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I'm sexually voracious. I really can't imagine how s/m could get boring, as it responds to such a visceral need in me. But then again, I accept that I am a clinical paraphiliac. My preferences are not even remotely "normal". And I am now desensitized to the point where a lifetime of vanilla sex would bore me to death. I think I'd rather abstain altogether.

It develops into a language all of it's own, really, once you really get to know your partner- and there is no better way to get to know them intimately. And if you use your imagination, there are just sooo many ways to play... So many variations.

It isn't just about your technical skills as a lover. It isn't even about sadism or masochism per se- although sensation is certainly an integral part of it, to be sure. It is about the delicious nature of consensual power exchange, a person's willingness to open themselves completely to you... And all that entails. Allowing yourself the freedom to feel power and vulnerability. The thrill of pushing boundaries, and allowing yours to be pushed.

I guess I have some emotional and sensory issues that cause me to desire to experience things at a higher threshold of intensity, because it takes me more stimulus than the average person to really feel things, if that makes any sense.

Alright yall can do me. I won't like it but sometimes it's good to see how you are. 

I choose you, TC. Do me. ;)

Alterego stated: source post

I'm sexually voracious. I really can't imagine how s/m could get boring, as it responds to such a visceral need in me. But then again, I accept that I am a clinical paraphiliac. My preferences are not even remotely "normal". And I am now desensitized to the point where a lifetime of vanilla sex would bore me to death. I think I'd rather abstain altogether.

I'm in the same boat for the most part. I can still do vanilla, but it lacks depth by comparison, feels more like I'm draining the lust from myself as opposed to losing myself to something glorious. 

There's many who are bored of sex from not knowing their own kinks in advance. This "desensitization" you bring up can be predisposed. 
 

It develops into a language all of it's own, really, once you really get to know your partner- and there is no better way to get to know them intimately. And if you use your imagination, there are just sooo many ways to play... So many variations.

Their inner depths tend to translate across their bedroom behavior, whether that's in the form of an exaggeration or a contradiction of the identity they are in the outside world. It's another means of psychological digging, but the language isn't always with words. 
 

It isn't just about your technical skills as a lover. It isn't even about sadism or masochism per se- although sensation is certainly an integral part of it, to be sure. 

True, there's millions of kinks out there. The trick is finding how to blend yours with another's. 
 

It is about the delicious nature of consensual power exchange, a person's willingness to open themselves completely to you... And all that entails. Allowing yourself the freedom to feel power and vulnerability. The thrill of pushing boundaries, and allowing yours to be pushed.

Sometimes it's that, sometimes it's a mutual feeling of battle (primal kink), sometimes it's about a particular fetish that happens to enhance the experience, there's tons of areas. 
 

I guess I have some emotional and sensory issues that cause me to desire to experience things at a higher threshold of intensity, because it takes me more stimulus than the average person to really feel things, if that makes any sense.

The beauty of it is that there's billions of reasons as to why kink is a thing for people. Learning them can tell so much once it's cross referenced with their identity. 

ImNotHer stated: source post

With pleasure. It might be a day or so before I do. I need time to review all my data on you. :) Some of it was inaccurate and needs updating. 

:O ruh roh

I think one of the many differences between you and I is that you crave the physical manifestations of your desires, and I prefer my fantasy of it. Bringing my fantasies into the physical world, thus far, has been impossible. The connection is lost in translation. 

I'm fine with that, but I don't really know where to start the new thread's conversation. I'm pretty bad with OP's. 

Two to three more narratives... this topic's going to remain a busy one. 

ImNotHer stated: source post

I think one of the many differences between you and I is that you crave the physical manifestations of your desires, and I prefer my fantasy of it. Bringing my fantasies into the physical world, thus far, has been impossible. The connection is lost in translation. 

What kinds of fantasies? I don't imagine yours being Star Wars roleplay or fun in Fursuits.  

I haven't felt real sexual attraction in some time. When I speak of sex drive I guess I mean my body still has needs that my mind is no longer in sync with. It's now no different for me than maintaining good health and hygiene.

Besides the dissociative-ish disgust for human biology -- remembering we're still animals -- it also makes me laugh.  I find it funny, anti-serious, playing around, goofing around, not some intimate act.  I just cannot keep my mind from assuming some objective, third person view during nearly anything, including sex.  Talking dirty sometimes evokes a "lol".  It can kill the mood for others, while they also realize that I wasn't even in the same mood they were in exactly.

If this "event horizon" of dissociative observation can be breached -- and it can, but usually by appealing to the animal in me in relentless fashion -- the singularity beyond manages to pluck me from my own mind.  In that ecstatic sort of sexual satori, losing my mind is the sweetest ambrosia life has to offer.

Maybe.