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Turncoat said: 

Why are you doing it in the first place, like what's the goal? 

Are you testing your willpower or is it vanity? 

 As mentioned I'm doing this for health reasons. I'm in my late 40's and need to take care of myself from here on out. 

- Gut health. I suffer chronic stomach aches. I want it gone, and I think it's been cured. This is also linked to handling eczema, which I have, and it's been quite successful. 

- Dispose of bodily toxins. 

- Liver maintenance. As we age the liver gets fatty, it's why we put on weight as we age. This improves the liver's health.

- Appearance. This is simply another perk to looking after oneself. Though it isn't the driving factor as to why I'm doing this. I'm also done chasing tail so it's not like I'm interested in attracting a bunch of women. 

The reason why I started doing this, as mentioned earlier, a friend said he wanted to do it. I said okay then we'll do it together. He dropped out within the first week while I just kept going. I know what I'm capable of and I knew I'd break the day 15 mark. I also learned some things along the way. If I do this again it'll be very short. Like 7 days a month, it's not nice going this long. My trip to the grocery store will be interesting cause I'm getting a whole lot of food alongside my watermelon. 

Between my last post and now, I tried to sleep, but instead laid there for hours, not even tired. I pissed twice, drank twice and also took the electrolyte supplement and I feel normal, except different. My body isn't as it was on the 29th of October.

Do I think it's worth it ? I wouldn't want what's been done to be undone. The process really sucks though. I have fantasies of eating italian sausage on kaiser buns done up properly. I think I've been weakened, lost some muscle, but I must train when I start eating again, especially since I'm be having some of that white bread and rice. Maybe some pasta and noodles. Just not as much. 

Did exercise not work for you? 

I assume for your gut health you tried changing up your diets to see if you had any digestive allergies or anything? 

Awww.  I'm going to say it's sweet that TC cares to work with Spatial, even though there's animus between them.  Very heart-/gut-warming. <3

Turncoat said: 

Did exercise not work for you? 

I told you why I started doing this. Aside from that I was getting regular exercise, though I'm really going to have to train more when I start eating again. I did lose some muscle and I feel weaker. Normally I'm able to conjure up enough strength to move very heavy things by myself.

I assume for your gut health you tried changing up your diets to see if you had any digestive allergies or anything? 

 Unknown. This started happening within the past 6 years. It would be a random attack that carries on in the form of 12 hours of hell, usually happens while I'm exhausted, almost as if it's calculated. Heat takes the edge off. I know I can't have anything with caffeine when that happens so at best I might drink hot water, or soak in the tub for some relief.  

Maybe I'll get a colon cleanse, sure I'll feel violated but I hear it's good to do. 

Buttered Toast said: 

Awww.  I'm going to say it's sweet that TC cares to work with Spatial, even though there's animus between them.  Very heart-/gut-warming. <3

At the end of the day he's still a fellow human being and I have the room to relate to the harm he's doing to himself. I've met a lot of people who've fallen prey to the fasting trend if not going as far as anorexia or bulimia, and I've spent a lot of time looking at the pros and cons of what's in our food. 

The same things that lend to me arguing with him are also how I can feel for him. 

Day 27.

Or rather, I should just call it at 26 days. I broke the fast yesterday. But will take it easy till day 30 

I decided to walk to the Supermarket, it's not that far. But damn, when I was halfway there I felt extremely exhausted. When I reached my destination I sat down to rest. Something so simple as walking to the supermarket kicked my ass. 

On top of that I was extremely thirsty. 

I picked up the water melon, then the 2nd half of the battle began. I was leaning on a pole waiting to cross the street. Couldn't walk straight. Felt like I wasn't going to make it. 

Not sure how long it took me, but it was probably a little more than double the time it would've taken as I had to stroll on my way back. 

Dying of thirst, I felt like snapping off a branch to jab the watermelon.

I made it back, I'm in the lobby. Cute concierge sees me and she lights up like a candle, asks how I'm doing. I said I'm exhausted like hell and damn near passed out in the grocery story, I told her about the fast. She started telling me about her fasting adventure. Yeah yeah, okay, I'm having melon now later. 

People are being so nice. I have a newfound glow about me, and I look sharper.

I get home, grab cutting board, bread knife and a spoon. I stabbed the watermelon. I missed the middle, I don't care, I cut it close to the center in half. Took the smaller piece and started scooping it. I had a blast eating it. I felt kinda full so I chilled for a bit. The experience wasn't as good as they say, but it was really really nice to eat. 

Also, it was near my bedtime. I have been going to bed early as of late which is why it was extra hard to travel in this state I'm in. However, for my stomach's sake I had to stay up for at least 2 hours before laying down, as the stomach was coming out of stasis. So I watched an HD Bootleg the passed out. 

I woke up at 3AM on day 27. 

When fasting there are these side effect, our gums might bleed, but it already stopped when washing my mouth. 

Had more watermelon, soft boiled 4 eggs ( 7 minutes ), diced an Apple, ate a Banana. It was like a party. I wanted more. I took an orange bell pepper cut out the stem and dashed it in boiling water not knowing exactly what I'll do with it yet. When I took it out I chopped it up and fried it up with 4 eggs I whipped up with black pepper. I was in love, that's 8 eggs. 

That set the tone for when I eat, which is every 12 hours. Today at 3PM I had 4 soft boiled eggs ( 6 minutes even better ) some soup with a little beef, very soft brussel sprouts, mushrooms, soft carrots. The eggs had liquid yoke that would mix in well with the soup, it was so beautiful.

Aside from my appearance

- I have no desire to animate porn anymore. This is basically saying no to, well, stupid amounts of money a month for an average person, I don't want to do this anymore. 

- My skin is better. Not perfect but much better. I'm very happy.

- Charisma increase. I'm certainly more attractive. Did a reveal today on whatsapp and they huddled around the screen going crazy at what they saw. Of course this would only excite people who know me, but still a confidence boost. 

- Thinking is better. I can notice a cognitive improvement in the things I do. I'm bored with scrolling, I'll be more productive. 

- Enhanced night vision.  ( kidding )

- Looking younger. I always look younger, but this really shaved off some years. It's been said that when we fast, the body goes into a state of survival mode where the system works harder to keep us alive, and that has anti aging properties and can even cause us to live longer. It's true.  

- Picking up on people's energies. This would be hard to believe, but when I was strolling back about to collapse, a jogger ran by me, and I got a wave of energy and was able to drive myself to walk normal for a few minutes. I have a theory, if we consume less, God, or as some like to say the universe, will present us with other gifts, cause food in itself, is a gift and it can be swapped for things, such as events. 

^Some of this might also have to do with semen retention, as I was fasting I was isolated and did not really see anyone. I had no desire to mastrubate even though pretty much everything was boring. Only good thing was talking to people.  

 I plan to have steak on Wednesday which would be day 30, though I feel like I can handle it now, I'm going to stick to the plan. There's a slight ache in my stomach right now, seems normal.

I watched a lot of food videos while fasting, there's little to no desire for all of that now, it doesn't feel worth it to start eating noodles, bread, pasta, rice, and sweets. If  ate any of that now I can do some seriously damage to myself. Tomorrow I'm going on a test flight, see how far I can travel on foot without damn near passing out now that I'm eating every 12 hours. After day 30 I'm doing carnivore diet so I'll carry on shedding weight while doing strength training.

I'm passing out now.  

Golden_Eagle said: 

Day 27. choked on cock since cock is entirely natural. restored my ethereal fascist spirit energy.

Congrats Spatial. I think fasting really improves health. I wouldn't be able to go 30 days without food these days so that's really impressive. My max is around 14 days, plus 7 days with crumbs. Holy smokes 30 days is a long time.

I hope it was worth it. Post a photo.

For carnivore diet, I don't recommend it. I tried it and started suffering from vitamin deficiencies after couple months (first 3 to 4 weeks were fantastic) and lack of fiber which fucked up my gut microbe.AAfter changing it immediately fixed it. I'm very suspicious of Jordan Peterson's health claims. There are several people who say his claims about growing hair back is fake and that he actually implanted the hair.

I can recommend low carbs though. I could probably do carnivore plus nuts/seeds and fish. The infinite red meat thing did a number on me.

Jada said: 

Congrats Spatial. I think fasting really improves health. I wouldn't be able to go 30 days without food these days so that's really impressive. My max is around 14 days, plus 7 days with crumbs. Holy smokes 30 days is a long time.

As mentioned I broke it last Saturday which was day 26.

I wanted to start the feeding process early, I had a little watermelon and passed out. I'd say I successfully fasted for 27 days cause by the time I got up I started eating eggs, apple Bananas. I was expecting to kinda juice my way to day 30, but I had no issues eating anything.

It ended off hard, I was getting dehydrated and easily exhausted. I'm doing it again for 7 days on December 25th, and will fast once a month.

Buddy wants to take me out to lunch today, so he'll be swinging by and I don't know what I'm having. yet, I'd eat a sub no problem 

Tomorrow I'm frying steak, which would've been the true day 30. So, 27 days, stomach seems normal.   

I hope it was worth it. Post a photo.

I wouldn't want it undone. 

For carnivore diet, I don't recommend it. I tried it and started suffering from vitamin deficiencies after couple months (first 3 to 4 weeks were fantastic) and lack of fiber which fucked up my gut microbe.AAfter changing it immediately fixed it. I'm very suspicious of Jordan Peterson's health claims. There are several people who say his claims about growing hair back is fake and that he actually implanted the hair.

I can recommend low carbs though. I could probably do carnivore plus nuts/seeds and fish. The infinite red meat thing did a number on me.

If I did hard carnivore, I'd do it similar to how I water fasted, which is I'd take supplements. vitamins and minerals the meat doesn't provide. I'd also drink certain juices, natural fruit punch, orange, smoothies.

Instead I'm going to do 80% or so carnivore ( with cheat days ). That is smaller portions served with big portions of meat. 

Not just beef, but fish, and chicken. I'd also eat fruits, snack on organic things like nuts, and even enjoy something shitty once in awhile. Fried chicken once in awhile, it's been ages tbh. Eggs.   

Fried rice, Pho, Soup Dumplings, spring rolls, various stir fried noodles. Pizza. Hamburgers, Fries, wraps, Caribbean dishes of course, I was raised by caribbean people. Pilau, Jamaican beef patties, Oxtail, Jerk chicken, Roti, curry goat, curry chicken, calulu, provisions, saltfish and bake, Shark and bake and a list of other things you never had in your life, I'll still have once and awhile. Maybe it'll take a year to have some of everything.

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One thing I learned about anorexia.

I feel like I did experience it, when I was about to awaken my dormant digestive track. 

- It's not hunger, we can't feel hunger after 12 hours. It's just cravings we can ignore.

- There's a void that falls under depression from being away from food, and it stays when we don't feel like eating.

- To fill this void, I watched recipe shorts and created a playlist of over 100 videos which are the best of the best of the best that I've seen, and I must've watched a thousands shorts.

- Water starts feeling forced when we drink it, then we only want to take sips. Simply chugging water, holding my breath to swallow, felt wrong.  

(watch this now)

- The plan was to use bone broth to start back, but I was repulsed by broth. I was repulsed with most foods. I would've puked. THAT is anorexia.

- I picked up the watermelon, and saw delicious cooked food hot and ready, and I was repulsed by it. The smell pushed me away.

The only thing I could've had and I knew it, were very soft fruits. Mild stuff. Had to be raw.

With that we see people struggling with anorexia, as their families try to get them to eat their suppers. The problem is, they mustn't eat those things until they're back in working order, and it doesn't take long or hard to fix. Cut up some watermelon for them, make sure it's fresh. Eat some, then chill out. Wait a while and hit some more. 6 hours later, hit it again with some salad. I personally ate eggs but some people in this state might not consider eggs as something they like. Keep up with the raw foods. Blood work helps, and if there are any deficiencies get's supplements for it. 

Oranges can swing either way, though by this time the subject should have built up an appetite. Eat a tangerine or piece of grapefruit before having a meal, and the anorexia should be cured.  I experienced it, and if it weren't for the planning and knowledge of how to start eating again, I probably would've been in real trouble. 

Damn it Spatial now you made me crave watermelon.

What you say sounds pretty sensible for the carnivore diet. I did it wrong for sure.

I think I know what you mean by anorexia.I get the feeling you describe with fasting sometimes, but maybe not to the same extent.

I guess there's a difference between being forced to fast and choosing it. When I went 2 weeks without food and 1 week with crumbs, I mostly didn't have a choice (not entirely true but my pride got in the way of asking for help). So I felt like I was trapped without the ability to eat. So when I actually got a chance to eat, I went all in.

You should be proud of yourself. Not many people in the world can do 25 days.