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Turncoat said: 

So what's the expected time table? 

 You confuse me with Lena's old pfp. 

Sometime after Jan. 1st since that's how long it takes for my mom's insurance and shit to even activate. It doesn't help that I know this girl that's a bit younger than me that has been a victim of a lot of abuse and shit is in love with me, and despite me like telling her to kill her feelings for me, she still loves me and "wants to make me happy" and "be special for me" and I see her like a little sister. I've never thought about her that way, she has been abused by pedophiles. 

She used to want to be like me because I am "numb" whenever that's not really the case. The friendship and things we talk about are less dramatic then made out to be. She has also killed small animals and such and tortures them. She wants me to "feel again" I do feel obviously.

I've admittedly made fun of her and such, and bullied her and even in a vc in a call last night with her confessing to me, I was just like telling her in my monotone and what I deem to be "logical" way of speaking which makes me sound dead inside and uncaring that it really just wouldn't work and I don't like her like that, but she still thinks about me a lot and is in love with me, and she explained to me that she loves me because even if I don't "feel" I still want the best for people, and that I'm a smart funny guy that has a pure vision and shit. She also loves that I am real and will tell people straight up shit and be honest? That's what she said. 

She used to praise me. I get if you question the validity, I can't prove it because I'm not going to leak sensitive information, but I'm genuinely not a guy that likes praise. Unless maybe from very specific people. 

I wish she didn't love me, but I can't control her emotions, and so I've accepted it, and she knows I don't like her, and I will never be with her, but she still insists on wanting to help me and such, and I can't feel like anything other than well indifference. If she talks about it a lot and is all gushy and shit, I tend to get annoyed at her, which is why in the past, I lashed out against her for even liking me. 

Are you still a Marxist? 

AliceInWonderland said: 

Are you still a Marxist? 

 I'd like to think so but due to my memory issues and such, I'd rather just re-start and develop a curriculum to start reading Marx, Lenin, etc in regards to Marxists, I also would like to try to read and understand Freud and Lacan, but that doesn't mean I don't want to study other points of view, I'd like to study western philosophy and even religion and such. 

I'd say just because of my current stance and understanding of the world, that I'd agree with the Marxist perspective. That's open to change. Obviously, polymathy is still a dream. Though under the current conditions I am in, and my own issues. It'll take some time for me to build up to that, and I need to start small rather than bite off more than I can chew. 

Chaotik said: 

AliceInWonderland said: 

Are you still a Marxist? 

 I'd like to think so but due to my memory issues and such, I'd rather just re-start and develop a curriculum to start reading Marx, Lenin, etc in regards to Marxists, I also would like to try to read and understand Freud and Lacan, but that doesn't mean I don't want to study other points of view, I'd like to study western philosophy and even religion and such. 

I'd say just because of my current stance and understanding of the world, that I'd agree with the Marxist perspective. That's open to change. Obviously, polymathy is still a dream. Though under the current conditions I am in, and my own issues. It'll take some time for me to build up to that, and I need to start small rather than bite off more than I can chew. 

 I've been thinking of reading Lacan. 

I've been reading exploring Zizeks work this past month and, despite maintaining that he is not Lacanian he mentions Lacan constantly. It's actually rather cute, nonetheless he makes Lacan an attractive enough thinker for me to explore.

Chaotik said: 

Turncoat said: 

So what's the expected time table? 

 You confuse me with Lena's old pfp. 

Sometime after Jan. 1st since that's how long it takes for my mom's insurance and shit to even activate. It doesn't help that I know this girl that's a bit younger than me that has been a victim of a lot of abuse and shit is in love with me, and despite me like telling her to kill her feelings for me, she still loves me and "wants to make me happy" and "be special for me" and I see her like a little sister. I've never thought about her that way, she has been abused by pedophiles. 

She used to want to be like me because I am "numb" whenever that's not really the case. The friendship and things we talk about are less dramatic then made out to be. She has also killed small animals and such and tortures them. She wants me to "feel again" I do feel obviously.

I've admittedly made fun of her and such, and bullied her and even in a vc in a call last night with her confessing to me, I was just like telling her in my monotone and what I deem to be "logical" way of speaking which makes me sound dead inside and uncaring that it really just wouldn't work and I don't like her like that, but she still thinks about me a lot and is in love with me, and she explained to me that she loves me because even if I don't "feel" I still want the best for people, and that I'm a smart funny guy that has a pure vision and shit. She also loves that I am real and will tell people straight up shit and be honest? That's what she said. 

She used to praise me. I get if you question the validity, I can't prove it because I'm not going to leak sensitive information, but I'm genuinely not a guy that likes praise. Unless maybe from very specific people. 

I wish she didn't love me, but I can't control her emotions, and so I've accepted it, and she knows I don't like her, and I will never be with her, but she still insists on wanting to help me and such, and I can't feel like anything other than well indifference. If she talks about it a lot and is all gushy and shit, I tend to get annoyed at her, which is why in the past, I lashed out against her for even liking me. 

 does she erp

TPG said: 

Chaotik said: 

Turncoat said: 

So what's the expected time table? 

 You confuse me with Lena's old pfp. 

Sometime after Jan. 1st since that's how long it takes for my mom's insurance and shit to even activate. It doesn't help that I know this girl that's a bit younger than me that has been a victim of a lot of abuse and shit is in love with me, and despite me like telling her to kill her feelings for me, she still loves me and "wants to make me happy" and "be special for me" and I see her like a little sister. I've never thought about her that way, she has been abused by pedophiles. 

She used to want to be like me because I am "numb" whenever that's not really the case. The friendship and things we talk about are less dramatic then made out to be. She has also killed small animals and such and tortures them. She wants me to "feel again" I do feel obviously.

I've admittedly made fun of her and such, and bullied her and even in a vc in a call last night with her confessing to me, I was just like telling her in my monotone and what I deem to be "logical" way of speaking which makes me sound dead inside and uncaring that it really just wouldn't work and I don't like her like that, but she still thinks about me a lot and is in love with me, and she explained to me that she loves me because even if I don't "feel" I still want the best for people, and that I'm a smart funny guy that has a pure vision and shit. She also loves that I am real and will tell people straight up shit and be honest? That's what she said. 

She used to praise me. I get if you question the validity, I can't prove it because I'm not going to leak sensitive information, but I'm genuinely not a guy that likes praise. Unless maybe from very specific people. 

I wish she didn't love me, but I can't control her emotions, and so I've accepted it, and she knows I don't like her, and I will never be with her, but she still insists on wanting to help me and such, and I can't feel like anything other than well indifference. If she talks about it a lot and is all gushy and shit, I tend to get annoyed at her, which is why in the past, I lashed out against her for even liking me. 

 does she erp

 Not to my knowledge, but she has a boyfriend and cheats on him with I think a girl and a guy. 

Chaotik said: 

TPG said: 

Chaotik said: 

Turncoat said: 

So what's the expected time table? 

 You confuse me with Lena's old pfp. 

Sometime after Jan. 1st since that's how long it takes for my mom's insurance and shit to even activate. It doesn't help that I know this girl that's a bit younger than me that has been a victim of a lot of abuse and shit is in love with me, and despite me like telling her to kill her feelings for me, she still loves me and "wants to make me happy" and "be special for me" and I see her like a little sister. I've never thought about her that way, she has been abused by pedophiles. 

She used to want to be like me because I am "numb" whenever that's not really the case. The friendship and things we talk about are less dramatic then made out to be. She has also killed small animals and such and tortures them. She wants me to "feel again" I do feel obviously.

I've admittedly made fun of her and such, and bullied her and even in a vc in a call last night with her confessing to me, I was just like telling her in my monotone and what I deem to be "logical" way of speaking which makes me sound dead inside and uncaring that it really just wouldn't work and I don't like her like that, but she still thinks about me a lot and is in love with me, and she explained to me that she loves me because even if I don't "feel" I still want the best for people, and that I'm a smart funny guy that has a pure vision and shit. She also loves that I am real and will tell people straight up shit and be honest? That's what she said. 

She used to praise me. I get if you question the validity, I can't prove it because I'm not going to leak sensitive information, but I'm genuinely not a guy that likes praise. Unless maybe from very specific people. 

I wish she didn't love me, but I can't control her emotions, and so I've accepted it, and she knows I don't like her, and I will never be with her, but she still insists on wanting to help me and such, and I can't feel like anything other than well indifference. If she talks about it a lot and is all gushy and shit, I tend to get annoyed at her, which is why in the past, I lashed out against her for even liking me. 

 does she erp

 Not to my knowledge, but she has a boyfriend and cheats on him with I think a girl and a guy. 

 give me her discord tag