Sociopath Community

She mentions lavender and smells a lot and i fucking love lavender and smells as well 

i relate whole heartedly to everything in this video 

i use ice too when I’m having really *really* bad panic attacks i put it on my forehead and the back of my neck if it’s to the point that I’m like going to vomit and I’m sweating and shit like, those are really bad usually 

I’ve been doing that since i was like 12 

damn 

anyways yeah i really love lavender too like i remember when I first discovered it i was like walking in this store and i saw like real lavender in a bowl on a bathroom table and i was like wtf is that o my god what is that smell it’s absolutely amazing i need to buy it right now lol 

and theyre like u can’t buy it, its just decor it’s lavender you weirdo 

and I’ve been obsessed every since.

but yeah I’m obsessed with smells in general and i never realized why i just thought i was a fucking weirdo but now is see why it was like subconsciously calming me down probably or something i dunno or just helping transport my mind to a better more peaceful headspace 

Ok i took a shower and that helped me calm down a bit I’m still a little speedy acting which is like, how i can tell I’m still coming out of it 

so now i have to focus on other things even tho i dont want to, in order for my brain and body to enter a relaxed state 

and i took my meds dont worry

Test test

So I’ve been dealing with an anxiety attack for the last hour and I’m too exhausted to do anything else but sleep now 

it drains me but it’s prolly best I go to sleep to reset cuz it’s not fun

wish u could get into what I’m experiencing but focusing on it makes it worse and uh 

I don’t even have the words to explain what it’s like rn so 

yeah it’s not fun so I need to pass out sorry 

Wow i love this guy hahah (and the others too) 

the DID community on youtube is so great 

1) it’s got a lot of personality *dun dun tss* 

2) funny and entertaining 

3) relatable 

4) understanding and compassionate 

5) educational 

6) all inclusive 

7) interactive and not pedaling anything

8) truly just want to be good ppl and make the world a better place 

9) seem to have generally good morals and values 

10) generally nice people 

all the DID / trauma / mental health channels I’m subbed to are all such great individuals and brighten my day 

even if you don’t have DID if you have mental health struggles you’ll find them relatable, and if you don’t, you’ll still find their personality enjoyable and such 

Aight so... pinky and the brain. 

I just remembered something from my childhood. There is a period of years where i don’t remember a lot. 

And i remembered something from this darkened period, something vague and random, but i remember, there was a tv show called pinky and the brain, and i think there was some sort of deck of cards associated with it that were blue 

maybe it was a happy meal toy, i dont know and that’s pretty much it. 

- 

but i *also* remembered that when i was a young young child i didnt understand how minds worked obviously but i postulated with my child like imagination that there were people in there operating my brain and like i remember imagining them, like standing at a control center observing me like a mother and a father except they were older, like a grandmother and a grandfather for some reason. 

I think... if i can remember the vague.. line of thought, .. that i thought they were people that had died, and that had to operate in my fucking head???? Or something???????? I dunno 

what the fuck that sounds incredibly odd 

but i remember like, picturing them at a chess table sometimes and having conversations with each other while playing chess. About my LIFE and shit like or about random shit 

i also had a really over active imagination as a child so this i guess shouldn’t be that surprising but its still incredibly weird 

Woke up shaking really bad for some reason (at noon)

the dream was about shopping so its not like it was a nightmare 

it wasn’t cold or anything 

happens to me all the time. 

Anyways, not much is going on here today. Thankfully not in the anxious state i was in yesterday though. Just straight chillin

Blanc said: 

Ah finally someone who understands me lol 

Relating to people with DID over unboxing fetishism..? 

"Hi puzzles and pieces."

Idc bout the youtuber stuff people say like calling people nicknames and it’s not about the video being an unboxing video because it’s not 

it was helping my anxiety and dissociation because it’s sensory stuff intended to help ground people 

and I related to the stuff she uses 

why is this thread called pain