Pain - 6 - Sociopath Community

Blanc · 2020-05-08T22:05:22.1900000

I accidentally slept all day I slept all night and woke up around 8 or 9am (which is late for me I normally wake up at 5am) but yeah then I passed back out and now it’s 6pm woops

Because of search feature being fucked I wanted to write in my thread about dissociation but everything is horrible disorganized now RIP

so I’m just going to write it here my thoughts on the topic and we will just pretend I put it in the spot it goes ok? Ok.

dissoxiation is scary. I wish there was a medication for it other than benzos

like what the fuck causes it

I did a whole like two hour long video explaining the neuropsychology behind it but that truly only scratched the surface

like it had to do with mechanisms in the brain that are affected my trauma so summize it

and then you have bizarre disorders like IBS and Functional neurological disorders, and auto immune or central nervous system disorders, and chronic pain

That have no known cause but they believe is associated with trauma and PTSD some of the time

which makes sense if you understand functional medicine but if you follow the bread crumb trail of molecular dysfunctions in the body all the problems it causes it makes sense but it stops at central nervous system and we get lost at that point

unable to understand the cause where these people get sudden shocks in their body. Some doctors believe this is a manifestation of trauma in the central nervous system and it flares up randomly just like flash backs appear randomly

both flash backs, body memories, dissociation, and central nervous system flare ups, chronic pain, and IBS are not understood the exact cause- we just know it’s there. In a lot of cases it’s actually hard to prove it’s even really there.

So dissociation is just one of those terrifying weird things.

like idk if I wrote about it but in this last month, one morning I woke up and for a few minutes, in the morning. I genuinely felt I was not real, and nothing around me or the entire ducking universe was real.

it’s a very odd sensation that would be arduous to put into words but. I just truly couldn’t “ground” myself as much as I wanted to feel normal again. Like getting stuck inside of a dejavu- but much worse, and more terrifying

you can’t make it stop.

this is just one type of dissociation. I’ve posted vids explaining all the psychiatric disorders that have dissociation or the types of dissociation there are

but even within those many umbrellas of types of disorders that include it- and of the types they listed

I felt like it wasn’t all inclusive to just the experiences I’ve had with it alone. And if you read the many accounts of it online and from youtubers who’ve experienced it, it really displays itself as a wide array of varying symptoms

Just look up laterlization of brain function on wiki read the whole thing and then read about the connecting terms to it in blue at the bottom of the page especially

And you will understand how this is neurological and why

but it’s just so bizarre, and frightening. I just wish there was something I could take as a preventative from it happening or take in case of emergency sort of thing

I’ve heard from some people who struggle with it really bad having been put on some of these types of medications but obviously I haven’t had the opportunity to try them

some do recommend benzos which, I have to be careful with. But.

it just, is so hard to just “ground” yourself when it’s happening.

it is truly as unstoppable and uncontrollable as the sensation of dejavu, just more all encompassing and long lasting

I just hate not being able to control it or get a grip when I want to. Like ok u can stop now.

but it just, is impossible. To just turn off like that. That’s the scary part. It’s scaring you and you can’t make it stop which makes it scarier and more panic incducing and more scary it’s just like ahhh what do I do

but I find I have to do what everyone else does which is focus. Similar to panic attacks it’s same sort of method. Focus on something small and calming and grounding as bedt

you can. And just keep trying. And to breath (despite feeling like incredibly weird)

@5:04 she goes into her goundinf techniques for depersonalization derealizarion and dissociation and these are things that do help me sometimes and are some of the techniques I use as well. I have other ones in addition to what she’s mentioned whic I was taught by super great therapists and other patients in hospital etc.

this is why it’s important to ask for help and talk about it because I’ve learned so many techniques and things from life of people in so many places like even just listening to podcasts or things on the internet or reading articles about it etc like just... outreach is so important to collect your arsenal of techniques to try when everything is MELTING

i didn’t have any dissociation today I just watched this vid and wanted to talk about it but, um.

this strange invisible illness that is actually debilitating for some people And no one even knows the struggle lol