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Kestrel said: 

My main concern with transitions are the turbulence of the persons mindset.

...yeah I worry about that too, but it's kinda damned if I do and damned if I don't. 

If I remember correctly, you've had this on your mind for a couple years and have embraced being more feminine. In that aspect I'd say you're in a better position than most.

Embracing being more feminine to me basically just meant not holding back stuff that others might judge me for as much... in ways that happened to appear feminine. I only really started holding that shit back more when I became a 6th grader, but puberty is a fun time to start repressing an abnormal display of "gender norms". 

I'd spent so much time telling myself that I couldn't be that way that I just kinda stopped expressing instead of reverting to the other mindset or something. I don't know if this puts me in a better situation than "most", just better than some of the heavy handed ones who thought it was this magical pill that'd "change everything". I am not under the illusion that it's going to all go smoothly and that I'll be "a real woman", that's fucking bullshit, but I'll be that much closer than where I am now.

I'd say the view that I'm going to have to put the work in instead of just have everything handed to me for going through some perverse form of "rite of passage" is most of what's in my favor. If it's not good enough, in this area I'd care enough to try harder. 

Personally, I'd advocate against it. I don't believe in changing integral things about yourself, your physical anatomy being one of them. I think it's a slippery slope with a good chance of making you a lot more vane. 

I'm already stuck mentally on my own vanity and have been for a while, but much like when my room goes from perfect to a god damn mess... it's been a feast or famine kind of thing. 

Trying to ignore my appearance because "it's wrong" isn't really good for me either, and the baggy clothes don't exactly hide those feelings either even though it hides my form. 

There's also the risk of just mixing up your mental formula. These chemicals will alter how you think and feel towards a variety of things. I guess just be ready to relearn yourself if you're up for it.

The emotional factor is where I feel more prepared. 

user22212 said: 

Because traps are gay.

It's a bad idea, akin to believing really badly that you should be a snake, causing you to amputate your arms and legs. It's too bad that you don't wanna be a guy, have you tried to make yourself want it instead?

I dunno... I feel like it'd be easier to convince people that I'm a woman than a (literal) snake. 🐍

Turncoat said: 

 

user22212 said: 

Because traps are gay.

It's a bad idea, akin to believing really badly that you should be a snake, causing you to amputate your arms and legs. It's too bad that you don't wanna be a guy, have you tried to make yourself want it instead?

I dunno... I feel like it'd be easier to convince people that I'm a woman than a (literal) snake. 🐍

 This sounds nonsensical, but it's a good point: Have you tried to want to be a man, and to accept being a man? If you could do that, it would be way better for you.

user22212 said: 

Turncoat said: 

 

user22212 said: 

Because traps are gay.

It's a bad idea, akin to believing really badly that you should be a snake, causing you to amputate your arms and legs. It's too bad that you don't wanna be a guy, have you tried to make yourself want it instead?

I dunno... I feel like it'd be easier to convince people that I'm a woman than a (literal) snake. 🐍

This sounds nonsensical, but it's a good point: Have you tried to want to be a man, and to accept being a man? If you could do that, it would be way better for you.

Yeah, I tried, as it's cost effective and requires significantly less physical and financial steps, plus it's what a lot of people early on were trying to urge me to do in one way or another. In many ways it's quick to see it as the easier answer, as was just trying to "not care so much about gender", identifying as non-binary (without enforcing it), focusing on the positive aspects and silver linings of being in this body as it is...

...it doesn't work. 

Turncoat said: 

Kestrel said: 

My main concern with transitions are the turbulence of the persons mindset.

...yeah I worry about that too, but it's kinda damned if I do and damned if I don't.

Should I stay or should I go? If I go, there will be trouble... and if I stay it, will be double! 

natasha87 said: 

Feathers said: 

1. God made you male for a reason.

One time a woman wanted blue eyes so bad. Then one day her friend in the middle east was kidnapped. The only reason she was able to blend in with them is because she had brown eyes. Her brown eyes which she always hated were actually good. 

We should be teaching "Self acceptance" to body. You were all pro body positivity last time we talked. This would contradict loving your own body. Maybe you're just feeling insecure and want a "makeover" but you don't need to  change genders.

Look... Many times people having mental break downs dye their hair. You know why? It's to regain a sense of control over their life and destiny. So if you want to regain a sense of control you can dye your hair, get a tattoo, meet new people, pray, etc. 

2. You're more interesting as a male. 

You are one of the most fascinating people I have ever met. Why do you think I tried to copy you once? It's easy to listen to you (just flows). You don't feel pain but do feel hot/cold, you are both a sadist and a masochist, you got the weirdest ex-relationship going on, etc. You're at once willing to comfort as a stranger as you are to play games with them. It's all very interesting stuff... You're the stuff of books. 

So if you become a female you kind of ruin all that by the another "weird trans". It's not fascinating that a trans person is weird when we already expect that. Not to mention these kind of behaviors would be more "normal" in a woman. Women are often the "crazy" ones in society's eyes. This kind of character is more rare in men (you'd remain a gem).

 LMAOOOOO fae you're so fucking funny

THANK YOU. I thought I was the only one who saw it and was going insane.

Feathers said: 

You wanna be a woman because you think male genitals are disgusting? 

They are! So are female genitals. Can't count the amount of times I wish I had no genitals (male or female) and was like a flat chested barbie. I even wish sex never existed. Sexual activity is weird and gross... 

Obviously this is just my opinion. The bible actually says it's good within marriage.

But you do enjoy male attention, a little bit, am I right? Even if it's against the Bible.

Turncoat, I love you. You're like a brother/sister to me. But you've got to relax. Basically, you have one life, one vision, one touch, one fried chicken. You do whatever the fuck you want with it and ignore these fuckers. Who's to say what's right or wrong? I say you just enjoy your little games and do what's best for you! You'll regret not doing it, if you don't.

That's right, all of you. Deep down, you're jealous because TC is reaching new heights which you will never reach! Bitch, please, you even have nothing to regret. No trials, nothing. I don't envy any of you, for not having even tried. I'd rather be a big failure than a boring shitface like the rest of you all...

Major Major said: 

Feathers said: 

You wanna be a woman because you think male genitals are disgusting? 

They are! So are female genitals. Can't count the amount of times I wish I had no genitals (male or female) and was like a flat chested barbie. I even wish sex never existed. Sexual activity is weird and gross... 

Obviously this is just my opinion. The bible actually says it's good within marriage.

But you do enjoy male attention, a little bit, am I right? Even if it's against the Bible.

First of all that has nothing to do with what I said. Secondly, I'm not sure why you think I enjoy "male attention" specifically? I'm just a hopeless romantic looking for my Christian yandere counterpart who will obsesses over God and love me possessively. 

Also wanting male attention isn't against the bible unless my intention was to make people lust. That's why I don't dress certain ways to accidentally cause lust (if possible). Lots of men end up annoying or disappointing me for not being-, well failing to achieve what I really wanted. I want them to go away and I have to block them at some point.

Oy vey

I want to partially transition. This is still quite new, society is black and white on this point. But I just happen to be trans the way I am. I don't think I should be forced crap done I don't want to.

My cluster is 50 % agender, 40 % male and 10 % female, and I think I should be able to reshape my body to resemble that.

I'd like to have that law some countries do, to be able to register at "other", when it comes to gender. But from been quite gender dysphoric for a while, I've stopped focusing on it and I eagerly await menopause when the icky thing stops and actually my totally natural testosterone will have some chance to come out and play as the testo lasts longer in born females than progesteron and estrogen. I'm already at the point where my progesteron levels are almost gone.

I've always had quite high testo levels, but not high enough to make much of a difference when the female hormones were at youth levels. Part from being able to grow a beard and fun things like that.