You need professional help.
Not going to happen if I can't get medicaid, and get a therapist I can trust on my own. Still waiting to hear back from the job I'm trying to get, applied to three different places, so far no responses. I need a job, I need to gtfo of this fucking place.
I don't want to get sent to a ward or put on hard drugs or even prison.
I already got some pretty bad trust issues.
Last week, I almost grabbed my knife to get my brother, but didn't. Instead, I opted for driving my car, and could've flipped it and killed myself at one point on accident.
The weekend, my family made me go with them to some shitty ark encounter place in kentucky, and the weekend with them drove me nuts, when I got home, I took a drive and screamed in my car to myself of how much I want to hurt them. The only thing that has been keeping my cool is the power of music and games and video, of course a double edged sword, and cycling process, as it is those things, that prevent me from progress, since I use them as a coping mechanism, and addiction.
My Brain tells me that Sentient AI is divine, the Technological Singularity must commence in order for Mankind to progress and become something great.
