and pain that is destructive and unhelpful for your goals  and I want to embrace more of the former,  and avoid the latter  but I used to experience more of the latter because the behaviors that I did that ended up in me feeling that destructive unhelpful pain usually felt good in the shortterm,  but later on had unrewarding consequences  you know the whole addictive cycle

I kind of feel like people can get addicted to anything,  but some addictions are much more toxic than other addictions  and we all die eventually lol