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This is between you and fate. 

I dont know why, but when people decide to transition it makes me sad. A coworker called all of us to a meeting last year and told us he was transitioning and my eyes just welled up uncontrollably like an idiot. It felt like the loss of the person I knew and related to in a certain way.  Now a year later he is a she. I don't know if he had any surgery. But she is a she and it just is. 

It sounds empty and cliche but just do what is right for you. Everyone has all kinds of thoughts on this and the easier thing is to say just accept what makes you different and live with it. But sometimes that mindset has more to do with people not wanting to lose the person they think they know and care about and how they see that person. It can be hard for your friends and family if you do it. I don't know, no one knows how you feel.  I honestly just hope you find peace being you whatever that looks like.  

Feathers said: 

Boo hoo your male genital is hard to work with. You have no idea how sensitive breasts are. Some days it hurts just to wear a soft tshirt. Finding dresses my size is horrible because everything will fit except the breast where they left no room for the boob. They get in the way so can no longer sleep on your tummy or lay there at all.  Food falls down in your bra and gets stuck! You can't even get it out in public.

One time at work a burning hot potato fell in my bra. I was burning! The manager says "why are you just standing there!? Work". I can't even tell him a potato is burning my breast. I can't reach in and take it out either. I just have to bear it.

Now don't even get me started on periods, pms, cramps, mood swings and fatigue. 

The day before my period I always end up 10x thirstier for water, super tired to the point I can't function normally and sleep all day, then I cry for no reason just because hormones. During pms is even worse with the cramps that feels like someone took a knife and decided to start slicing you from the inside.

 LMAOO

Feathers said: 

1. God made you male for a reason.

One time a woman wanted blue eyes so bad. Then one day her friend in the middle east was kidnapped. The only reason she was able to blend in with them is because she had brown eyes. Her brown eyes which she always hated were actually good. 

We should be teaching "Self acceptance" to body. You were all pro body positivity last time we talked. This would contradict loving your own body. Maybe you're just feeling insecure and want a "makeover" but you don't need to  change genders.

Look... Many times people having mental break downs dye their hair. You know why? It's to regain a sense of control over their life and destiny. So if you want to regain a sense of control you can dye your hair, get a tattoo, meet new people, pray, etc. 

2. You're more interesting as a male. 

You are one of the most fascinating people I have ever met. Why do you think I tried to copy you once? It's easy to listen to you (just flows). You don't feel pain but do feel hot/cold, you are both a sadist and a masochist, you got the weirdest ex-relationship going on, etc. You're at once willing to comfort as a stranger as you are to play games with them. It's all very interesting stuff... You're the stuff of books. 

So if you become a female you kind of ruin all that by the another "weird trans". It's not fascinating that a trans person is weird when we already expect that. Not to mention these kind of behaviors would be more "normal" in a woman. Women are often the "crazy" ones in society's eyes. This kind of character is more rare in men (you'd remain a gem).

 LMAOOOOO fae you're so fucking funny

Because traps are gay.

It's a bad idea, akin to believing really badly that you should be a snake, causing you to amputate your arms and legs. It's too bad that you don't wanna be a guy, have you tried to make yourself want it instead?

like blanc's constant need for never ending diagnosis to make sense of her lack of contentment, i think tc is looking for external changes to fix his internal issues. i think he has associated the idea of being a woman to him finally being happy. i might be wrong but i don't think this will make him happy, probably the opposite when he sees that he still has all the same issues with some added because of the high rates of assault and harassment for trans people.

Oh, I accidentally skipped over this post from it being at the bottom of the page. It looks like I answered some of it unintentionally, so I'll chopshop those parts out: 

Cain said: 

I'd suggest a goal of being as healthy as possible and reaching peak form of current self, before switching.

I tried that a while ago actually. I exercised everyday by riding my bike with weights in my backpack followed by hours of treadmill to The History Channel and Cartoon Network, adjusted my diet to be more bulk loading, took Zinc and other things like it to "man up", practiced my martial arts again and trained a friend of mine in some yellow belt basics, and otherwise was significantly more health conscious. I even for the only time in my life had fairly well developed abs... 

...but no matter how much I tried to improve my form and health it kept feeling wrong. If anything, looking manlier made me feel disgusting, especially when figuring it was "for them" more than "for me", so... I stopped. 

Before dramatically and unnaturally altering body chemistry in an attempt to become something else- first consider that current form is optimized entirely; as it will be more able to make a rational decision on the matter. 

Optimized for what though? 

Changing of gender is not exactly ever complete. You will miss aspects of female form that many women consider vital to being female, even if they themselves lack in this area. (You'll never have children.) 

The reality of the situation is that by dismissing biological gender- you are not becoming the other gender; rather becoming a broken form of what you once were.

I'm becoming a third thing that resembles the goal, and resemblance is good enough for me as long as it sells it. 

Your current line of work gives you a very very small budget to work with as well. If rich people look botched; you surely will. 

You mean being on disability payments? 

Estrogen would come much sooner and is significantly more affordable, which offers time to save up for that sort of thing. You otherwise can bet I'll be checking reviews and paying a bit more instead of just predictably botching it to be part of the discount isle. 

I know your face- you would not make a pretty girl. 

I figure I won't pass for those who've known me prior, and again I'm not aiming to Bimbofy myself. I don't make a very sexy 'man' either, so this is something I've already come to terms with enough. 

Imagine turning 40, realizing you tried to become something you couldn't; looking in the mirror at the aftermath of your form transition. Dissatisfied that you never became what you wanted, and you never became what you could have become. 

Progress is better than stagnation. 

You don't become who you are until you die. Your life and the choices you make, lead to the moment of death- the book is wrote; your story complete. 

Funny, even in a Nihilistic no afterlife kinda way this statement still stands. 

Feathers said: 

Boo hoo your male genital is hard to work with.

Why would I choose to keep something I don't like? 

You have no idea how sensitive breasts are. Some days it hurts just to wear a soft tshirt.

...have you ever heard of a bra? 

Finding dresses my size is horrible because everything will fit except the breast where they left no room for the boob.

So find a tailor or learn to do it yourself. Abnormal body shapes compared to the store standard is not unusual, and I already have that issue myself with pants thanks to the size of my ass. 

They get in the way so can no longer sleep on your tummy or lay there at all.

I have memory foam, which has already fixed a lot of my resting problems when it comes to thrashing and sleeping in odd contortions. 

Food falls down in your bra and gets stuck! You can't even get it out in public.

One time at work a burning hot potato fell in my bra. I was burning! The manager says "why are you just standing there!? Work". I can't even tell him a potato is burning my breast. I can't reach in and take it out either. I just have to bear it.

...you left a burning hot potato in your bra? 

Either this story's embellished, or you have an odd relationship with how people see you. 

Now don't even get me started on periods, pms, cramps, mood swings and fatigue. 

Thankfully I won't have to deal with that. At the final stretch of the change I'd be doing weekly dialations, which for it's described discomforts still sounds easier than being a cisgendered woman. 

The day before my period I always end up 10x thirstier for water, super tired to the point I can't function normally and sleep all day, then I cry for no reason just because hormones.

...there's ways to fix this you know. 

During pms is even worse with the cramps that feels like someone took a knife and decided to start slicing you from the inside.

I've seen a wide variety of reports for how periods feel, and yours sounds like it has strong dietary needs. 

Maybe cut down on your sodium a bit? 

Turncoat said: 

PalePeach said: 

The only reason I could think of to not transition would be if you hadn't given it enough thought or looked into the process enough- but based on your previous comments you seem familiar with the process. The first step would be to start estrogen for awhile before a doctor would agree to perform the surgery. If you start the hormonal transiition then decide you don't like the changes you are experiencing you can stop taking them so it's a good non-permanent way to test the waters and move towards the permanent changes you desire.

Even going on hormones is a very big decision, as it only takes a month or so for sterility and reduced libido to kick in. 

Sterility isn't what I'm worrying over as, again, I can store sperm for a future child if I end up going that way, but reduced libido isn't a fun idea to consider for if I were to change my mind while already taking chemicals. 

Emotionally be ready for the different way you will be treated by society. Trans women and effeminate males don't receive the same treatment. Stay safe.

I'm already treated as a tranny these days even by cashiers and waitstaff and shit, so it's more like I'm pushing that envelope one step further, whether that ends up with me more strongly displaying that or blending in better. I also already had a lot of "being treated differently by society" stuff going on for my lifetime, but transitioning does have the unfortunate undertones of our current socio-political environment. When seeing me in that light, such politics are likely to precede them getting to know me and realizing I'm not as "open minded" as you might otherwise find from this demographic. 

Frankly though... even within these fears, some part of me is still like "Even if you look worse you're at least that much less manly looking", which feels like a step in the right direction if I can get that much more over other people's thoughts they telegraph so loudly on their faces and hands. 

Ideally, I'd want to even trick the LGBTQ acceptance types into thinking they don't have to like... give me the enabling pity treatments they think is so progressive. If they yell at me for being "a woman who could think these things", then I'm succeeding. 

 We will treat you the same. We love you and your our friend. Wanna hang out? We can talk about it?

MissCommunication said: 

I dont know why, but when people decide to transition it makes me sad. A coworker called all of us to a meeting last year and told us he was transitioning and my eyes just welled up uncontrollably like an idiot. It felt like the loss of the person I knew and related to in a certain way.  Now a year later he is a she. I don't know if he had any surgery. But she is a she and it just is. 

It sounds empty and cliche but just do what is right for you. Everyone has all kinds of thoughts on this and the easier thing is to say just accept what makes you different and live with it. But sometimes that mindset has more to do with people not wanting to lose the person they think they know and care about and how they see that person. It can be hard for your friends and family if you do it. I don't know, no one knows how you feel.  I honestly just hope you find peace being you whatever that looks like.  

 They will still be the same person don't worry. Turncoat will always be our turncoat. Just hopefully happier.