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Legga? said:

Why don't you?

 I've been trying to get a job, and admittedly my mom has been helping me out with it, which is so far good, but unfortunately none of the jobs I've applied for have been going anywhere. She doesn't want me to entirely move out, as I had a chance to move out and she deeply insisted that she needed me to stay and watch my sister, which I did it for her, but it drives me nuts.

COVID has made this issue more complex.

My main frustration is the fact that I've been trying to read and learn things but it has issues sticking or even focus.

All in all, from this point on. I'll stop bitching about it, I typically don't speak on this shit anyway. Not many people know about it, and there's a lot I don't talk on because as it proves, I'm just a dick and so yea. 

Thanks for the talk and all. I'll keep trying to be better. 

So if they respected your space, gave you more autonomy, respected you, and trusted you, you wouldn't have issues with them, I take it?

So the reason you haven't moved out is that you don't have a job?

AppleGenius said: 

So if they respected your space, gave you more autonomy, respected you, and trusted you, you wouldn't have issues with them, I take it?

Why haven't you left yet then?

 Well, I feel like an idiot, I don't know how mentally stable I can be. I don't really know where I'd go, or how to live. I'm trying to do it in a careful and calm matter, even though that should give me no right to bitch then, so I apologize.

I am afraid I guess of just up and leaving, I don't know what I'd do. I am paranoid of getting in trouble with cops, and such. 

So the reason you haven't moved out is that you don't have a job?

 yea basically, im trying to get a better job and save up, since my current job is just a govt job to watch my sister so not really a job just free money, which i dont like since i'd rather actually be working

Chaotik said: 

All in all, from this point on. I'll stop bitching about it, I typically don't speak on this shit anyway. Not many people know about it, and there's a lot I don't talk on because as it proves, I'm just a dick and so yea. 

Thanks for the talk and all. I'll keep trying to be better. 

As you like. Thanks for the chat, then.

This is not a therapy board, by the way. Maybe you should consider Alice's advice and get therapy.

AppleGenius said: 

Chaotik said: 

All in all, from this point on. I'll stop bitching about it, I typically don't speak on this shit anyway. Not many people know about it, and there's a lot I don't talk on because as it proves, I'm just a dick and so yea. 

Thanks for the talk and all. I'll keep trying to be better. 

As you like. Thanks for the chat, then.

This is not a therapy board, by the way. Maybe you should consider Alice's advice and get therapy.

He can't even get himself to do a session on 7Cups, he doesn't want to get better when he'd rather indulge in the validation and catharsis of his pain. 

He's addicted to the self-pity, and feels entitled to it through how it's others faults. On some level he gets off to this. 

Chaotik said: 

AppleGenius said: 

So if they respected your space, gave you more autonomy, respected you, and trusted you, you wouldn't have issues with them, I take it?

Why haven't you left yet then?

Well, I feel like an idiot, I don't know how mentally stable I can be. I don't really know where I'd go, or how to live. I'm trying to do it in a careful and calm matter, even though that should give me no right to bitch then, so I apologize.

I am afraid I guess of just up and leaving, I don't know what I'd do. I am paranoid of getting in trouble with cops, and such. 

So you feel trapped because you think you're stupid? 

So the reason you haven't moved out is that you don't have a job?

 yea basically, im trying to get a better job and save up, since my current job is just a govt job to watch my sister so not really a job just free money, which i dont like since i'd rather actually be working

As a baseless idealist with a weak foundation, you will never be happy with your lot. You've been in this same rut for a while now, haven't you? 

Chaotik said: 

Legga? said:

You're probably thinking Honey Boo Boo when you say entitled. When I say entitled, I mean these degenerate kids who disrespect their family and call their grandma an annoying bitch online cause she accidentally knocked over some trash when she tried to help you take care of something.

Then sure, I've evolved into an entitled bitch then. Not because I want to be, I'd rather just live on my own. 

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Legga? said:

You clearly don't give them any respect. Yet you demand them to give you respect.

 They don't have to give me respect, they just need to stop trying to control my life, and let me breathe.

You mean the life where you're otherwise doing nothing with it? 

I bet they think you're a lazy good-for-nothing. 

 

In general, I think the issue is that I just don't connect with them well, and maybe some of the fault is on my end, and some of the fault is on their end, it doesn't matter whose more in the wrong, all that matters if that I just want it to stop, and with the violent thoughts in my head, I don't want to hurt them, but it keeps becoming an obsession that won't leave.

You're making everything that happens out to be their fault, when your only real responsibility right now is to look over someone for something so easy you're outright calling it "Free Money". 

It's a framework issue that stems from a combination of entitlement and an unwillingness to see your own faults. Your sitting here listing them only serves as self-indulgence, and even after that you'll lash out and blame the very people taking care of you, who worry about you. 

You want to see problems in others so that it doesn't have to be your own, and the more I salt this wound the angrier you tend to become. 

You. Don't. Want. To. Get. Better. 

You want something to blame. 

Turncoat said: 

AppleGenius said: 

Chaotik said: 

All in all, from this point on. I'll stop bitching about it, I typically don't speak on this shit anyway. Not many people know about it, and there's a lot I don't talk on because as it proves, I'm just a dick and so yea. 

Thanks for the talk and all. I'll keep trying to be better. 

As you like. Thanks for the chat, then.

This is not a therapy board, by the way. Maybe you should consider Alice's advice and get therapy.

He can't even get himself to do a session on 7Cups, he doesn't want to get better when he'd rather indulge in the validation and catharsis of his pain. 

He's addicted to the self-pity, and feels entitled to it through how it's others faults. On some level he gets off to this. 

I'm not against getting therapy. It's just that when I see something that is online text based chat where I open my feeling to someone on a site that is endorsed by the Wall Street Journal, I start to get some bad vibes. 

I don't see it as self-pity but I can see why you'd see it that way. Since, typically self-pity implies inability to self-reflect, when I think it's pretty obvious I self-reflect in my ramblings. I am not saying I'm 100% a victim and that I deserve to be treated way better. 

It's fine TC, I guess I don't want to get better. Truly a shame. 


I didn't know you could just magically tell what my family thinks of me. If my mom thought I was a lazy good for nothing person then why is it when I ask her about therapy, she says there is nothing wrong with me, and that I don't need it. 

I'm sensing a disconnect in logic here.

The only 2 people who see my as lazy good for nothing piece of shit are the two people that have issues with alcohol and constantly ask for my money, or my mom's money.

Do you have problems of your own TC?