I personally don't like reading the last page of a book without reading all the pages before it. Suicide to me strikes me as not just skipping to the last page of my own story, but outright vandalizing the book itself by ripping out it's pages.
Each time in the past that I've contemplated it, it's been because it'd "be easier". A convenience on the mind as opposed to a rage response or something mopey. That being said, thinking about it alone is worthless. What times the ways of going about it played out in my mind, I never had the courage to do it. Even during episodes of sheer crazy it's too hard to fathom.
Suicide's a funny thing, really. It takes a warped variant of courage to do it (alongside circumventing your own defense mechanisms against it), yet it's also deemed the "coward's way out". It's almost contradictory.
No. But I was almost shot by county sheriff once as a teenager because when they told me to drop the gun I said FUCK YOU. He gave me one more warning and his little partner racked the 12 gauge at me so I put it down. I will OD before I will give a pig the satisfaction though