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Jada said: 

I'm pretty sure mentioning fulfilling one of my life's goals when it came to that, liberating my ancestors.

I'm at peace with my decision to cut her loose. Unfortunately she isn't. And I still love her, it's just she's pretty fucked up and quite dangerous. She learned a hard lesson from me aswell.

It'll sound arrogant, but she'll be stuck unable to find anyone who compares to me for the rest of her life, getting stretched wide open by guys who aren't me, unable to get off the carousel.

The one I love the most, is a destroyer. I never choose to love her, it's God's blessing in disguise. If I were weak, I'd be chasing her, which is actually bad for both of us.

This is stuff of wisdom not everyone would understand.

So basically shes a bitch who is fucked in the head but your primal instinct is to still breed with her. And this is the love of your life that you'll remember on your death bed.

Lmao.

Technically yes. She is without a doubt the love of my life, and I think about her everyday.

You said something dumb again. And I know why you said it.

Why is it dumb though? You said what you wanted most in life is respect, so I'm clarifying. Im not a mind reader buddy.

I said and I quote: "Don't care if I'm loved or not. I like respect."

You managed to get it twisted.

Like I said, it was I....Who cut her loose. So surprise again.

I told you to your face, but that knee jerk tic of yours has you looking silly again.

Ok well I didn't know that, so now you clarified it. Like I said, Im not a mind reader. The world revolves without you too.

You had no reason to make assumptions either. I certainly wouldn't have, that low intelligence stuff.

Ironically its easier for that type of person to fuck other people, except the one they fear getting hurt by the most. It inspires her to pull endless shit tests to see if she's able to hurt me. I mixed her with friends once, and never again.

You will probably have no idea what I mean when I say this, but this explains so much of your behavior.

I'm not a codependent people pleaser like you are. I simply don't chase. Could be an age thing, or it could be, I don't need to.

I'm indifferent to the women my friends pick up and date. It's not my job to cockblock my friends, nor do I celebrate my friends downfall, or their breakups Legga you dumbass.

Im sorry, but youre not. It oozes off of you. Your story was like 50% about how your friend picks up girls, how they're foolish to go with him, and how he steals girls from you. That whole sidetrack could've been omitted from the story and it would've been the same. You chose to emphasize it because it felt important to you. What you emphasize in your stories tells a lot about you because I can contrast it with stories that others tell. Other people dont place such a huge emphasis on their friends' girlfriends. You do, and I notice it.

I think anyone who read what I wrote, would find this reply dunce.

Yes I wrote about how much of an asshole my buddy is, and included his audacity to cockblock me. This doesn't equate to 50% of what I wrote, nor do I find his downfall pleasurable.

What I emphasize is how he lost EVERYONE.

In my opinion the cuckold man is like iron. Like he can walk in on his woman cheating, then decide what he'll do about it.

Im at a loss for words.

 Of course you are.

See if you walked in on your wife bouncing on Steve's fat rod and loving it, you'd shatter.

The very thought of handling like a boss escapes you. Why, you'd even scoff at the idea of you coping with Steve giving her a solid ramming. There's no way you should ever maintain any stability whatsoever.

That being said I hope your wife never had to suffer when you were away spooning with, Steve. Better if she handled it like a cuck and shed no tears over your shit.

Technically yes. She is without a doubt the love of my life, and I think about her everyday.

Whats special about her?

I said and I quote: "Don't care if I'm loved or not. I like respect."

You managed to get it twisted.

Do you always expect people to read your mind? You like respect. Fine. Clearly you also care about love and you're coping. You literally think about this girl every day.

You had no reason to make assumptions either. I certainly wouldn't have, that low intelligence stuff.

We all make varying degrees of assumptions, including you.

You keep going with that low intelligence stuff pretty ad nauseum. Maybe you should really try to get over it? You're literally obsessed. I dont know why my intellect bothers you so much. It's like I've hit some kind of tic you have or something.

I'm not a codependent people pleaser like you are. I simply don't chase. Could be an age thing, or it could be, I don't need to.

Codependent what? Lol. Yeah you really didn't have any idea what I was talking about. I was referring to how you interact with the people here and comment on their relationships. Your story explains why you view relationships the way you do, and why you seem to hold such a judgemental and negative attitude all the time.

I think anyone who read what I wrote, would find this reply dunce.

Yes I wrote about how much of an asshole my buddy is, and included his audacity to cockblock me. This doesn't equate to 50% of what I wrote, nor do I find his downfall pleasurable.

What I emphasize is how he lost EVERYONE.

I should really find that post and paste it here in front of you, but I dont have that much motivation. Its like someone telling a story about their day at the gym and then zooming in on a description of one of the guy's dick in the story for like 10 minutes. What do you think people will think if you do that?

Jada said: 

Technically yes. She is without a doubt the love of my life, and I think about her everyday.

Whats special about her?

Nothing. I'm not even all that physically attracted to her, yet I would've been all hers.

We don't choose who we fall for.

I said and I quote: "Don't care if I'm loved or not. I like respect."

You managed to get it twisted.

Do you always expect people to read your mind? You like respect. Fine. Clearly you also care about love and you're coping. You literally think about this girl every day.

It's been said it's better to love than be loved. I understand and agree with that. I do love, but I don't worry about being loved.

Now when you say I'm coping, that actually made me laugh. You have no idea what I've become.

You had no reason to make assumptions either. I certainly wouldn't have, that low intelligence stuff.

We all make varying degrees of assumptions, including you.

You keep going with that low intelligence, etc, etc, stuff. Maybe you should really try to get over it? You're literally obsessed. I dont know why my intellect bothers you so much. It's like I've hit some kind of tic you have or something.

True. It's my bullshit detector.

I'm not a codependent people pleaser like you are. I simply don't chase. Could be an age thing, or it could be, I don't need to.

Codependent what? Lol. Yeah you really didn't have any idea what I was talking about. I was referring to how you interact with the people here and comment on their relationships. Your story explains why you view relationships the way you do, and why you seem to hold such a judgemental and negative attitude all the time.

We could go deep into that and make a list of people who take issue with me. While I have an idea of how it would turn out, this would be your chance to impress me.

I think anyone who read what I wrote, would find this reply dunce.

Yeah cause you dont have similar i-told-you-so moments reflecting exactly the same characteristics on this forum, ever.

Yes I wrote about how much of an asshole my buddy is, and included his audacity to cockblock me. This doesn't equate to 50% of what I wrote, nor do I find his downfall pleasurable.

What I emphasize is how he lost EVERYONE.

I should really find that post and paste it here in front of you, but I dont have that much motivation. Its like someone telling a story about gym and then zooming in on one of the guy's dick in the story for like 10 minutes. What do you think people will think if you do that?

 It's in the importance kindness thread.

Anyone with half a brain knows why I wrote that. It highlights the type of self destruction when someone is a dick. It's not about envy, or 'I told you so'. It's not about macking chics, or holding grudges.

Still you figure it's something you can analyze and weaponize against me with your own take on it. That I celebrated the guys downfall, which you have to admit is a dumb take on the written material.

True. It's my bullshit detector.

Its not.

Another fabrication. You seem to think I'm jealous of my friends, and celebrate their downfall. That what I wrote in that lengthy post is 50% about me being invested in who my friends are dealing with.

Look, you asked, I answered. You pay attention when girls dont come your way. It shows up in the way you narrate topics. And it shows up in your stories. It also shows up in how you interact with people's relationships here, too. Even an idiot sees it.

Anyone with half a brain knows why I wrote that. It highlights the type of self destruction when someone is a dick. It's not about envy, or 'I told you so'. It's not about macking chics, or holding grudges.

I have no doubt that's why you wrote it. But when someone tells a story and keeps describing some guy's dick in detail for 10 minutes, do you think that perhaps tells something about the sexual orientation of that guy even if the story is about dandelions? You were describing at length how your friend was magnetising, stealing girls from you, and how you felt disgusted that girls would fall for such a slimy guy. That was important enough for you to highlight.

Still you figure it's something you can analyze and weaponize against me with your own take on it. That I celebrated the guys downfall, which you have to admit is a dumb take on the written material.

Look, I'm just going by what you said. You asked for my thoughts on how you view women, so I gave it to you. I dont think you have the right to complain. I wouldn't have shared my view had you not asked me. Youre the one who attacked me out of the blue.

GiGi said: 

My wants are simple:

to be loved

to have a career

money doesn’t hurt either 

 Grant infinite wishes to people and to my self and have my magic back and so i can fly away/run away from this rubbish hell that we live in i feel bored enough to actually go back to the original heaven or above it to do something different maybe related to pc gaming or food or relationships i am bored here

Jada said: 

Buttered Toast said: 

What I want most, and what those wants in the previous post amount to for me: some measure of peace and equanimity.  Some daylight to peek out from between the looming clouds of survivalism.

ugh.

It disgusts me how little youre content with. I want the world, and I want to experience everything there is to experience. I want to know everything there is to know. You want to, what, survive?

I mean good for you, Im happy that youre content, but is that really all you want? I dont believe you.

The original question (in the title) was "what do you want most out of life". And it isn't that I merely want to survive; what I want most is to get beyond worrying about that. You're right to not believe it's all I want.

Ok, I misunderstood. Apologies.

Companionship, finishing any of the novels I have in mind, climbing the ladder of employment and (personal) achievements, have always been with some version of that end goal in mind anyway. ...It isn't any more complicated or simple than that.

What kind of novels? What do you want to write about?

Oh, and I'm not content. Far from it, and I don't think I ever will be. That's the paradoxical nature of this living thing, isn't it? But it is a part of the motivation. Happiness is nice, but contentment is realistic. Ambition keeps the feet and hands and mind moving. ...But a lot of that dissolves in the face of existentialism and pragmatism, taking different shapes in time.

Contentment is realistic for sure.

What about meaning? Is it important to you at all?

...I do see that ambition dissolves in the face of pragmatism, for many people. Ive written about that at length on another forum. I think most people lose sight of their dreams and ambitions, and fall into despair, as they get older. It happened to everyone around me, but it never happened to me. One of the reasons I feel annoyed when people like Luna fail is because I feel like it leaves me lonely in a sea of people with no dreams or purpose.

I can understand that feeling, but I've never succumbed to it. So I guess in that sense the experience of most people is entirely alien to me. I will never be able to fully relate to people who want to live a simple life.

Jada said: 

Companionship, finishing any of the novels I have in mind, climbing the ladder of employment and (personal) achievements, have always been with some version of that end goal in mind anyway. ...It isn't any more complicated or simple than that.

What kind of novels? What do you want to write about?

Mostly fiction, fantasy or sci-fi.  I mostly (perhaps autistically) get lost in the worldbuilding and details, then mood and ADHD pull me to focus on something else.  It's one of my personal, internal battles.  What I want to write about would probably amount to escapism that I would like others to enjoy, than necessarily something like social commentary or whatever.  Perhaps that makes it more toward "pulp" sort of content, but without yet having "gotten into it", hard to say what really fits or what captures me the most.

Oh, and I'm not content. Far from it, and I don't think I ever will be. That's the paradoxical nature of this living thing, isn't it? But it is a part of the motivation. Happiness is nice, but contentment is realistic. Ambition keeps the feet and hands and mind moving. ...But a lot of that dissolves in the face of existentialism and pragmatism, taking different shapes in time.

Contentment is realistic for sure.

What about meaning? Is it important to you at all?

...I do see that ambition dissolves in the face of pragmatism, for many people. Ive written about that at length on another forum. I think most people lose sight of their dreams and ambitions, and fall into despair, as they get older. It happened to everyone around me, but it never happened to me. One of the reasons I feel annoyed when people like Luna fail is because I feel like it leaves me lonely in a sea of people with no dreams or purpose.

I can understand that feeling, but I've never succumbed to it. So I guess in that sense the experience of most people is entirely alien to me. I will never be able to fully relate to people who want to live a simple life.

A discussion on meaning and purpose would deserve its own thread, obviously probably.  Meaning and purpose looks to me to be a stratified project.  There are universals and case-specifics.  The majority of human experience with meaning and purpose is entirely self-projected and self-directed.  It is important to me in that it sets the priorities and hierarchy of choices, and remaining cognizant that meaning and purpose is constantly being rewritten by our own internal processes and the external circumstances we face.  Lots of science on that, I'm sure you're aware of: Decision Theory, Game Theory, etc.

However, the impression I usually get from talk about meaning and purpose for others is significance.  Of oneself, of one's experiences.  The world would be far less interesting if everyone was the same.  You may not be able to relate to it, but I think it helps us understand ourselves better sometimes.

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With all that and everything else being said, I still have "cage diving with great white sharks" on the top of my Bucket List.  I think it conditionally applies to the thread, right?

Jada said: 

True. It's my bullshit detector.

Its not.

It's the detector. It's next to the spine inside a pressure point by my left shoulder blade.

Another fabrication. You seem to think I'm jealous of my friends, and celebrate their downfall. That what I wrote in that lengthy post is 50% about me being invested in who my friends are dealing with.

Look, you asked, I answered. You pay attention when girls dont come your way. It shows up in the way you narrate topics. And it shows up in your stories. It also shows up in how you interact with people's relationships here, too. Even an idiot sees it.

As it is with every guy, most women don't come our way and I'm at peace with that.

That guy in particular. His ex's throw themselves at me, and it's his fault. Women are hypergamous and he props me up like I'm the king. I also mentioned I'm like his vulcan, keeping his mind stable. His girls see that and then I have another, friend. I might have mentioned he has cousins that want to fuck me.

The point is no I'm not jealous of the guy. I mentioned he's pretty good at picking up girls which goes to show he knows better whenever he acts up.

Anyone with half a brain knows why I wrote that. It highlights the type of self destruction when someone is a dick. It's not about envy, or 'I told you so'. It's not about macking chics, or holding grudges.

I have no doubt that's why you wrote it. But when someone tells a story and keeps describing some guy's dick in detail for 10 minutes, do you think that perhaps tells something about the sexual orientation of that guy even if the story is about dandelions? You were describing at length how your friend was magnetising, stealing girls from you, and how you felt disgusted that girls would fall for such a slimy guy. That was important enough for you to highlight.

I mentioned him cockblocking me yes. But the piece I wrote basically had nothing to do with girls Legga you dumb ass. It had to do with how he lost all of us. His friends, his siblings, his lady friends, 1 parent, his daughter, acquaintances. Everyone casted him out.

Still you figure it's something you can analyze and weaponize against me with your own take on it. That I celebrated the guys downfall, which you have to admit is a dumb take on the written material.

Look, I'm just going by what you said. You asked for my thoughts on how you view women, so I gave it to you. I dont think you have the right to complain. I wouldn't have shared my view had you not asked me. Youre the one who attacked me out of the blue.

 I believe you.

You're giving it your all. Don't give up hope.

It's the detector. It's next to the spine inside a pressure point by my left shoulder blade.

Should see a doctor maybe then.

That guy in particular. His ex's throw themselves at me, and it's his fault.

Sure they do buddy.

I might have mentioned he has cousins that want to fuck me.

Are these cousins in the room with us now?

I mentioned him cockblocking me yes. But the piece I wrote basically had nothing to do with girls Legga you dumb ass. It had to do with how he lost all of us. His friends, his siblings, his lady friends, 1 parent, his daughter, acquaintances. Everyone casted him out.

Yeah the story wasnt about him cockblocking you. That was kind of my point. You just kept going on and on about how he's taking girls from you, how you feel upset girls are drawn to him even though hes such a slimy guy, and how youre in competition with him on kindness. None of this had anything to do with the story, but you kept talking about it, hence why I paid attention.

Its a bit like if you tell you a baseball story. It has nothing to do with a guy called Jack. But then suddenly you go on a tangent to describe Jack's dick to everyone for half the story. It reveals something about you.

You're giving it your all. Don't give up hope.

Giving my what all?