lol this is retarded
I've never bitched about passing the salt at a dinner table wtf? The closest thing to that would me being on the other side of the house, and them yelling for me to go to the kitchen, pour them a glass of soda, then take it to them while they are at the couch watching tv.
Other than that, they get on my nerves, yell for me to do menial tasks for them like pour them a glass of soda or hand them something despite them being closer than me to whatever they need done.
Apologies, I assumed that you meant they asked you to hand them stuff, you meant stuff like handing the salt at the dinner table or fetching something from the garage.
Sounds to me like you should respect your family a bit more. You don't show that respect by being a servant.
You know, stuff like this is what families do. All families. You imagining you have it so bad and coming here to bitch about it, well...
My main issue was how I get nitpicked by every single detail, it's not even my own mom I entirely hate, my mom isn't a bad person. It's more so my brother and his dad that set me off.
My sister just annoys me from being well disabled, and my grandma annoys me by constantly being overdramatic about things, trying to help when I ask her not to, and then it leading to something like her knocking over a trashcan and spilling all the trash on the floor, because she wanted to help even though I said, I would get it.
Or the time she wanted to bake cookies, but she put the cookie dough in the microwave, burnt it and caused the whole house to smell
That's the family you ended up with. Your grandma means well. I don't see why stuff like this can set you off, I mean you have to be pretty sensitive.
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lol okay
it was never complaining about having to do shit, jesus fucking christ. whole point is how im unable to progress at all, because of my issues with my family, that isn't implying they are the problem, i could very well be the problem.
you, tc's and whatever the fuck the legga man is don't get it.
tryptamine and alice's criticism makes the most sense to me. I wasn't denying me being a flawed human being. The whole frustration is the inability to do shit, not because I'm entitled and want everything handed to me, such a fucking concept is pure fucking degeneracy.
I have issues concentrating on things and connecting with my family because everytime I try to connect with them and build a bond with them, they fucking nitpick me, insult me, or just dont give a fuck for what I have to say.
that doesn't make them inherently bad people, I think we just have different personalities.
the issue is mostly that if i do try to do something they either have to be able to control what I do, or nitpick me constantly about how I'm not doing it right, and then insult and harass me about it, rather than offer a fucking solution.
legga? said:Apologies, I assumed that you meant they asked you to hand them stuff, you meant stuff like handing the salt at the dinner table or fetching something from the garage.
Sounds to me like you should respect your family a bit more. You don't show that respect by being a servant.
You know, stuff like this is what families do. All families. You imagining you have it so bad and coming here to bitch about it, well...
I try to respect them, it just turns into a fight. It's hard to converse with them when we don't get along. I'm not even saying I have it the worst, or that I am the most oppressed individual. I'm even open to the thought that I am a shitty person. I am just venting about it because I have no where else to vent it to.
I obviously got problems if I am legit killing small animals, and having issues with concentration or remembering past shit.
legga? said:That's the family you ended up with. Your grandma means well. I don't see why stuff like this can set you off, I mean you have to be pretty sensitive.
yea ik, i don't want to hurt them, i just get the urge to kill them. all i'd like to do is save up money and move out and live on my own, and hopefully then whenever i dont get so suffocated or some shit, i could probably rekindle my relationship with them
it was never complaining about having to do shit, jesus fucking christ. whole point is how im unable to progress at all, because of my issues with my family, that isn't implying they are the problem, i could very well be the problem.
Well do you see how I might think it is the issue when you're constantly bitching about having to do shit for them?
I wasn't denying me being a flawed human being. The whole frustration is the inability to do shit, not because I'm entitled and want everything handed to me, such a fucking concept is pure fucking degeneracy.
You're probably thinking Honey Boo Boo when you say entitled. When I say entitled, I mean these degenerate kids who disrespect their family and call their grandma an annoying bitch online cause she accidentally knocked over some trash when she tried to help you take care of something.
I have issues concentrating on things and connecting with my family because everytime I try to connect with them and build a bond with them, they fucking nitpick me, insult me, or just dont give a fuck for what I have to say.
You clearly don't give them any respect. Yet you demand them to give you respect.
the issue is mostly that if i do try to do something they either have to be able to control what I do, or nitpick me constantly about how I'm not doing it right, and then insult and harass me about it, rather than offer a fucking solution.
Like how?
yea ik, i don't want to hurt them, i just get the urge to kill them. all i'd like to do is save up money and move out and live on my own, and hopefully then whenever i dont get so suffocated or some shit, i could probably rekindle my relationship with them
Why don't you?
Legga? said:You're probably thinking Honey Boo Boo when you say entitled. When I say entitled, I mean these degenerate kids who disrespect their family and call their grandma an annoying bitch online cause she accidentally knocked over some trash when she tried to help you take care of something.
Then sure, I've evolved into an entitled bitch then. Not because I want to be, I'd rather just live on my own.
Legga? said:You clearly don't give them any respect. Yet you demand them to give you respect.
They don't have to give me respect, they just need to stop trying to control my life, and let me breathe.
Legga? said:Like how?
Well, an example I used would be when I was practicing driving for my driver's license a few years ago. If I was in the car with my mom, she'd sit in the middle with on foot on the brake and a hand on the wheel because she was too afraid I was going to crash or some shit.
or if it was my sister's dad, he's constantly nitpick every detail of me driving, making it hard for me to think straight, and would fuck up my thought process by telling me what to do when I already knew what to do. His presence pisses me off irrationally.
Another example could be that if I were going to try to get help, my mom would force me to tell her about my issues, but that hasn't happened yet, but when I said I might need a therapist she was like "tell me what's wrong" but then also says nothing is wrong with me and that it doesn't matter.
She also recently forced me to put an app on my phone so she can track wherever I go. She used to get really fucking angry if I ever locked my door and would scream and cuss at me for doing so, and would threaten to take it off the hinges.
In general, I think the issue is that I just don't connect with them well, and maybe some of the fault is on my end, and some of the fault is on their end, it doesn't matter whose more in the wrong, all that matters if that I just want it to stop, and with the violent thoughts in my head, I don't want to hurt them, but it keeps becoming an obsession that won't leave.