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I never have, never really thought about it even outside of the realm of would i rather go to prison for life or suicide by cop. But that's about it

What kind of life situation did you have? Mind you, it changes from person to person.

What about these days, are you feeling better?

That's interesting, Jp. I don't think I would like prison so I would rather kill myself then go. Losing your freedom is absolute torture. But I might get used to it. I could do it for a short time but nothing long term.

The things would end me up in prison for long term (past fantasies not current) I had zero interest in getting away because a huge part of the satisfaction is taunting the victim. I wanted to make the person suffer in the past so I wanted to take away all that mattered from them so they would suffer. I don't do extreme things for fun - I do them to prove a god damn point.

I no longer want any of that but if I were to ever do something extreme I'd probably kill myself after the taunting got old (whenever that happened LOL - not for a while)

by Legga

What kind of life situation did you have? Mind you, it changes from person to person.

What about these days, are you feeling better?

 At the time hmm it's difficult to remember. My main struggle was that I was flunking out of school because I was just plain irresponsible and at risk of being dismissed. 

I also struggled with with problems caused by my personality. I've never had a close relationship/friendship (ever - I mean that literally) and I really struggled back then with watching everyone have intimacy and closeness with other people and I had never had that before. It was hard to figure out what was causing that and led me to appearance issues but I realized there was something very wrong with the way I was raised.

And since then - I am fine. I am doing better thank you for asking. I no longer desire close relationships and can honestly say I'm perfectly content without them. :-)

by Pink01

That's interesting, Jp. I don't think I would like prison so I would rather kill myself then go. Losing your freedom is absolute torture. But I might get used to it. I could do it for a short time but nothing long term.

The things would end me up in prison for long term (past fantasies not current) I had zero interest in getting away because a huge part of the satisfaction is taunting the victim. I wanted to make the person suffer in the past so I wanted to take away all that mattered from them so they would suffer. I don't do extreme things for fun - I do them to prove a god damn point.

I no longer want any of that but if I were to ever do something extreme I'd probably kill myself after the taunting got old (whenever that happened LOL - not for a while)

 I think the long term jail sentence is the only thing that would make me consider it. I would not like it at all. I could do some time but couldn't be a lifer.

by Pink01

I have. I don't know how many times because I have a bad memory when it comes to emotions/how I felt & what I did because they are fleeting. It is either 1, 2 or 3 times. But I think 2. T

I've been hospitalized for a suicide ideation once against my will and in that got depressive-disorder NOS diagnosis. Go figure I never attempted though until after I got out!

There is no failure but in ceasing to try. Or, if at first you don't succeed, try, try again. ;)
Just fucking with ya. Glad you're feeling better, Pink.  I've never tried to kill myself and I can't relate to this at all. 

I have no interest in trying again. I actually wasn't even upset when I failed - I carried on business as usual. I did temporarily lose my hearing from an attempt (the attempt?)

Being deaf was honestly pretty peaceful. I remember when I woke up I felt so weird, so I scratched my fingers against wall and I was deaf. I shrugged and got dressed for the bus lol. If somethings going to go wrong with me I hope I go deaf.

I've never been suicidal. To me, suicide equals weak. I believe in the saying, Only the strong survive.

by Thrill Kill

I've never been suicidal. To me, suicide equals weak. I believe in the saying, Only the strong survive.

We all die one day. Who cares when?