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aubrieta said: 

Sintetika said: 

aubrieta said: 

Sintetika said: 

aubrieta said: 

Sintetika said: 

aubrieta said: 

Sintetika said: 

aubrieta said: 

Sintetika said: 

AliceInWonderland said: 

 While that is what my mind is telling me to do. The goal is to be in control, not indulge in hedonistic sadism. 

 sadism okay, so murdering/torturing people. but not children. are they bad people or relatively innocent?

 I haven't harmed a human being, even though I get those thoughts especially in the likes of someone like Cawk. 

I used to torture and kill small animals, while it wasn't a big amount or for long, because of circumstances, the thoughts have been nagging me ever since, and now there's an opportunity. 

For context, there's apparently a big mouse in my house, it could be a mother of a nest since I found another one the other day, that I ended as swiftly as possible. 

 I love animals so i would say dont<3 but its better to harm them than other humans if its purely to indulge in sadism, although i didnt used to think so i used to value the lives of animals more even tho i was never successfully vegan lol

 I've only killed frogs and mice. Mice because they were in my house, and Frogs because I saw them while I was walking, and I stomped and grinded them into the bark of a tree. 

 well i love animals so i wouldnt condone it but i am not you and i do not know what its like to live in your head and crave that sort of pleasure. i would prefer if you could do it as quick and painless as possible that would be easier for me to not be upset over

 It's hard for me to do it quick and painless, because I feel the euphoria by inflicting pain and watching it suffer, as well as having control over it's life and what looks like fear, especially with mice. 

 :( cant relate, but its better than hurting people or children. do you see it as a potential gateway leading into prefering larger animals and then possibly humans?

 That's the way it feels like. Though, I'd prefer to torture and kill pedophiles and those I consider a problem to society. 

 have you ever tortured or killed anyone before?

 No, but there are people I believe deserve to be tortured and killed. To clarify, I think I'm one of the youngest if not the youngest person here. I'm going on 19 and entering the military. I have thoughts of harming and killing. I had thoughts like that towards my own family, but I don't think I would ever do that. 

The notorious shia lebouf vid alice posted is right, you just do it. No indulgence in sadism, you realize where you want to be, why you want to be there, acknowledge your own interests by prioritizing your goal.

A personal compass I go by is to avoid things that seem “hot”. Impulses, temptations, anything in the moment with a bit if pull gets a second think over. Even if it is me working towards my goal in a fervor.

A tip I took from one or my instructors is that I find something I dislike doing everyday and I do it. Just to get me in the gear to push forward as well as stave off complacency 

Don't expect anyone to give you the answers in life. If you truly want to change, you'll start searching on your own. Asking on SC is one way, but better yet is to decide what you value most in life and see what philosophers and wise men in the past have said about those things. We're all kind of on the same page here, not many have lived past 40 and so the majority of people are still searching. There's a shitton of useful information and knowledge and wisdom on the internet, right there for the picking. You just gotta look for it. 

So with that said, I'm 100% with Alice and Syst. Literally just do it. 

anyone who hasnt realized this topic is pure attention whoring is more retarded than the OP

Cawk said: 

anyone who hasnt realized this topic is pure attention whoring is more retarded than the OP

I'm starting to become more okay with feeding that appetite in other people if I get something out of it as well. 

It's worse to be mundane than to want attention. 

Cawk said: 

anyone who hasnt realized this topic is pure attention whoring is more retarded than the OP

 >has no self control

>sees thread about self control

Sintetika said: 

 It's hard for me to do it quick and painless, because I feel the euphoria by inflicting pain and watching it suffer, as well as having control over it's life and what looks like fear, especially with mice. 

 This finally comes full circle now. Your zeal on pedophile death and about culling the degenerates of society is just some excuse to indulge in a temptation of your own. Stop validating that zeal by justifying your disdain for those people. You're only enabling yourself while also acting like you're not cut from a similar cloth. 

Kestrel said: 

Sintetika said: 

 It's hard for me to do it quick and painless, because I feel the euphoria by inflicting pain and watching it suffer, as well as having control over it's life and what looks like fear, especially with mice. 

This finally comes full circle now. Your zeal on pedophile death and about culling the degenerates of society is just some excuse to indulge in a temptation of your own. Stop validating that zeal by justifying your disdain for those people. You're only enabling yourself while also acting like you're not cut from a similar cloth. 

Yes, yes this. 

This is such a shift from where you were. 

Kestrel said: 

 

Sintetika said: 

 It's hard for me to do it quick and painless, because I feel the euphoria by inflicting pain and watching it suffer, as well as having control over it's life and what looks like fear, especially with mice. 

 This finally comes full circle now. Your zeal on pedophile death and about culling the degenerates of society is just some excuse to indulge in a temptation of your own. Stop validating that zeal by justifying your disdain for those people. You're only enabling yourself while also acting like you're not cut from a similar cloth. 

 You sensible son of a bitch