Believing in all that is just about as silly as believing in Jesus.
But carry on.
Why would you want people to find the story of how you are systematically ruining someones life entertaining? You are a threat. You're a threat to her. And yourself.
But also I doubt parts of this. You use a misspelled word for working class as your forum name with a picture of a fictional plastic surgeon who was known for exhibiting sociopathic traits. You're going on about your education and deportation worries while also claiming to be into whatever drugs and jail. It just doesn't add up for me.
I don't have anything else to say on this right now.
my issue in general, going back to my original post is really that I wanted to share my story, and see other's input. I don't want to hurt this girl, I do care about her, but hurting her just like hurting others makes me feel really powerful and great. like i said, she is very withholding, and when she cries, just like when all other women cry, gives me a macabre sense of satisfaction. i don't get off on it sexually, but i do like it.