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What I want most, and what those wants in the previous post amount to for me: some measure of peace and equanimity.  Some daylight to peek out from between the looming clouds of survivalism.

GiGi said: 

My wants are simple:

to be loved

Easy enough, but I suspect you want to be loved by one in particular. 

If it's anyone doing it, it's not hard. 

to have a career

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I want to be friendly about this, but like... a career in what exactly? 

money doesn’t hurt either 

But is it more important than love and career? 

On topic, I want someone I deem an equal in my life, when it comes to the appraisal of human experience, so that I can unload on them as much as people unload on me. Usually, when it comes to that, it feels fairly one sided but then again I'm the one with an actual degree in that so... yeah, of course I'd have more answers for them. 

Feeling alone sucks, it sucks a lot, and when I feel like the only one "helping them" it allows me to feel that way even in the company of other people. It's lonely as fuck but I also was saddled with a complicated diagnosis so I can't expect even people with a therapy background to get it. 

I don't need much to get by, as I've seen across the years in various scenarios, but I need someone I can hold an actual conversation with. I don't care if they have occasional freakouts or otherwise act out, I'm built to help with that, but quote unquote "no one's built to help me with it". 

Essentially, I want to feel like I'm being helped, which is probably why I work so hard to help other people. My greatest desire is companionship, it's surprisingly consuming compared to other needs like food. If they are the sort to take charge even better, that's good synergy, but I've made it work without that before. Even just being quick witted and confident tends to work. 

The vibe: 

I want my people looked after.

Don't care if I'm loved or not. I like respect.

I want to hear from someone I had to let go of, though I probably won't be thrilled to hear whatever she has to say.

More money. Things are expensive, and I'm not obliged to keep helping people handle their expenses.

Good food. Flamed a steak on the BBQ the other day.

Privacy. I don't like being around others for long periods of time.

Generative Ai. Makes life easy. I had an idea to promote a project and I needed stock footage, now I can for cheap and free. I no longer need to model certain things, the Ai can generate them with textures and other maps from images. I enjoy making shorts by importing my CG to the Ai. 

When it comes to what I want, it's either there already or it manifests itself. In the 90's I got Deadpool #1. I wanted an Ironman movie and it came out. Then came Deadpool movies.

In 2017 I played a game called A Billion Wives, where we endlessly collect points up to unheard of numbers. I wished my bank account would do that, 2 months later I made it happen and made money in my sleep.

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We always know what needs to be done to get most of what we want. It might not be as good as we thought from the downsides that come with whatever it is. In Med's case, she had Chapo and still has him in the form of what we see, and it isn't fair or cheap or a good deal. She likes what he used to be toward her, but she certainly doesn't like who he is now.

$10million.

Everything else (safe and mostly happy family, creative freedom, nice home, stability, being able to help a few charities, cute cats, etc.) will happen easily when I have this much money or more.

i want power and control so i can help humanity in as many ways as possible to become successful in space