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"But I am not feeling insecure."

Sure, you just concern yourself enough to write down what everyone thinks and says about you, collect it then analyze it.

"I keep many different notebooks, this happens to be one of them."

I can only imagine what cringe-worthy, shakespearean bullshit resides in those

"I do not understand. What I was trying to say is that I would not mark that a particular person called me something in the notes about the said person. And quite frankly, I do not have a similar list outside of SC. It is just that people here are quite reactive to verbal or visual stimulus.."

You've admitted already to writing down what people say about you in sessions and you've already went as far to list which person said what. Your back tracking attempt here, is shot down by shit you just said a few posts back.

"I said that I will not be giving names, just like I did not note the origins of most of the things in the list (I could trace most of them, I think)."

How convenient of you to omit the convicting detail of the most controversial of your opinions you've collected. 

"I am not pursuing any image. I am, however, searching for an appropriate frame for the one I posses. Why? I think that I have a habit to put things into neat boxes, as evident by the note taking, clothing preference, etc., etc. Still, it is not an urgent matter, so I most certainly can be taking my time, getting more data, etc."

It's entirely an act at this point. Personally, I firmly believe you enjoy the idea of being some pseudo-intellectual psychopath(because it sounds cooler than schizoid). For English being your second language, you go through a massive effort to put forth an image of formality, most of the time it reaches to the point of impracticality(you're overdoing it). If that's not enough even your avatar has formal elements to it, that aren't there on accident. Match all of this up with someone who monitors opinions of how they're viewed extensively to pertain with a certain image and it's obvious what you're going for. 

Like sug said, similar to tk but duller.

"You said that it was great and that it was expected o.o"

So your cop-out excuse is that you didn't get blatant sarcasm? lol you spineless fuck

"So you are sad because you were insulted? Maybe I was wrong after all."

Sad, nah. I have a thing for picking out contradictions, sort of triggers me.

"More like an observation, but I did think you might have been a bit upset since you brought up various things to complain about me during our chat, so I felt like easing the tension a tad bit."

More evidence and past circumstances to discredit your excuses of even more contradictions. I'm honestly at odds if you're being sincere with the ass-kissing(this is typical behavior for you) or if it's sarcasm.

"I think that it simply is a continuum of the reason I came to SW, i.e. self analysis. And it happened quite randomly, mainly because a SC notebook was introduced and I had to fill something in."

So you actually keep a fucking notebook full of comments and compliments you receive from people over the internet? 

"Also, the list was finished in 4-5 sittings, so it is not like that information was kept in my head endlessly. I just sit sometimes and fill things in my less frequently used notebooks, that's all."

The fact that there's a notebook(s) in the first place is pathetic, the fact that you take these seriously enough to analyze yourself with them(while I suspect you not being your full self here in the first place) is even worse.

"It would be an unreasonable thing to note in the notes about friends."

Before it was just keeping notes about your friends, now it's you're concerned with how everyone sees you.

"What emphasis do I put? Do you think it changes anything?.."

The emphasis is shown by the effort you put into your image and how others see you. You have a serious vanity problem(which probably contributes to the pretentious ego) if by your description you write down and chart what most people say about you. This spells latent insecurity.

What does it change? The way I perceive you and it makes this image you put forward appear more blatantly.

You still haven't answered who told you, you were a psychopath. Honestly, I mean we know why right? No one's called you a psychopath, this you pursuing this image. Infact, I'm willing to bet more than a few people find that label on you humorous. That is just what you want to be, isn't it

Sure, you just concern yourself enough to write down what everyone thinks and says about you, collect it then analyze it.

This will not be the last such reply this time. I am quite sure about it and I do not see a point nor a way to prove it.

You've admitted already to writing down what people say about you in sessions and you've already went as far to list which person said what. Your back tracking attempt here, is shot down by shit you just said a few posts back.

You are mixing the notes about friends and SC experience in one pile, I'm afraid. But it does not seem to change anything.

How convenient of you to omit the convicting detail of the most controversial of your opinions you've collected.

It is an inconvenience in a way that I am not too eager to give out names considering the touchy topic and the likely negative effect which could be brought upon them. I see nothing I could gain even if I were to do it.

It's entirely an act at this point. Personally, I firmly believe you enjoy the idea of being vsome pseudo-intellectual psychopath(because it sounds cooler than schizoid). For English being your second language, you go through a massive effort to put forth an image of formality, most of the time it reaches to the point of impracticality(you're overdoing it). If that's not enough even your avatar has formal elements to it, that aren't there on accident. Match all of this up with someone who monitors opinions of how they're viewed extensively to pertain with a certain image and it's obvious what you're going for.

I addressed it in the main chat, but I could elaborate a bit.

I type in English in the way I know how. We were taught British English, were advised against using various "wanna", "gonna", and other similar things. I think I simply focused more on the formal style as it seemed more relevant and it had never been an issue before. I have watched movies and listened to songs in English, so I was prone to the exposure of a more casual approach, but I think I might have considered it as such and, therefore, ignored. All in all, the image of formality is genuine, formed throughout the years. I may indeed be impractical in this regard, but I do not think that I could change it quick nor that I should.

The fanciness indeed was one of the factors that made me choose the avatar. I came across it and I liked that it was a painted staring Doge in an old-fashioned fancy outfit. It seemed fitting for an avatar as it is more or less finished. It has the idea and it is expressed quite nicely. The added factor of the character being a Doge tends to add some silliness to the whole thing.

I have no intention to pull an act for some validation (?) I am fine being a pseudo-intellectual schizoid, etc., but it does not change the fact that traits, given in the pcl-r tend to fit with some of my quirks. While it does not make me a psychopath per se, it provides some less abstract area to explore.

Like sug said, similar to tk but duller.

Sure. Does not stop me from interacting with who I was interacting prior bringing up this idea and the whole penetration.

  Mee: These were again some connections, perceived during a chat with the said Jim.

this shit is embarrassing at this point lol

Mee sated: source post

I have no intention to pull an act for some validation (?)

2 posts later;

"I do well in my studies and I don't see what else I could be feeling insecure about. I have food and shelter, friends, books, Internet at hand. I read when I want, watch movies, listen to music, socialize outside or in SC. I look at least alright and don't behave like a swine for the most part. I only need to finish with studying and proceed with a career. A girlfriend would also seem reasonable, but I have yet to find a suitable one. Anyway, the point is I am a simple man, leading a simple life, and I have everything I need to be content. "

This entire section summarizes out to "I'm not insecure! my life is great!"

"I'm not insecure..."

Sure, you just write an entire paragraph elaborating on how good each factor of your life is. Point being, I could give two fucks about what you say your life is, you actually want me to acknowledge what you say about your own life and not expect it to be biased? I go off of your actions and what I've seen Mee and it spells that of a insecure person.

"Ken... Maybe I just don't see a point for having internet conflicts and find subtle/passive remarks amusing."

It's less of this and more of you being careful to not express your opinions openly and directly. Wording and phrasing what you say to not upset the said person(could be that insecurity I was talking about). It's usually supplemented with some appeasement, like the compliment you gave me after I called you out on that insult earlier. 

"I see nothing wrong with that and you making a big deal out of it is a bit strange"

You see nothing wrong, with keeping a fucking logbook of what each individual says of you on an online forum?

"I should also clarify that I have not written the authors of the features of character given. The page is just one messy pile of phrases. I did say, whoever, that I could trace most of them to the origin, if needed. "

Sure~

"Maybe you invest yourself into the matter more than I do. I mean, it takes little time for me to write down some information I already know and I am quick at doing that. For instance, it took me roughly ten minutes to create a 1000+ words share."

You're hurrying to share 1000+ words about yourself in a short time span.....and I'm the one that's invested?

"So far the noteworthy things you said were "cuck, insecure, ass licker, fake". While I don't know about the fourth one yet, first three seem to indicate a solid amount of projection."

I knew that word was coming in here sometime soon as the default defense. 

Systematic stated: source post

So your cop-out excuse is that you didn't get blatant sarcasm? lol you spineless fuck

I know it's really late to post this, but honestly I had thought "(Ken, you dog ;) )" was sarcasm. To me, if he had intended to diss you, the smily face wouldn't have been there. The fact that he readily conjures up a sizable list of adjectives/phrases used to describe him was surprising. But upon taking a look through said list and straining my own memory, I think that he has left out some stuff, likely by accident. I wonder if when listing things he subconsciously picked and chose. It's not that important though since he at least tried to list both insults and compliments.

This entire section summarizes out to "I'm not insecure! my life is great!" Sure, you just write an entire paragraph elaborating on how good each factor of your life is. Point being, I could give two fucks about what you say your life is, you actually want me to acknowledge what you say about your own life and not expect it to be biased? I go off of your actions and what I've seen Mee and it spells that of a insecure person.​

First you say that I am insecure for not taking the idea into consideration and elaborating on the matter. Now you say that I am insecure because I elaborated... Not sure if a trolling attempt or some slight miscommunication. Whichever the case, you thinking that I am insecure does not make me so.

A quickie: https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/fulfillment-any-age/201511/4-signs-someone-is-insecure

The insecure person tries to make you feel insecure yourself. - no.

The insecure person needs to showcase his or her accomplishments.- had to do so because Ken asked me to. Otherwise no.

The insecure person drops the “humble brag” far too often.- no.

The insecure person frequently complains that things aren’t good enough. - no most definitely.

I could do some tests.

It's less of this and more of you being careful to not express your opinions openly and directly. Wording and phrasing what you say to not upset the said person(could be that insecurity I was talking about). It's usually supplemented with some appeasement, like the compliment you gave me after I called you out on that insult earlier.

If you say so... still struggling to accept the observation-based compliment? Look who's insecure now :P

You see nothing wrong, with keeping a fucking logbook of what each individual says of you on an online forum?

Each is a bit too far fetched, but if I did deem it wrong, I would not do it. Besides, it happened quite randomly.

Sure~

Proof of the page will be, if need be. Interested parties are free to PM me for some visual footage (upon my acceptance).

You're hurrying to share 1000+ words about yourself in a short time span.....and I'm the one that's invested?

The reference was to another post. You did proclaim going on me pretty hard whereas I am quite calm about the matter.

have you ever had a girlfriend?

Twice in my teens. But this is not a topic I am comfortable elaborating, so I will not say anything more regardless of the taunting and poking attempts. Any further related comments will be ignored.

But upon taking a look through said list and straining my own memory, I think that he has left out some stuff, likely by accident. I wonder if when listing things he subconsciously picked and chose. It's not that important though since he at least tried to list both insults and compliments.

What was left off?

On an unrelated note, just finished the 4th season of AHS. It was interesting to see a bunch of freaks being the main characters, but I will need something with less freak in it now, I think. Dandy Mott was a nice character albeit his obsession with the two-headed beauty was a bit off. Considering himself as divine was also a bit annoying. Other than that, it was nice how people started dying shortly after Jimmy had his "claws" removed. Magic Maggie moment was the best scene to me, other goodies were bunch of freaks hunting down the schemer guy (who's dick was not revealed albeit it had to be something freaky), Elsa's legs and various German references, the scene of running out of gas in the woods, the clown, death of Dandy Mott. There were more interesting thingies, but these were remembered the easiest. The freak shooting spree was not impressive in the slightest. Dandy, Maggie and Elsa were the best characters, then Jimmy's father. Others were too freaky to me, although Jimmy was almost alright.

 Also, I almost got my racism back due to the previously shared GIF. That grinning and nodding Negroe seemed to be either dumb or mocking. But then I imagined having asked him a question "Do you like watermelons?" and it worked out surprisingly well. Actually, he could look very supportive in a different context o.o I would appreciate it if a gif of a honkey would be used next time. Less confusion.

It's less of this and more of you being careful to not express your opinions openly and directly. Wording and phrasing what you say to not upset the said person(could be that insecurity I was talking about).

I have always thought this type of behavior stemmed from insecurity and is very stressful until Cricket mentioned it on this thread, which changed my mind. Mee's behavior could mean he's tenacious and hard working about getting good relationships, like Cricket is. The person who goes out of his way to get good relationships could be even less insecure and end up less stressful than the person who says "You shouldn't worry about a good reputation. What others think of you doesn't matter. Fuck those who don't like you".
EDIT: I do think mee is probably insecure.

Mee stated: source post

A girlfriend would also seem reasonable, but I have yet to find a suitable one. Anyway, the point is I am a simple man, leading a simple life, and I have everything I need to be content. I'm not insecure...

have you ever had a girlfriend?

That quote of mine was directed at something else entirely motor.

I said it was great(sarcasm) that he saved the insults for here instead of utilizing the chance we had shortly before he posted to tell me. He tried to cop out of the answer by taking the "great" part of my sarcastic remark literally, as in I actually wanted him to insult me here. He got cornered and put out a transparent excuse.

"I know it's really late to post this, but honestly I had thought "(Ken, you dog ;) )" was sarcasm."

Possibly, but that's not even what that's about now and if that was the case he shouldn't have let it progressed as long as he did(this situation didn't work out in his favor). I'd like to add in that with my personal interactions with Mee, i've recognized exactly what that was. It's typical behavior for him and it has been for years. In the past he's also used this as an insult before

"To me, if he had intended to diss you, the smily face wouldn't have been there."

The winking face is definitely in regular use when it comes to sly/subtle insults. Have you not seen Jim's work?