Probably stared too long at the food stuck in her teeth, and she mistook it as "the soshopath stare".
Please disregard my previous advice and take Mike Hunt's instead.
If you're throwing up because you have delusions that your boyfriend is a psychopath and you insist he's lying when he says he loves you, you definitely shouldn't be in a relationship. But tell me, what's stressing you out so much that you want to hurt yourself?
If your boyfriend bought you chocolates would you wonder if he poisoned them and make yourself throw them up?
by Thrope
What has this guy actually done that makes you think he's a sociopath?
He hasn't really 'done' much. He is a 'perfect' boyfriend. Being attentive...talking sweetly...pleasing me in bed...
But things happened very quickly. I told him more about me in the first few weeks than I've told people I've known for years. He entered my life when I was lonely and vulnerable. He told me he was paranoid and had trust issues. Of course he hasnt mentioned his 'paranoia' since.
He quickly told me he loved me. And told me about his bad reputation, cheating and failed relationships 'to be honest with me.'
I haven't seen more than a few photos of him from his past. He deleted them because he wanted to change.
He ran over an animal on accident when he was angry.
He is a fan of Machaveillianism. I know this only from a quote he once posted. Never something he actually mentioned.
He always has an excuse. He will never take responsibility for anything. He is always right.
He mirrors me. Or he will even say things that I have not said, but things that he think I fear or feel. I.e. 'I love you so much. I don't want to lose you. But for some reason I feel that you are going to leave me. I don't know...maybe they are right, maybe you are just playing me...but I don't believe it...no, I can't believe it. I really love you. Please don't hurt me.' and 'Sometimes all of this feels like a dream.'
It happens less frequently than it used to...I think he knows I have been wanting to leave and has been on his best behavior. He always fixes things.
After all the times I've told him I don't trust him, I would expect him to get tired of my accusations and leave me if he were actually being honest. Instead he provides evidence and keeps trying to gain my trust.
He has said that he will never leave me. He wants to marry me. That we are perfect together.
I tried to break up with him several times within the first month, because everything in me was telling me not to trust him. I experienced sever anxiety and panic attacks, for the first time in my life. I didn't trust him..I was afraid of him... And he was the only person who made me feel better. Yet, he was the reason I was feeling bad.
All of these things are my perceptions, my reactions, my feelings. There is no real 'proof'.
I've got good news and bad news. The good news is that he's probably not a sociopath. The bad news is that he is a pathetic clingy loser. The stress you're feeling is most likely caused by struggling to decide wether or not to leave him. This guy isn't worth slicing your wrists or puking your guts out over. You should call him up and dump him right now before you end up dead or in the nut house.
And it took you, like, three pages to come to that realisation, pet.
While most of us here came to that realisation (that you're pretty fucking silly) after your first post. And that's why we don't care.
Nobody, except your parents (or paid / assigned therapist) has any obligation to care. People will only care if they see something worthy in you to care for. What you presented so far about yourself was rather off-putting.