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Man, not you too. 

What is going on with people and LLMs lately? 

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Man, not you too. 

What is going on with people and LLMs lately? 

 I admit I did it because my best friend was doing it and curiosity peaked me. I think a lot of it is just telling me what I want to hear, so I don't think it's great to really invest time into. I just wanted to see what I could do with it. 

It's not sentient, and its only able to respond to anything I say and the context of what I say, it obviously cant form its own things or ask me anything without me already pushing it to go that way.

I think I'm done with them for now though, unless someone starts making breakthroughs where somehow sentience becomes something that may be the case. 

We already live in a form of societal psychosis, this is just another symptom of it. We're all burning, and if I don't start seeing chaos soon. I think I might just crash out. 

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I think AI is going to ruin you so hard

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I think AI is going to ruin you so hard

 I think I am perfectly capable of doing that myself, thanks. Infact I think I am already nearing the end. =)


but maybe its just the BEGINNING  but time will tell, I don't intend on dying anytime soon, but I'm not going to run from it should it come. 

last edit on 8/3/2025 2:58:34 PM
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Lets see, I have the characteristics of self-hatred, and constantly overthinking and analyzing and criticizing every thought, feelings and aspect of me. Paranoia, Intrusive thoughts be they sick in a sexual sense such as necrophilia, or rape, which I think is more conditioned via exposure to porn and gore, as well as well obviously a different form of outlet of control, and then there's the other intrusive thoughts of killing my own family, which although I dont like them, and want away from them, I wouldnt want to necessarily do out of principle. 

I suffer from a lack of motivation if it is anything that could improve my health, such as taking care of my own room. The sexual intrusive thoughts, are just that, sexual but I would argue the other homicidal ones, dont really have any sexual connotation to them, its more so a warm nice feeling in the chest, like when I stabbed a mouse broodmother with a small knife repeatedly until it stopped trying to fight back. Retarded shit I know, that was 7 years ago. 

I obsess over not being prepared, that awful times are coming, that I wont be able to survive or fulfill my dreams, that all those I love will perish and on the flipside with self hatred, that I shouldnt even try to be there that I should disappear from everyone out of my own self hating fear that I will only hurt them, given my intrusive thoughts that make me feel like a monster and that I too should be destroyed. =)

I know that I shouldnt and at some point I will try to seek some form of help, I just hold a large amount of distrust towards your average shrink. 

I would prefer someone who has studied and follows the path of Lacan. 

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Do you ever wonder if you over-complicate things?  It never helps to foil your possible success by already renouncing it.

Try Buddhism.  Not Luna's Buddhism.  Real Buddhism.

Thrall to the Wire of Self-Excited Circuit.
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Do you ever wonder if you over-complicate things?  It never helps to foil your possible success by already renouncing it.

Try Buddhism.  Not Luna's Buddhism.  Real Buddhism.

I probably do over-complicate things, but I don't really know how to control it, I've been wanting to look into meditation. I am very much interested in Buddhism, and not any western liberal interpretation. I'm sure Alan Watts was a well-intentioned dude (not saying he is the reason why buddhism spread or anything) but overall I fear that trying to to learn it through someone like him would be without question locked into western assumptions and thought. 

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I feel like you short circuit your energy with mental hyperactivity, lending to a fast display that burns out and gets little done. 

Just the impression I get. 

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last edit on 8/6/2025 4:14:50 PM
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Do you ever wonder if you over-complicate things?  It never helps to foil your possible success by already renouncing it.

Try Buddhism.  Not Luna's Buddhism.  Real Buddhism.

 Tibetan Monks literally have a history of being pedos and slavers.

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I feel like you short circuit your energy with mental hyperactivity, lending to a fast display that burns out and gets little done. 

Just the impression I get. 

 Well, I would say yea. It's constant, I dont know how to just not, but Im trying to find new ways of doing things to see if some sort of routine sticks, like trying to listen to audio books on drives rather than constantly just listening to music, not that music isnt enriching, but there's a lot of philosophy and theory that I have been criticizing myself for not actively studying upon. 


In regards to Dragoon

Yes, Tibet's Theocracy was a backwards shithole. Though, I wouldn't entirely discount Buddhism itself as something not to look into, if not for something to have faith in but, for perhaps to better understand eastern thought. 

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