I don't dislike Jim. There are great qualities I enjoy, and one is that he's very clever. And he's not trying to help me. He just wants to shame and gaslight me and it's not working. He'll try from every angle because he's not having the affect on me that he wants.
And you're unintentionally helping him at this point. His aim is to dismiss my reality and make it seem like his is the right reality. Nothing more than that. The work I've been doing with myself is already working and has been for over a year. I've never in my life been so emotionally balanced, and mentally sound. He wants to say that's just an illusion and that I'm still in the same place I was but lying to myself that I'm making progress. If it's working for me, why try to discredit it? And where's his proof that he's found some better way that he's been applying to himself? Even if he has evidence of this better way, why would I abandon what's working for me now to take up some method an abusive man wants me to try?
I've already questioned whether or not I'm lying to myself and just latching on to a new bullshit ideal to elevate myself superficiality. I'm not lying to myself this time. So I don't need you helping to try to put doubt in my mind.