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Chaotik said: 

It's fine TC, I guess I don't want to get better. Truly a shame. 

Defeatest clausing this so that you don't have to take it seriously, why? 

Because you can't take it seriously without sperging. 

I didn't know you could just magically tell what my family thinks of me.

Noting the degrees of seperation as if that makes you an expert on these people, why? 

Because them thinking you're a lazy good-for-nothing goes against your narrative, it hurts you when you'd rather think you'll some day play soldier (or more accurately, play as a revolutionary, an organized rebel without a real cause). 

I don't necessarily have to know someone to get a gauge of how people'd generally respond towards their circumstances, and you are a lazy fucker by your own admission even who is continuing to waste time and accomplish nothing. 

If my mom thought I was a lazy good for nothing person then why is it when I ask her about therapy, she says there is nothing wrong with me, and that I don't need it. 

That's unrelated..? 

Why would she think laziness is a therapy-tier issue? 

I'm sensing a disconnect in logic here.

Me too. 

The only 2 people who see my as lazy good for nothing piece of shit are the two people that have issues with alcohol and constantly ask for my money, or my mom's money.

Ad homming those who have seen your mistakes so that you don't have to take them seriously, why? 

Ego preservation. 

Do you have problems of your own TC?

Attempting to redirect the issue when it's too much for you to face, classic you. Everyone's got problems, but I believe we've been talking about you in this topic. If you'd rather talk about me, you'll find it easier to host it as it's own point instead of as a defensive tangent, but I also presume to know you well enough to know that you don't really want it to be about me, as we've seen in the past with your constant self-directing you do when talking to anyone, let alone me. 

All you're saying with this line is that you're uncomfortable with the spotlight, because you're socially too much of a pussy to give a good hard look in the mirror. 

You won't get better if you keep aiming to deflect like this. You need to let yourself see the damages instead of lashing at other people or else you'll just keep lashing out as you have been. 

They aren't holding you back, you are. 

Then what of my self-criticisms are they just a mechanism I created to make myself look good without having to take any responsibility?


The problem I find is that I can't tell exactly who the fuck I even am or what I am. There is a set of themes that exist yes yes yes yes yes. Other than that, I can't make sense of any of it. 

I don't see myself as a lazy fuck in regards to do chores and shit. I am definitely a lazy fuck in regards to putting times towards what I actually want to achieve. I get too distracted by video games and videos, and it's even at a point where I have fucktons of tabs open and it takes me days to even bother finishing a video or beating a single player game. 



I do think a lot of my problems will be resolved though whenever I get a job that hires me. I have some good faith there.

Chaotik said: 

Turncoat said: 

AppleGenius said: 

Chaotik said: 

All in all, from this point on. I'll stop bitching about it, I typically don't speak on this shit anyway. Not many people know about it, and there's a lot I don't talk on because as it proves, I'm just a dick and so yea. 

Thanks for the talk and all. I'll keep trying to be better. 

As you like. Thanks for the chat, then.

This is not a therapy board, by the way. Maybe you should consider Alice's advice and get therapy.

He can't even get himself to do a session on 7Cups, he doesn't want to get better when he'd rather indulge in the validation and catharsis of his pain. 

He's addicted to the self-pity, and feels entitled to it through how it's others faults. On some level he gets off to this. 

I'm not against getting therapy. It's just that when I see something that is online text based chat where I open my feeling to someone on a site that is endorsed by the Wall Street Journal, I start to get some bad vibes. 

You're making any excuse you can find at this point to not address it. 

Pretty sure it also has video call options, and I've looked into their training myself. You have nothing to worry about, and if you'd stop being a little pussy ass bitch you'd know that too. 

So, why don't you stop masturbating in front of us all and get help. 

I don't see it as self-pity but I can see why you'd see it that way. Since, typically self-pity implies inability to self-reflect, when I think it's pretty obvious I self-reflect in my ramblings. I am not saying I'm 100% a victim and that I deserve to be treated way better. 

The difference is over how you indulge in it. 

Self-pity is something most people do at points in their lives, but for you? It's your default, it's how you get attention, it's how you both redirect blame and pat yourself on the back for not being a total failure, and you have no aspirations of fixing it, but rather of daydreaming better pastures. 

Your reflection has no aim for improvement, as if you've been picking at the same scabs for years instead of working on healing them. You like the wounds, they validate you, as if there were no wounds all you'd have left to blame is yourself. 

When you stop endorsing all of your excuses, you'll see what's underneath them all: You yourself getting off to this pain. You're practically bordering on becoming an excuse-based social hypochondriac. 

Chaotik said: 

Then what of my self-criticisms are they just a mechanism I created to make myself look good without having to take any responsibility?

They're how you cut yourself, which itself can be a form of indulgence, too. 

The problem I find is that I can't tell exactly who the fuck I even am or what I am. There is a set of themes that exist yes yes yes yes yes. Other than that, I can't make sense of any of it. 

You don't want to see it, and whenever others show it to you you get all pissy. 

Do 7cups, stop being a pussy. 

I don't see myself as a lazy fuck in regards to do chores and shit.

Oh man, chores? You sure showed me, I guess you're not lazy after all. 

You more likely do said chores to bolster your entitlement, and to avoid your family having one more reason to bitch you out for your failings. 

I am definitely a lazy fuck in regards to putting times towards what I actually want to achieve.

You're a lazy fuck for most areas of your life, and you rationalize this by deflecting it towards others. 

I get too distracted by video games and videos, and it's even at a point where I have fucktons of tabs open and it takes me days to even bother finishing a video or beating a single player game. 

Whee more excuses. 

There's ways to make money with that shit too you know, and you won't even fucking try. 

I do think a lot of my problems will be resolved though whenever I get a job that hires me. I have some good faith there.

You're just going to end up blaming your workplace for your quitting/firing once it becomes too hard for you. 

"It's like, not my fault man, it's like, Capitalism!" 

Turncoat said:

You're making any excuse you can find at this point to not address it.

It also has video call options, and I've looked into their training myself. You have nothing to worry about, and if you'd stop being a little pussy ass bitch you'd know that too.

So, why don't you stop masturbating in front of us all and get help.

 The concept of a video call option is even fucking worse. That's supposed to calm me down? 

I can't help but find the insult of a "little pussy ass bitch" hilarious. You're a jester TC. That's why I love you.

Turncoat said:

The difference is over how you indulge in it.

Self-pity is something most people do at points in their lives, but for you? It's your default, it's how you get attention, and you have no aspirations of fixing it, but rather of daydreaming better pastures.

Your reflection has no aim for improvement, as if you've been picking at the same scabs for years instead of working on healing them. You like the wounds, they validate you, as if there were no wounds all you'd have left to blame is yourself.

 I don't even vent that much, I don't even speak to my friends about it that much. I bottle it all up, and then only just then started bursting here.

If I was seeking attention, I'd be talking to my friends way more about it, and having them open up their empathy and such.

"awhhh yea, i want your big long empathy in my MOUTH"

Look, I have a friend who is well read in Lacanian Psychoanalysis. It's just I don't want to put that on them, they are like you in the sense they don't identify with what they were assigned at birth, and have a terrible family, and I have a lot of toxicity, but they reach out to me, and I don't want them to see me in a way that is bad obviously.

I can't tell if all the aspects and thoughts in my head are real, and I fear they are and if they are, then that'd be truly embarassing to expose myself like that to them.

They and their friends who I have befriended want to help me and have offered to help me get better and shit, and I could take it but I'm afraid because I don't want to end up hurting them. They are sweet kind hearted people but I am just a toxic asshole. I want to get better, but it's hard for me, and maybe you're right,a part of me tells me it is, the other thinks you're retarded.

Seriously though, TC. I apologize for trying to deflect at you. I don't necessarily what the real Chaotik is. It's hard to understand who the real Chaotik is. 

I am going to continue to try to get a job, and hopefully that will be a step in the right direction and when I get my own place, I can look for a therapist because my family I know would want to know every detail, and there is just somethings I refuse to tell them, and would rather die than face that. 

Chaotik said: 

Turncoat said:

You're making any excuse you can find at this point to not address it.

It also has video call options, and I've looked into their training myself. You have nothing to worry about, and if you'd stop being a little pussy ass bitch you'd know that too.

So, why don't you stop masturbating in front of us all and get help.

 The concept of a video call option is even fucking worse. That's supposed to calm me down? 

If you just wanted to be calm then none of this would even be a problem. 

I can't help but find the insult of a "little pussy ass bitch" hilarious. You're a jester TC. That's why I love you.

Stop deflecting, it's not a joke. 

Turncoat said:

The difference is over how you indulge in it.

Self-pity is something most people do at points in their lives, but for you? It's your default, it's how you get attention, and you have no aspirations of fixing it, but rather of daydreaming better pastures.

Your reflection has no aim for improvement, as if you've been picking at the same scabs for years instead of working on healing them. You like the wounds, they validate you, as if there were no wounds all you'd have left to blame is yourself.

I don't even vent that much,

Straight denial. 

I don't even speak to my friends about it that much. I bottle it all up, and then only just then started bursting here.

You indulge in it here, you get off to it here, over how people here "don't" or "couldn't possibly" know you. If you did it towards IRL people you'd accrue a social tax, and you've already before told me that you've otherwise told them plenty about yourself (sans the suffering fetishism anyway). 

You want others to suffer to proxy your own suffering, and you bitch and moan about how hopeless everything is as reinforcement towards it. It's no different from when Blanc bitches about her life. 

You two have a lot in common actually, when it comes to self-infliction. 

If I was seeking attention, I'd be talking to my friends way more about it, and having them open up their empathy and such.

You want positive attention, and you worry about collateral constantly. 

If you told them one of your "brutal truths" or whatever, you expect catastrophe, so you don't, but it has to be said somewhere so you come here and insist you're protected by being anonymous or whatever. 

Look, I have a friend who is well read in Lacanian Psychoanalysis. It's just I don't want to put that on them, they are like you in the sense they don't identify with what they were assigned at birth, and have a terrible family, and I have a lot of toxicity, but they reach out to me, and I don't want them to see me in a way that is bad obviously.

Appealing towards others in your life as a means of dismissing others... 

It's a fallacy to assume you're an expert in something simply because you supposedly know one, and it only serves as yet more deflection. 

You're so afraid, I can practically taste it from here. 

I can't tell if all the aspects and thoughts in my head are real, and I fear they are and if they are, then that'd be truly embarassing to expose myself like that to them.

See you're even explaining how pussy you are for me. 

They and their friends who I have befriended want to help me and have offered to help me get better and shit, and I could take it but I'm afraid because I don't want to end up hurting them.

You can't take it, and you're projecting how much you can't take onto them. 

I'd bet money they're stronger than you are, and anything you'd say about yourself they'd be taking in secondhand instead of firsthand, meaning it'll be muuuuuuuuuuch easier on them than it is on yourself to merely listen to your problems. 

They are sweet kind hearted people but I am just a toxic asshole. I want to get better, but it's hard for me, and maybe you're right,a part of me tells me it is, the other thinks you're retarded.

Seriously though, TC. I apologize for trying to deflect at you. I don't necessarily what the real Synth is. It's hard to understand who the real Synth is. 

I'll accept your apology when you stop being such a pussy and try out 7Cups. 

Even a you who's ranting about how it didn't work is braver than this bullshit. 

I am going to continue to try to get a job, and hopefully that will be a step in the right direction and when I get my own place, I can look for a therapist because my family I know would want to know every detail, and there is just somethings I refuse to tell them, and would rather die than face that. 

In other words you're going to continue doing nothing differently. 

You will be lamenting the time you're wasting right now once it's gone, and you're going to become even more liable to blame it on "circumstances" so that it doesn't have to feel like it was within your control. 

Stop being a pussy unless you want to get fucked, dude. 

You are right in that all these posts do is fuel some sort of fucked up pleasure, and I shouldn't be doing that. I need to stop here, if I die and fail, I die and fail, but for me to go down the fucking shitter being this pathetic. It's absolutely atrocious, and I apologize for my actions. I wish you all well. 

A friend of mine just got used, and so I'm now in this fucking angry mode. Take care. TC

TLDR; You get off to your own suffering. 

It's emotional masochism with a splash of "woe is me" and a sense of helplessness for the themes. 

Chaotik said: 

You are right in that all these posts do is fuel some sort of fucked up pleasure, and I shouldn't be doing that. I need to stop here, if I die and fail, I die and fail, but for me to go down the fucking shitter being this pathetic. It's absolutely atrocious, and I apologize for my actions. I wish you all well. 

A friend of mine just got used, and so I'm now in this fucking angry mode. Take care. TC

Deflecting with bullshit melodrama. 

If you want to get better, prove it to me by doing 7Cups and reporting back here. 

If you don't want to get better, then get ready for more of this from me. 

Edit: Damn, you even removed your avatar when you ran from me? 

This pussy's lips must be huuuuge. 

I refuse to use 7cups. Fuck the Bourgeoise.

I am forcing a confession to my friends of how I am shitty person, and if they don't help me, then I'll probably just kill myself because then that is the ultimate fact that I was never good, and if I were to continue to live, I'll only harm others and I will NEVER achieve my dreams, and that my dreams and who I thought was are merely just fucking falsehoods to cope with my shitty existence. 

I don't trust you guys enough to tell you all my issues. You could be fucking me over like Svetja did. I don't trust it. I don't trust it. I don't trust it. I don't trust it. 

Goodbye.