Also, correct me if I'm wrong but didn't I hear something about you failing to become a marine? If you succeed at everything you do what exactly happened with that?
No I don't think you did. I want to know why your opinion on her changed after you entered a relationship. Why do you consider yourself the best choice for her when you are in fact a desperate loser? Don't you think it's kind of pathetic that you wasted 5 years of your life(and counting) obsessing over her and have nothing to show for it? How did you feel everytime you cyber stalked her and found out she was dating someone else? intense jealousy? Rage? Was she aware of the stalking? You said you've beaten guys up for her in the past, have you ever wondered if she was using you? And where's that poem I asked for? You said you'd do your best and you've given me nothing. That's something you've failed at right there.
The effects of the lie left her with no friends, she lost her job and had to switch schools. It doesn't help that she was introverted. Whether the lie was factual or not, she suffered considerably during a already troubling in her life.
I don't want to reveal personal details about all of this.
Why did my opinion change of her after we were in a relationship?
A considerable amount of time had passed since we last met, she changed. Not the person I cared for anymore.
I saw myself as her match simply because I rose above my peers in every category. We were at one point best friends, who else could possibly understand and care for her the way I could?
I am ashamed that it has taken this long.
When she dated other men, it didn't bother me. I knew they were temporary, just a changing of the seasons. Their existence to her would be momentary while I remained, standing the test of time.
She became aware of my stalking after 2 years, she didn't mind it. Occasionally she would tell me it was comforting to know someone was always there for her.
She'd never use me, but I'd gladly volunteer.
As for the poem, I don't respond to demands nicely.
If you were this supposed "best choice", social context wouldn't have been enough to rip you two apart. Stalking would have never become the alternative if it was a strong enough relationship, and any words said against you wouldn't have held water and led to a break up in the first place.
It was weak enough to be broken apart by sabotage, which makes me question it's strength altogether. People try to sabotage relationships often enough, but it doesn't guarantee they will become destined for breaking up. Even dysfunctional relationships can persevere through social attacks.
Not trying to insult you, but qualifiers like "the best" raise red flags. It's too absolute.
Edit: "I've never failed anything. "
Woah, this one too. This statement is utterly absurd.
Stalking is mostly fine, there is nothing wrong with stalking. Some people get thier hearts broken and they spend a little time confused trying to sort things out. Might take them a while but they sort it out.
The people who lurk, and follow people because they are entranced by them, they are harmless as well.
My friend had a mentally handicapped guy make a beeline towards her from across the street after he got off the bus, and he went straight up to her stood in front of her with his mouth open and just stared at her. She started screaming.
He was harmless, he was so harmless I felt bad yelling at him to go away. Stalkers are not dangerous. They are just confused or mentally weak.
The guys who randomly wait for a victim to walk by, those are the dangerous ones. They rape and kill. They don't stalk someone, they wait for the first easy prey to come along and then they go to work. That's how I see it. On average, that's the way things happen, if you ask me.