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Aight cool you guys have made your assumptions about me, that's cool. You can all get together and form a hate club about me. 

I'm just kinda choosing to let it go because ya'll, I just don't have the energy for this. Like, I'm tired. 

So have at it, have fun. I don't care anymore like, bye lol 

(I just wanna play the sims and animal crossing) 

also tryp is lying I did not yell at him in any of those instances, I didn't think he was CHEATING on me (he thought that I thought that and afterwards I explained thats not what I thought) I was sort of mad because like we only had a limited amount of time to spend together and he was just like looking at his phone for hours ignoring me and finally after sitting there in silence for long enough I said something like really subtle and quietly about the fact he was looking at his phone or something I don't remember, it wasn't even passive aggressive I was just trying to drop a hint like, ummmm can we do something else now? 

I never accused him of cheating on me, which is funny, because he actually ended up doing so. but at least he admitted to to me, on his own volition. 

but anyway, and the reason why he's saying I "pushed his head" it wasn't like I fucking hit him or abused him or anything like that, my hand had contact with his chin, and I picked up to look at me and said, "look at me when I'm talking to you" and that was probably a little out of line, it's something my parents always done to me, so like, unfortunately these bad patterns do come out but I try my very best to keep them in control, including my anger. but I was just frustrated because I was trying to have a sincere conversation with him openly and he was incapable of doing so, he was just looking around like, not invested at all. everything was so casual its like, it didn't even matter to him. it's a sign of disrespect. 

and I really don't like being disrespected. he did a lot of disrespectful things, that were rude. and hey, no ones perfect. I don't sit here on a forum being vindictive about his flaws as a human being because it doesn't matter- what one person may find is rude, other people, are completely immune to its affect. we just didn't work as a couple and this was one of the key reasons- we had different ideas of what respect in a relationship looks like. 

he insisted that things that, I felt were rude, which I calmly tried to talk to him about in a very mature and respectful manner- he thought, they were not rude. and continued to do them, knowing how I felt about it. which hey, to each their own, I can't control the way a person wants to act, I can't make someone not be themselves. but, if they genuinely behave that way in a relationship- that's not a relationship I want, Or a person I want to be with. 

for example, the person I'm with now, is much different from that, and is aware of these signals of what's rude or what's impolite. and is on top of that. they're keyed in. 

Anyways, so that's all that our disagreements were about but, we never like, "fought"... and yes, at one point in our relationship I did get mad about him not like giving a single fuck and even joining in on like, the flack people were giving me in chat somewhere idk. I was like... why aren't you saying anything? you know?? it just shows me how little he cares about me and my feelings. 

so yeah, of course I confronted him about it because we agreed on being totally communicative and straight forward with each other about things. communication is key blah blah blah. so, I tried to tell him, hey this bothered me. 

but I wasn't fucking yelling at him about it Jesus Christ. all I did was like why don't you care and then he was like ugh Mary you're so blah blah blah I don't have time for this and I was like aight cool and like hung up and we didn't talk for like 3 days or something. 

such minor details of a relationship that were completely insignificant he's drawing to light and exasperating trying to make me look bad... he's been doing this for a long time now, if you haven't noticed. 

there is nothing I can do about it, but I promise I'm not that way, in relationships. 

and the claims that you three people are making about me, and assumptions, etc, are just untrue, I'm not those ways either. 

I'm actually a really chill, nice, person. I don't believe in yelling, I don't believe in physical violence. I'm not, abusive, or rude, mean, or even vindictive or passive aggressive. I think these things are toxic for a relationship, and unfair. How is a "man" supposed to love a women who constantly berates him. This was never my goal. 

And, when I was journaling, it wasn't my goal to complain. And you've painted this picture of me like, demonizing me as if I'm a horrible fucking person when it's quite the opposite, I'm really nice, and I would lay my life down, for random strangers. 

Like, the work I'm doing right now, is aiding corona virus efforts right now. I went to school to study medicine because I care about people, I care about the telemedicine act, I'm passionate about making positive change in the world. I have an immense amount of gratitude for everything I have from the air I breath to the people in my life, regardless of if they stress me out. And yes, my relationship with my parents isn't the fucking best, and in the past things were really bad because their parenting style was, abusive without them understanding that it was. But, I've been doing my best to mend that relationship, and it's difficult, I have to keep a healthy distance from it, and also do what is safest and best for myself, my mental health. As advised by my therapist. Like, I can go on forever about all the "nice" things I've done in my life, for other people like... I'm not, a hater, I'm not racist, I'm not unjust, I'm not unkind, to anyone. I'm extremely understanding, accepting, empathetic of everyone- even people that everyone hates or bullies. I have an altruistic nature, I have a lot of really good qualities, of course I'm still human like anyone and we're all imperfect, lol that's an understatement but, I don't understand why everyone is trying to tear me down in particular, out of anyone on this forum. I don't understand why everything has suddenly become a judge of character, but without judging themselves, and their actions and character first. Like, I'm saying, we should each should of worry about our own lives, our own selves, and respectively stay out of each other's business. I feel a bit hounded on and dug into, digging around in my personal life, etc. Yes, I journal, but that doesn't mean that I'm granting you the "right" to fucking root around in my life in such a rude and disrespectful way. It doesn't mean I feel like I want to have the kind of close relationship with you, where I spew every detail of my life to you for you to judge. I don't talk about every single detail. You think I do- but I don't. Aight? 

I've been saying this for a long time now. But, anyways. It's just, a fucking, journal. It isn't, all, inclusive. And, just because you think you know my entire life- the journal in reality is like, the equivalent of like, a YouTuber or a twitch streamer like you don't know everything about that persons life lol just because I talk about a few topics online like... *face palm* 

I just keep repeating myself to you guys is why I'm like... like I just wanna be friends and have fun on the internet. it's, all good like, there are no problems here, it's all chilll. we can all chill lol 

But you were being dishonest?

Blanc said: 

Aight cool you guys have made your assumptions about me, that's cool. You can all get together and form a hate club about me. 

 

I'm just kinda choosing to let it go because ya'll, I just don't have the energy for this. Like, I'm tired. 

 

So have at it, have fun. I don't care anymore like, bye lol 

 

(I just wanna play the sims and animal crossing) 

 

also tryp is lying I did not yell at him in any of those instances, I didn't think he was CHEATING on me (he thought that I thought that and afterwards I explained thats not what I thought) I was sort of mad because like we only had a limited amount of time to spend together and he was just like looking at his phone for hours ignoring me and finally after sitting there in silence for long enough I said something like really subtle and quietly about the fact he was looking at his phone or something I don't remember, it wasn't even passive aggressive I was just trying to drop a hint like, ummmm can we do something else now? 

I never accused him of cheating on me, which is funny, because he actually ended up doing so. but at least he admitted to to me, on his own volition. 

but anyway, and the reason why he's saying I "pushed his head" it wasn't like I fucking hit him or abused him or anything like that, my hand had contact with his chin, and I picked up to look at me and said, "look at me when I'm talking to you" and that was probably a little out of line, it's something my parents always done to me, so like, unfortunately these bad patterns do come out but I try my very best to keep them in control, including my anger. but I was just frustrated because I was trying to have a sincere conversation with him openly and he was incapable of doing so, he was just looking around like, not invested at all. everything was so casual its like, it didn't even matter to him. it's a sign of disrespect. 

and I really don't like being disrespected. he did a lot of disrespectful things, that were rude. and hey, no ones perfect. I don't sit here on a forum being vindictive about his flaws as a human being because it doesn't matter- what one person may find is rude, other people, are completely immune to its affect. we just didn't work as a couple and this was one of the key reasons- we had different ideas of what respect in a relationship looks like. 

he insisted that things that, I felt were rude, which I calmly tried to talk to him about in a very mature and respectful manner- he thought, they were not rude. and continued to do them, knowing how I felt about it. which hey, to each their own, I can't control the way a person wants to act, I can't make someone not be themselves. but, if they genuinely behave that way in a relationship- that's not a relationship I want, Or a person I want to be with. 

for example, the person I'm with now, is much different from that, and is aware of these signals of what's rude or what's impolite. and is on top of that. they're keyed in. 

 

Anyways, so that's all that our disagreements were about but, we never like, "fought"... and yes, at one point in our relationship I did get mad about him not like giving a single fuck and even joining in on like, the flack people were giving me in chat somewhere idk. I was like... why aren't you saying anything? you know?? it just shows me how little he cares about me and my feelings. 

so yeah, of course I confronted him about it because we agreed on being totally communicative and straight forward with each other about things. communication is key blah blah blah. so, I tried to tell him, hey this bothered me. 

but I wasn't fucking yelling at him about it Jesus Christ. all I did was like why don't you care and then he was like ugh Mary you're so blah blah blah I don't have time for this and I was like aight cool and like hung up and we didn't talk for like 3 days or something. 

such minor details of a relationship that were completely insignificant he's drawing to light and exasperating trying to make me look bad... he's been doing this for a long time now, if you haven't noticed. 

 

there is nothing I can do about it, but I promise I'm not that way, in relationships. 

 

and the claims that you three people are making about me, and assumptions, etc, are just untrue, I'm not those ways either. 

 

I'm actually a really chill, nice, person. I don't believe in yelling, I don't believe in physical violence. I'm not, abusive, or rude, mean, or even vindictive or passive aggressive. I think these things are toxic for a relationship, and unfair. How is a "man" supposed to love a women who constantly berates him. This was never my goal. 

And, when I was journaling, it wasn't my goal to complain. And you've painted this picture of me like, demonizing me as if I'm a horrible fucking person when it's quite the opposite, I'm really nice, and I would lay my life down, for random strangers. 

 

Like, the work I'm doing right now, is aiding corona virus efforts right now. I went to school to study medicine because I care about people, I care about the telemedicine act, I'm passionate about making positive change in the world. I have an immense amount of gratitude for everything I have from the air I breath to the people in my life, regardless of if they stress me out. And yes, my relationship with my parents isn't the fucking best, and in the past things were really bad because their parenting style was, abusive without them understanding that it was. But, I've been doing my best to mend that relationship, and it's difficult, I have to keep a healthy distance from it, and also do what is safest and best for myself, my mental health. As advised by my therapist. Like, I can go on forever about all the "nice" things I've done in my life, for other people like... I'm not, a hater, I'm not racist, I'm not unjust, I'm not unkind, to anyone. I'm extremely understanding, accepting, empathetic of everyone- even people that everyone hates or bullies. I have an altruistic nature, I have a lot of really good qualities, of course I'm still human like anyone and we're all imperfect, lol that's an understatement but, I don't understand why everyone is trying to tear me down in particular, out of anyone on this forum. I don't understand why everything has suddenly become a judge of character, but without judging themselves, and their actions and character first. Like, I'm saying, we should each should of worry about our own lives, our own selves, and respectively stay out of each other's business. I feel a bit hounded on and dug into, digging around in my personal life, etc. Yes, I journal, but that doesn't mean that I'm granting you the "right" to fucking root around in my life in such a rude and disrespectful way. It doesn't mean I feel like I want to have the kind of close relationship with you, where I spew every detail of my life to you for you to judge. I don't talk about every single detail. You think I do- but I don't. Aight? 

 

I've been saying this for a long time now. But, anyways. It's just, a fucking, journal. It isn't, all, inclusive. And, just because you think you know my entire life- the journal in reality is like, the equivalent of like, a YouTuber or a twitch streamer like you don't know everything about that persons life lol just because I talk about a few topics online like... *face palm* 

 

I just keep repeating myself to you guys is why I'm like... like I just wanna be friends and have fun on the internet. it's, all good like, there are no problems here, it's all chilll. we can all chill lol 

 Omg you really blamed it on your parents

Also we've also heard you yell at him in vc's so it's not it's unlikely you'd do that in person too

I never ignored you for hours, in fact I was rarely on my phone unless there we were in your room and you didn't want to do anything.

You did think I was cheating, you started freaking out about the notifications I was getting on my phone from apps. Maybe you forget.

I pay a lot of attention to what is going on around me, that's why I got along with your family. Me looking at a phone doesn't mean I'm ignoring you. I was rarely even looking at a screen, your habit was to wake up and go on Tumblr, think about that.

You did yell, you were passive-aggressive. I don't think you're capable of being sincere with yourself, though. You could hardly remember the shit you would say the next day.

And the reason people are "tearing you down" is because you are perpetually full of contradictions you show no awareness of. You carry on like a victim, even though you bring a lot of this on yourself. 

Tryptamine said: 

I never ignored you for hours, in fact I was rarely on my phone unless there we were in your room and you didn't want to do anything.

You did think I was cheating, you started freaking out about the notifications I was getting on my phone from apps. Maybe you forget.

I pay a lot of attention to what is going on around me, that's why I got along with your family. Me looking at a phone doesn't mean I'm ignoring you. I was rarely even looking at a screen, your habit was to wake up and go on Tumblr, think about that.

You did yell, you were passive-aggressive. I don't think you're capable of being sincere with yourself, though. You could hardly remember the shit you would say the next day.

And the reason people are "tearing you down" is because you are perpetually full of contradictions you show no awareness of. You carry on like a victim, even though you bring a lot of this on yourself. 

 I have witnessed her verbally abuse you in vc and then turn it around and accuse you of "ignoring" or being an asshole, turning the blame on you plenty of times homie. Im pretty disgusted by the fakeness and manipulativeness coming out of her. I have been your friend for years, if you dont care about yourself then please care about us who dont wanna see this shit happen to you.

I have decided to avoid blanc plenty of times because she lashes out at you when you dont give her attention, like I was just ignoring her and talking to Xad and she attacks me and him because shes butthurt nobody acknowledges her. Then when people strike back she cries like a crybully because she is more sensitive than everybody else.

The bottom line is that shes a toxic abusive tumblr teenager that lashes out at people for not giving a shit about her and victimizes herself when people call her out or dont buy her very obvious lies. Then she wonders why nobody likes her and she ends up getting ignored by everyone. I feel sorry for her, she seems unable to realize why shes being excluded from things we do together and rejected by everybody and cant change the behavior that fuels it. Shes trapped in her own comfortable delusional bubble and cant see whats going on around her and why things are the way they are. I hope her parents get her the help she needs.

All of this is a huge misunderstanding, you’ve all misread me completely lol

Its normal for you to think that because your mental illness is making you unable of seeing things clearly and your personality traits. Do your parents still pay for your therapy? Im sure that once the therapy is done you will look at your actions and yourself be shocked.

We're not misreading you, you just don't have a sense of how you conduct yourself.

Blanc said: 

All of this is a huge misunderstanding, you’ve all misread me completely lol

Pretty sure it's you misreading you. 

Tryptamine said: 

I never ignored you for hours, in fact I was rarely on my phone unless there we were in your room and you didn't want to do anything.

I mean... in her defense you did go to sleep. That takes hours, right? 

You did think I was cheating, you started freaking out about the notifications I was getting on my phone from apps. Maybe you forget.

Is this a thing a lot of people get insecure over or something? 

I pay a lot of attention to what is going on around me, that's why I got along with your family. Me looking at a phone doesn't mean I'm ignoring you.

Seconded, have seen it in action. 

You nosedived into the net sometimes while we were all hanging out, but you contributed towards the conversations in ways that showed enough listening going on. 

I was rarely even looking at a screen, your habit was to wake up and go on Tumblr, think about that.

I guess it's less of a mystery when it's their own internet device? 

...that and the whole her having a girlfriend while being into you thing. Perhaps her insecurity was raw projection? 

You did yell, you were passive-aggressive. I don't think you're capable of being sincere with yourself, though. You could hardly remember the shit you would say the next day.

...that and she doesn't read her own material too well. 

And the reason people are "tearing you down" is because you are perpetually full of contradictions you show no awareness of. You carry on like a victim, even though you bring a lot of this on yourself. 

Her whole "You're misreading me" is pretty funny from someone who isn't checking her own work.