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Blanc said: 

Whorechata said: 

I mean if you were living in your apartment and no longer using the room in your parents house, ofc they're going to use it as basically a storage room.  If the one person that's constantly throwing a tantrum for no reason came back and started demanding things- would that not upset you too? 

What happened with the apartment? 

 Haven't thrown any tantrums, and haven't demanded anything. 

I remember tryp sayin you would yell a lot, if you do that with guests I can imagine what you do at home. I also remember that vc where your mom started talking and you were behaving like a jackass.

You're demanding they not put thing in the room you vacated. In their house. Because you can't keep your shit together and pay your rent. 

All I did was make room in my room for the stuff in my apartment to be brought in. Chill out. 

I'm pretty chill,I think you're being overly sensitive and sensing a tone where there isn't. This is perhaps something you're doing with your parents.

I already explained what happened with the apartment... room mate plan fell through, I was fired. Not affordable anymore. 

I didn't like all the noise anyway, so next place I get is going to be a stand alone home, ideally as far away from all people as possible. 

...how are you going to afford the house if you can't keep a job and continue to rely on your parents while simultaneously blasting them? And you had been out of work for some time now so how were you making rent? And I thought you made the choice to move back in with your parents because "that's where the food is" and "I need human contact". 

Is it because daddy lost his job and is refusing to pay your apartment?

I really like the idea of being in the middle of fucking no where. It's going to be so peaceful. Bless. 

(I've stayed in locations before that are like the location I want to live in permanently, so I already know how I like it and like, know that I like the "rural" life style very much.) 

I was so happy and at peace. 

You would panic very quickly.

I won't be totally alone though,  I'll be moving in with my gf. To be a big gay happy family with dogs and her cat, and lots of gayness. (Not the ex gf who did coke who I talked about moving in with before... that is cancelled af. broke up with her. dating someone else far better now, who is sober.) 

 Why were you going to be moving in with an ex gf when you're already dating someone else??

Whorechata said: 

Blanc said: 

Whorechata said: 

I mean if you were living in your apartment and no longer using the room in your parents house, ofc they're going to use it as basically a storage room.  If the one person that's constantly throwing a tantrum for no reason came back and started demanding things- would that not upset you too? 

What happened with the apartment? 

 Haven't thrown any tantrums, and haven't demanded anything. 

I remember tryp sayin you would yell a lot,

False, never once yelled at him. 

if you do that with guests I can imagine what you do at home.

It's not what I do, I am so quiet that they don't know where I am or forget that I'm there.

I also remember that vc where your mom started talking and you were behaving like a jackass.

That's because she was invading my privacy and I was mad about it. But that was three years ago, and a lots changed since then. Tensions in the air were different, where we were at was different relationship wise (we had just come back from a dinner where she was being a dick to me the entire time so I was a little ticked and made some sarcastic *joking* commentary as a way to sort of passive aggressively tell her to leave me alone.) basically, we were in the middle of fighting at this time, and things were different than they are now. I've made a lot of efforts to improve our relationship, thanks for judging it though, and me I guess. I uh... I can't prove to you I'm a "good person" or that I "care" but, um... you know, it's not really my prerogative here so. 

If I can't ever been "good enough" for you, why waste the time criticizing me, what is your prerogative? Because I'm just doing me, everything is chill over here. But you're like, judging and criticizing me and my life like, as if you know everything (which you don't lol) you have an outside perspective that is very obscured by the walls of distance. All you know of me isn't, a lot so. 

And tryp, likes to tell lies about me. He went through a phase where he was really mad and bitter about us breaking up and trash talked me for a while, spreading rumors that weren't true, etc. 

You're demanding they not put thing in the room you vacated. In their house. Because you can't keep your shit together and pay your rent. 

... okay once again why are you criticizing my life like, this is so detailed and small lol I don't see why anyone cares about my bedroom? But yeah, I didn't like DEMAND that they kept my stuff as it was, I just asked nicely that they leave it that way because I was in the process of organizing it and selling things online. I only asked that one time but, I think they just forgot. It's not a big deal... lol the main point of the post I made earlier wasn't even having anything to do with this. 

Like, I don't care if they put shit in my room, that literally has no effect on me. I have no emotional resentment toward this fact, I'm not making a big deal about it, etc. All I was explaining that, that's what my focus has been for the last few days was just cleaning up my room and that I was *enjoying* doing that. 

It was just something for me to do with all this quarantine time... *shrugs* I was just talking more about how it's important to me to have a space of my own to manage the chaos. 

All I did was make room in my room for the stuff in my apartment to be brought in. Chill out. 

I'm pretty chill,I think you're being overly sensitive and sensing a tone where there isn't. This is perhaps something you're doing with your parents.

Once again, not really for you to say since you don't have like, a birds eye view into my life, relationships with my parents, 24/7 like. You're judging me now with fictitious statements you've made up about us you're just *assuming* I'm doing lol. 

I get how you can see that as a possibility but, the approach I have to my relationship with my parents is quite the opposite, in how I behave and react to things... I'm not really being overly sensitive, I'm just dealing with reality as it comes. 

I'm not saying its the worst thing ever, I'm not saying it's the best thing ever, I'm just, writing things down plainly as they are. It is simply reality, it is simply matter of fact. Neutral. And then I just vent down my inner my thoughts and feelings about it, that I can't express in that reality without it getting messy. It's therapeutic. 

Everyone needs the space to just, vent sometimes. I do it because it helps me. 

I don't really see why you feel the need to pay such close attention to it though. 

I already explained what happened with the apartment... room mate plan fell through, I was fired. Not affordable anymore. 

I didn't like all the noise anyway, so next place I get is going to be a stand alone home, ideally as far away from all people as possible. 

...how are you going to afford the house if you can't keep a job

assumption number 1. I currently have a job, thanks to the coronavirus epidemic. I just didn't want to talk about it because I prefer to keep that private. And it's not a career path I'm interested in staying in, but it'll do for now to keep my parents happy. It's just not where I plan on staying. 

and continue to rely on your parents while simultaneously blasting them?

Not blasting anyone, not disrespecting anyone. Assumption number 2 and 3. Also wasn't reliant on them, I paid my rent. 

I lost my job and had to move out because my lease was up. I figured I would save for a bit while I was in-between houses, and look at getting something more financially manageable that makes sense- like a house. With an 800 mortgage, vs. a rent that was higher than that. 

It's normal to want to save up, for a downpayment, and then,... that way it saves me money in the long run... 

Once again, not sure why anyone would care about these small details about my life but, now you know? lol 

And you had been out of work for some time now so how were you making rent?

I have my hands in multiple endeavors. 

And I thought you made the choice to move back in with your parents because "that's where the food is" and "I need human contact". 

Yes those were positives of moving back in for the time being relevant to "surviving quarantine" for now. Is quarantine going to last forever? No. Assumption number 4. I'm not living here permanently for human contact and food, that was just for surviving quarantine purposes... I could of stayed in my apartment because evictions are illegal- but it quarantine gets lonely dude. 

I also had to spend a lot of gas money going back and forth, and I didn't want to touch the gas pumps anymore. 

Is it because daddy lost his job and is refusing to pay your apartment?

No I made the decision to move home whilst between moves a long time ago. I've been talking about this for months before that happened. 

I really like the idea of being in the middle of fucking no where. It's going to be so peaceful. Bless. 

(I've stayed in locations before that are like the location I want to live in permanently, so I already know how I like it and like, know that I like the "rural" life style very much.) 

I was so happy and at peace. 

You would panic very quickly.

Nah, I really enjoyed this type of environment, which I've been to on numerous occasions and stayed there for a length of time. Consecutive weeks in a row. So yes, I know for a fact I don't, panic in this scenario. I fucking, loved it. 

I won't be totally alone though,  I'll be moving in with my gf. To be a big gay happy family with dogs and her cat, and lots of gayness. (Not the ex gf who did coke who I talked about moving in with before... that is cancelled af. broke up with her. dating someone else far better now, who is sober.) 

Why were you going to be moving in with an ex gf when you're already dating someone else??

No you're misunderstanding the writing. 

I had a girlfriend named "N"... we were talking about moving in together, along with a friend of ours, "J".... then me and "N" broke up. 

Then I met a girl named "A"... and we got together. Now plans have shifted to move in with "A" lol 

I didn't date "N" and "A" simultaneously 

Blanc said: 

False, never once yelled at him. 

False, you have over vc and I'm inclined to believe you did it at home since you're a little bit of an entitled shit.

That's because she was invading my privacy and I was mad about it. But that was three years ago, and a lots changed since then. Tensions in the air were different, where we were at was different relationship wise (we had just come back from a dinner where she was being a dick to me the entire time so I was a little ticked and made some sarcastic *joking* commentary as a way to sort of passive aggressively tell her to leave me alone.) basically, we were in the middle of fighting at this time, and things were different than they are now. I've made a lot of efforts to improve our relationship, thanks for judging it though, and me I guess. I uh... I can't prove to you I'm a "good person" or that I "care" but, um... you know, it's not really my prerogative here so. 

If I can't ever been "good enough" for you, why waste the time criticizing me, what is your prerogative? Because I'm just doing me, everything is chill over here. But you're like, judging and criticizing me and my life like, as if you know everything (which you don't lol) you have an outside perspective that is very obscured by the walls of distance. All you know of me isn't, a lot so. 

And tryp, likes to tell lies about me. He went through a phase where he was really mad and bitter about us breaking up and trash talked me for a while, spreading rumors that weren't true, etc. 

At the time he told us about your constant yelling you guys were on good terms actually. And no you can't prove that you're a good-person because how much you've proved to be a bad-person. 

... okay once again why are you criticizing my life like, this is so detailed and small lol I don't see why anyone cares about my bedroom? But yeah, I didn't like DEMAND that they kept my stuff as it was, I just asked nicely that they leave it that way because I was in the process of organizing it and selling things online. I only asked that one time but, I think they just forgot. It's not a big deal... lol the main point of the post I made earlier wasn't even having anything to do with this. 

Then why are you making it a big deal?

And yeah this was actually one of the main points because you're not understanding why they used your room as storage while you weren't living there. 

Like, I don't care if they put shit in my room, that literally has no effect on me. I have no emotional resentment toward this fact, I'm not making a big deal about it, etc. All I was explaining that, that's what my focus has been for the last few days was just cleaning up my room and that I was *enjoying* doing that. 

It was just something for me to do with all this quarantine time... *shrugs* I was just talking more about how it's important to me to have a space of my own to manage the chaos. 

 You were going on about how you didn't enjoy it there, how it wasn't fun for you. Your parents home is not a space of your own, it's their space. You're probably the one bringing in the chaos.

Once again, not really for you to say since you don't have like, a birds eye view into my life, relationships with my parents, 24/7 like. You're judging me now with fictitious statements you've made up about us you're just *assuming* I'm doing lol. 

You are literally telling us every detail of your life on this forum Blanc. I'm judging you based on what you've said and the way you've behaved on here.

I get how you can see that as a possibility but, the approach I have to my relationship with my parents is quite the opposite, in how I behave and react to things... I'm not really being overly sensitive, I'm just dealing with reality as it comes. 

I'm not saying its the worst thing ever, I'm not saying it's the best thing ever, I'm just, writing things down plainly as they are. It is simply reality, it is simply matter of fact. Neutral. And then I just vent down my inner my thoughts and feelings about it, that I can't express in that reality without it getting messy. It's therapeutic. 

Everyone needs the space to just, vent sometimes. I do it because it helps me. 

I don't really see why you feel the need to pay such close attention to it though. 

What you're really saying that you don't like how I'm not immediately agreeing with your view of being a victim. You've been venting here for years and now that we've started questioning you earnest and found out that you like to rearrange past events to fit your victim mentality you're defensive about it.

assumption number 1. I currently have a job, thanks to the coronavirus epidemic. I just didn't want to talk about it because I prefer to keep that private. And it's not a career path I'm interested in staying in, but it'll do for now to keep my parents happy. It's just not where I plan on staying. 

Idk how it works where you live since you had that apartment on your own when you started to live there but usually in order for You to even get to see the lease contract you need to be making double or triple the rent amount so I can only imagine your dad or mom cosigned the lease. You didn't even have a job when you first got it as you said your parents made you sell the house your relative left you and instead got you the apartment. It's not a malicious assumption if you're constantly leaving out information to favor your story, 

Not blasting anyone, not disrespecting anyone. Assumption number 2 and 3. Also wasn't reliant on them, I paid my rent. 

And yet you're relying on them right now and you're blasting them on a forum. I'm not saying you didn't pay rent, I'm saying daddy helped you pay rent 

I lost my job and had to move out because my lease was up. I figured I would save for a bit while I was in-between houses, and look at getting something more financially manageable that makes sense- like a house. With an 800 mortgage, vs. a rent that was higher than that. 

So then your roommate falling through on that rent wasn't a big issue as you were making it. You had already planned to move back in with your parents and use them while still complaining about how they have rules in their house and how they're using your room.

It's normal to want to save up, for a downpayment, and then,... that way it saves me money in the long run... 

Once again, not sure why anyone would care about these small details about my life but, now you know? lol 

Most people save up while still having their own place. And sure it saves you money but you're literally out here complaining about your parents again when you knew what you were getting into. You know what your parents are like and what your relationship with them is like but you're still. Here. Acting like the victim in their home when they are literally helping you.

And you had been out of work for some time now so how were you making rent?

I have my hands in multiple endeavors. 

They clearly weren't helping were they. 

Yes those were positives of moving back in for the time being relevant to "surviving quarantine" for now. Is quarantine going to last forever? No. Assumption number 4. I'm not living here permanently for human contact and food, that was just for surviving quarantine purposes... I could of stayed in my apartment because evictions are illegal- but it quarantine gets lonely dude. 

I also had to spend a lot of gas money going back and forth, and I didn't want to touch the gas pumps anymore. 

 You're putting up all these flimsy excuses, and then back tracking on them. Any further complaint you make from here on out is because you enjoy being the victim and still not understanding that you're using your parents and they don't necessarily have to put up with your shit. You're so far up your ass that you don't understand they may be stressed out having another mouth to feed in the house again after your father lost his job. People are high strung right now because the future is uncertain, you even have a fucking coronavirus fear thread going on right now but you can't understand why your parents may be reactionary to anything negative you do because you only think of yourself.

Blanc said: 

Is it because daddy lost his job and is refusing to pay your apartment?

No I made the decision to move home whilst between moves a long time ago. I've been talking about this for months before that happened. 

Then why the "my roommate od'd and now I'm moving in with my ex oh but that fell through😭😭😭😭😭 I have to move back in with my parents" if it's something you already planned? Why are you surprised?

I really like the idea of being in the middle of fucking no where. It's going to be so peaceful. Bless. 

(I've stayed in locations before that are like the location I want to live in permanently, so I already know how I like it and like, know that I like the "rural" life style very much.) 

I was so happy and at peace. 

You would panic very quickly.

Nah, I really enjoyed this type of environment, which I've been to on numerous occasions and stayed there for a length of time. Consecutive weeks in a row. So yes, I know for a fact I don't, panic in this scenario. I fucking, loved it.

There's no luxury comforts out in the middle of nowhere and you're too accustomed to your Starbucks life and complaining to actually thrive in such an environment.

I won't be totally alone though,  I'll be moving in with my gf. To be a big gay happy family with dogs and her cat, and lots of gayness. (Not the ex gf who did coke who I talked about moving in with before... that is cancelled af. broke up with her. dating someone else far better now, who is sober.) 

Why were you going to be moving in with an ex gf when you're already dating someone else??

No you're misunderstanding the writing. 

I had a girlfriend named "N"... we were talking about moving in together, along with a friend of ours, "J".... then me and "N" broke up. 

Then I met a girl named "A"... and we got together. Now plans have shifted to move in with "A" lol 

I didn't date "N" and "A" simultaneously 

 No I'm not, you said: 

I was going to move in with my ex girlfriend and my friend J, but, that plan fell through when I realized, I didn't really, enjoy J's company that much and didn't want to live around her. And, my ex decided to go full tilt into cocaine and drinking, it was out of control. So I broke up with her. I just don't find that very attractive, at all. 

I never said you dated them simultaneously. I said why were you going to move in with your ex N, if you're dating A now. 

Whorechata said: 

Blanc said: 

False, never once yelled at him. 

False, you have over vc and I'm inclined to believe you did it at home since you're a little bit of an entitled shit.

On top of that she also never specified "at him", just yelling in general. 

I remember tryp sayin you would yell a lot, if you do that with guests I can imagine what you do at home.

It was more about Tryp being a witness, and... frankly you do get emotionally unbalanced at the drop of a hat, Blanc. 

That's because she was invading my privacy and I was mad about it. But that was three years ago, and a lots changed since then. Tensions in the air were different, where we were at was different relationship wise (we had just come back from a dinner where she was being a dick to me the entire time so I was a little ticked and made some sarcastic *joking* commentary as a way to sort of passive aggressively tell her to leave me alone.) basically, we were in the middle of fighting at this time, and things were different than they are now. I've made a lot of efforts to improve our relationship, thanks for judging it though, and me I guess. I uh... I can't prove to you I'm a "good person" or that I "care" but, um... you know, it's not really my prerogative here so. 

"Joking" huh? Is that the new "bored"? 

It's definitely trending like it is. 

If I can't ever been "good enough" for you, why waste the time criticizing me, what is your prerogative? Because I'm just doing me, everything is chill over here. But you're like, judging and criticizing me and my life like, as if you know everything (which you don't lol) you have an outside perspective that is very obscured by the walls of distance. All you know of me isn't, a lot so. 

Holy shit Blanc, way to turn it into persecutory bullshit. This as your familiar zone's just going to raise your cortisol levels. 

It's yet more proof that you just want people who agree with you, you can't deal with even a little opposition. You keep saying people who criticize you must "not have read what (you) wrote", but we're reading it more than you are. 

"Just doing me", what do you think the rest of us are doing right now? You also get on other's cases for "just doing them", so what makes you so entitled to being above critique? 

Get over yourself, it's not that the world doesn't know you, it's that you don't know you as you subject the world to you. You insist you are misunderstood to bolster the value of your diminished, weakened ego, whereas if you listened for once you might catch some wisdom. 

And tryp, likes to tell lies about me.

You... make it kinda easy when you're doing the same thing about yourself. 

"Blanc is just a character" after all, right? 

... okay once again why are you criticizing my life like

You've opened the floor for it by spreading your dirty, smelly laundry out for all to see. 

Are we not supposed to comment about the smell catching on the breeze? 

Once again, not really for you to say since you don't have like, a birds eye view into my life, relationships with my parents, 24/7 like. You're judging me now with fictitious statements you've made up about us you're just *assuming* I'm doing lol. 

You are literally telling us every detail of your life on this forum Blanc. I'm judging you based on what you've said and the way you've behaved on here.

^ Bingo. 

I get how you can see that as a possibility but, the approach I have to my relationship with my parents is quite the opposite, in how I behave and react to things... I'm not really being overly sensitive, I'm just dealing with reality as it comes. 

Nah Blanc, this is oversensitivity.

You're barely dealing with reality at this point if an internet forum saying "Hey wait a minute..." over your dubious stream of consciousness reveals is enough to make you "neutral". 

I'm not saying its the worst thing ever, I'm not saying it's the best thing ever, I'm just, writing things down plainly as they are. It is simply reality, it is simply matter of fact. Neutral. And then I just vent down my inner my thoughts and feelings about it, that I can't express in that reality without it getting messy. It's therapeutic. 

Everyone needs the space to just, vent sometimes. I do it because it helps me. 

I don't really see why you feel the need to pay such close attention to it though. 

What you're really saying that you don't like how I'm not immediately agreeing with your view of being a victim. You've been venting here for years and now that we've started questioning you earnest and found out that you like to rearrange past events to fit your victim mentality you're defensive about it.

^ Speaking the words we've otherwise been saying all along. 

It's not a malicious assumption if you're constantly leaving out information to favor your story, 

The issue is over how Blanc herself is leaving out that information for her own perceptions, as opposed to just for ours out of shame. 

You aren't arguing against just her ego, you're arguing against her perceptual filters as well. 

It's normal to want to save up, for a downpayment, and then,... that way it saves me money in the long run... 

Once again, not sure why anyone would care about these small details about my life but, now you know? lol 

Most people save up while still having their own place. And sure it saves you money but you're literally out here complaining about your parents again when you knew what you were getting into. You know what your parents are like and what your relationship with them is like but you're still. Here. Acting like the victim in their home when they are literally helping you.

For real, just like Med, it's like a baby crying about mama's teet being out of reach, but that breast milk is the sedation of undeserved cash.

You're putting up all these flimsy excuses, and then back tracking on them.

Any further complaint you make from here on out is because you enjoy being the victim and still not understanding that you're using your parents and they don't necessarily have to put up with your shit.

You're so far up your ass that you don't understand they may be stressed out having another mouth to feed in the house again after your father lost his job.

People are high strung right now because the future is uncertain, you even have a fucking coronavirus fear thread going on right now but you can't understand why your parents may be reactionary to anything negative you do because you only think of yourself.

Split each sentence into it's own statement for emphasis.

/inb4 "I wuz jus' vent'n!".

Blanc said:

It's not what I do, I am so quiet that they don't know where I am or forget that I'm there.

Until after they try to get your attention away from your phone anyway. 

Turncoat said: 

Blanc said:

It's not what I do, I am so quiet that they don't know where I am or forget that I'm there.

Until after they try to get your attention away from your phone anyway. 

 My phone has been dead for maybe over a week now. 

Whorechata said: 

Blanc said: 

False, never once yelled at him. 

False, you have over vc and I'm inclined to believe you did it at home since you're a little bit of an entitled shit.

Entitled and a bad person, who apparently makes it a hobby to yell at specifically Tryp a lot but no one else. Got it lol. 

That's because she was invading my privacy and I was mad about it. But that was three years ago, and a lots changed since then. Tensions in the air were different, where we were at was different relationship wise (we had just come back from a dinner where she was being a dick to me the entire time so I was a little ticked and made some sarcastic *joking* commentary as a way to sort of passive aggressively tell her to leave me alone.) basically, we were in the middle of fighting at this time, and things were different than they are now. I've made a lot of efforts to improve our relationship, thanks for judging it though, and me I guess. I uh... I can't prove to you I'm a "good person" or that I "care" but, um... you know, it's not really my prerogative here so. 

If I can't ever been "good enough" for you, why waste the time criticizing me, what is your prerogative? Because I'm just doing me, everything is chill over here. But you're like, judging and criticizing me and my life like, as if you know everything (which you don't lol) you have an outside perspective that is very obscured by the walls of distance. All you know of me isn't, a lot so. 

And tryp, likes to tell lies about me. He went through a phase where he was really mad and bitter about us breaking up and trash talked me for a while, spreading rumors that weren't true, etc. 

At the time he told us about your constant yelling you guys were on good terms actually. And no you can't prove that you're a good-person because how much you've proved to be a bad-person. 

Oh okay well, if Alena said it, it must be true. That settles that. Hey, thanks. Seriously, thank you. I really appreciate it. Lol Anything else you wanna tell me about me that you think you know about me? 

... okay once again why are you criticizing my life like, this is so detailed and small lol I don't see why anyone cares about my bedroom? But yeah, I didn't like DEMAND that they kept my stuff as it was, I just asked nicely that they leave it that way because I was in the process of organizing it and selling things online. I only asked that one time but, I think they just forgot. It's not a big deal... lol the main point of the post I made earlier wasn't even having anything to do with this. 

Then why are you making it a big deal?

And yeah this was actually one of the main points because you're not understanding why they used your room as storage while you weren't living there. 

Once again, not a big deal. The reason I even included that in the journal post is because it was preliminary information, context as to explaining the details to unfold later as to why I was doing what I was doing. Which was cleaning my room. Lol 

Shocking, I know. 

Like, I don't care if they put shit in my room, that literally has no effect on me. I have no emotional resentment toward this fact, I'm not making a big deal about it, etc. All I was explaining that, that's what my focus has been for the last few days was just cleaning up my room and that I was *enjoying* doing that. 

It was just something for me to do with all this quarantine time... *shrugs* I was just talking more about how it's important to me to have a space of my own to manage the chaos. 

 You were going on about how you didn't enjoy it there, how it wasn't fun for you. Your parents home is not a space of your own, it's their space. You're probably the one bringing in the chaos.

False

Once again, not really for you to say since you don't have like, a birds eye view into my life, relationships with my parents, 24/7 like. You're judging me now with fictitious statements you've made up about us you're just *assuming* I'm doing lol. 

You are literally telling us every detail of your life on this forum Blanc. I'm judging you based on what you've said and the way you've behaved on here.

That's the thing, it's not every detail. My full life, and my full self, if you got to know it- is for example, metaphorically a full moon. What you are viewing, is a crescent of that moon. 

I get how you can see that as a possibility but, the approach I have to my relationship with my parents is quite the opposite, in how I behave and react to things... I'm not really being overly sensitive, I'm just dealing with reality as it comes. 

I'm not saying its the worst thing ever, I'm not saying it's the best thing ever, I'm just, writing things down plainly as they are. It is simply reality, it is simply matter of fact. Neutral. And then I just vent down my inner my thoughts and feelings about it, that I can't express in that reality without it getting messy. It's therapeutic. 

Everyone needs the space to just, vent sometimes. I do it because it helps me. 

I don't really see why you feel the need to pay such close attention to it though. 

What you're really saying that you don't like how I'm not immediately agreeing with your view of being a victim.

Never stated that I was, you're misunderstanding me by making assumptions about my view points on things. Rather you'd just ask me what I thought or had a conversation so you could understand this isn't my perspective. You've misunderstood the journals as whining, when they serve a progressive purpose, and I am taking on the effort of "dealing with it" myself. As an adult with emotional intelligence healthily would. 

You've been venting here for years and now that we've started questioning you earnest and found out that you like to rearrange past events to fit your victim mentality you're defensive about it.

Don't have a victim mentality though. 

assumption number 1. I currently have a job, thanks to the coronavirus epidemic. I just didn't want to talk about it because I prefer to keep that private. And it's not a career path I'm interested in staying in, but it'll do for now to keep my parents happy. It's just not where I plan on staying. 

Idk how it works where you live since you had that apartment on your own when you started to live there but usually in order for You to even get to see the lease contract you need to be making double or triple the rent amount so I can only imagine your dad or mom cosigned the lease. You didn't even have a job when you first got it as you said your parents made you sell the house your relative left you and instead got you the apartment. It's not a malicious assumption if you're constantly leaving out information to favor your story, 

This is getting into the details of my life which I wasn't really planning on sharing on the internet. 

Not blasting anyone, not disrespecting anyone. Assumption number 2 and 3. Also wasn't reliant on them, I paid my rent. 

And yet you're relying on them right now and you're blasting them on a forum.

Venting. In my private, personal journal. How dare I. 

I'm not saying you didn't pay rent, I'm saying daddy helped you pay rent 

Nope. 

It's a journal. Do you understand...