My prediction:
One day you will try something on with the wrong woman , and she will gut you like a fish.
I dont know why you even posted this, as its clear you dont really want to follow any advice offered, possibly because you are of the opinion that you are ten times smarter than anyone else.
I think you just want people on a sociopath forum to blow smoke up your bunghole to make you feel better about acting like a complete prick.
Yes, there may be an underlying story, you know, the one that you HAVENT divulged, but if you cant take control of your own actions then it will more than likely be you that becomes the fodder.
Prison will tend to do that to you.
All I can see that youve done, is spiel off a load of stuff , to anchor your emotional baggage to, and then gone off and done exactly what suits you, and not your long suffering female interest.
Grow a pair ....... because youll need them when you hit burnout. (soon)