by Thrill Kill
By separating yourself from your urges, you're not really dealing with them. Defense mechanisms don't solve problems, they simply mask them. You clearly have some issues with violence that you're not willing to accept. Maybe if you figured out why you feel the way you do, you may be able to deal with it better.
I personally don't see violence as bad or wrong. There are 7 billion people in the world. As far as I am concerned, people giving birth to three or more kids in an already over-populated world is worse than murder.
Everyone got defense mechanism to some degree... I don't really think there is much more to figure out than I already have. I've had this since childhood and I had a good upbringing so it must be something genetic. I don't think there is any point in dealing with it since I can handle it. I am discussing it right now, and that is perhaps dealing with it in some way.
I don't see violence as wrong either. It depends on the situation... My first reaction if someone has done something really bad against me, is that I want to kill the person. Also that I sometimes hate all people and the world. I actually seriously think that perhaps it would be better if the world ended. This is for personal reasons... Like if I can't be happy why should there be a world at all? That everyone would die is not so important.