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https://twitter.com/boohoo/status/1262371107165704194?s=21 

https://twitter.com/_sbustillos/status/1261851200582045696?s=21 

https://twitter.com/earthdarlin/status/1262531453486796800?s=21 

Omgosh this is heavenly idea 

7:55 am ... i actually slept at night? Wowee

ugh its way t lo early i feel like shit

this morning is a wonderful morning tho because i woke up to news phase I trial with MODERNA vaccine went well and they’re moving on to phase II 

And i woke up to text from a plug saying he had all the goods in stock 

Which i wont lie like, these are just the things that make me happy i can’t pretend to be someone I’m not. Some things don’t make me happy like they do for other ppl but this- this excites me. 

My favorite thing is waking up to a text like that

Woops fell asleep lol 

sorry if eel like updating journal is pointless sometimes cuz I’m just like “yeah i slept” 

..”i slept again” 

But I’m doing it anyway for the sake of consistency .. 

um. Woke up at 7pmish and...., oh yeah i ordered boxes 📦 

so i can finish moving shit out of the storage room

... i had a dream last night i overdosed on Xanax and smoked pot so i was like really happy and just vibing 

and my friends were like wow its nice to see you being so pleasant and I’m just like :)))) 

Felt like i understood what it was like to be a normal person 

hard to explain but a lot of the time ppl who have substance issues do it to feel normal not to get high necessarily

anyways- i was just vibing i was at school, i got in the car with someone who was going to take me to work or something and we were driving through what looked like Nevada, the abandoned desert part. And it was just this long road and sun and dirt, and then these wild cats started coming out the desert and chasing our car 

and i was like dude look at those cats and he just kept driving not giving a fuck, and I’m like do u see that shit damn theyre truly wild 

and then one of them caught up with the car and jumped in it, cuz our top was down 

and i like got it to sit n my lap and petted it and it seemed to like being domesticated and warmed up to it quickly, it was happy to be there and like wanted to go on an adventure to the city so i let it come 

and then we saw these huge trucks surrounding us once we got in the city and the cat was like O.O WHAT TEH FJUCK IS THAT and there was a donkey head on the front of one of the trucks for some reason 

and then they started closing in on us and we nearly got crushed and i was like speed up lol 

and then we got ahead of it and were fine 

and yeah i was like thinking about how i might die from this overdose but i didn’t like necessarily care 

Had a good NA meeting I’m now making pizza and I’m going to eat junk food tonight cuz i was having a hard time not using but 

junk food (pizza and coke) even tho its not good for me and a movie or tv show will help distract me and makes me significantly happier. Helps me get thru a rougher night with, ya know wanting to use and everything so. Yeah Also took my meds. 

Oh btw i learned something weird that my tongue is shaped weird because i have deficiencies 

I was like oh that’s why my tongue looks weird

Woke up at 9am ish 

to the boxes getting dropped off so 

now I can finally pack them 

drank coffee hoping to get the energy to pack 

i just feel like shit rn and I feel agitated as fuck like I just wanna be left alone 

living with other ppl isn’t ideal to me so sometimes it just makes me super agitated

i just want everyone out of my fucking space 

and I do not want ppl coming to my door and knocking on it 

i don’t want yard men or electricians or pool guys or park rangers or mail men like 

I want *no one* on my property or near it I don’t want to hear a single sound 

a single sound. 

Im ok with nature sounds. That’s it. 

silence. Please leave me alone, it’s not that I hate people but I fucking want to be left the fuck alone sometimes 

thank you

edit: and holy shit pls dont send me any more notifications, texts or PHONE CALLS dear god please, i cant take it anymore 

i just want *silence* like I’m talking, even the low hum of the electricity like i want it all completely off like no refrigerator nothing LOL i know it sounds rediculous but 

this is why we have vacations houses. This is the point of vacation homes sometimes u need to go somewhere and just “detox” from all the bull shit even modern technology and just hear waves and birds 

Lol it’s me @1:49

haha this was great

What's the appeal of much of your social media trending? 

A lot of your subject matter looks like it was slapped by Bimbofication nonsense, hard, with makeup trends that remind me of 90s plastic surgery. 

Turncoat said: 

What's the appeal of much of your social media trending? 

A lot of your subject matter looks like it was slapped by Bimbofication nonsense, hard, with makeup trends that remind me of 90s plastic surgery. 

 I’m not sure what the question is , wdym

I accidentally slept all day and then went to the beach at 7pm 

Im still tired 💤