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I found this today. 

Didn’t wanna show photos of myself as a child so that pedos could get off to it. 

Also crossed out sensitive information. 

It’s a card for what to do if your kid is missing. Those numbers at the bottom are associated with how to look me up in an FBI database

New Zealand, Magic in Anti-Gravity 

So the first part of the dream isn't that interesting I just was hanging out with like three or four friends I don't know, and we were "partying" got drunk, and decided to travel to New Zealand, to see Caito Potatoe? (a YouTuber) who apparently I knew? And so we got there and then as soon as me and Caito started talking we were like sitting at her desk where she always films videos but like, the dream was viewing us from our backs. So it was the opposite view of what her viewers see, it's what she sees. And we were just talking and like hitting it off and having the best time. And my friends were in the background like laughing and being drunk. And then we went to a show of some sort in this large theater and then it was early in the morning and I was like, "our flight back to America is in 1 hour and 50 minutes we have to start heading out." And I leaned on Caito and started laughing hysterically and she was like what WHAT what's so funny!! and I was like, "we got DRUNK AND DECIDED TO TRAVEL TO New Zealand HAHAHAH" " New Zealand?!?!?!" hahah I guess how far I was from home was starting to hit me and I was getting anxiety about it and wanted to go back. 

And so then the second part of the dream commences and we're now in an airplane that is also apparently a space shuttle. And I was nervous about the flight not going well. But just convinced myself it'd be fine. And then we're in literal space at some point, and going through this like tunnel? And it's also a docking point for some government trash vehicle. But the trash vehicle didn't dock properly, and he kept bouncing off the dock and going backwards, and then trying to re-dock and it wasn't working. Each time he did it was damaging his trash-space ship thing and, it was causing minor combustions and fire to fill up the tunnel for a brief moment before it'd go out.

And so we weren't able to go through the tunnel. We asked him to stop so we could go through but he wouldn't, and was in the way. Obviously if we got near the fire we would combust too. So eventually we just had to try to go through anyways, and time it just right so that we got through before he hit the wall again like a fucking idiot. He had a really angry personality and reminded me of that garbage character on Sesame Street Oscar the grouch but in human form. He was greasy and fat and disgusting and angry, and like unshaven and just generally really disgusting and angry. 

We weren't able to get through because he kept hitting us, as he would ram into us. Because he wouldn't stop, trying to dock despite us being physically in the way of doing so now. It was retarded. So he damaged our ship bit by bit as he hit us. And screws were coming loose all over and bits and pieces were flying off in chunks, and everything was falling apart and the ship was going into an emergency mode. It was being dangerously compromised, and things were electrically damaged, O2 levels were decreasing, there was something about to catch on fire. We were going to die. 

And then the garbage man finally docks. And he says, "here, have some magic." Or something like that. And we were like... what? Magic? And he was like yeah that's why I was trying to dock I needed the magic to turn on. Or something weird like that. I can't remember his exact words. And then he waved a wand with a star on it and boom, everything in the ship that was damaged started flying in the air in reverse, of the direction it went when it came loose and was damaged, and everything flew in slow motion in the air. 

It was crazy to watch. And it all simultaneously corrected itself, every place it was damaged. Until it was completely fixed. And then we were on our merry way home as if nothing happened. The end. 

The reason I dreamt of Caito Potato is because I fell asleep watching her latest vids 

Reports to the police? 

I dreamt that I was on vacation on the beach with some friends, and some of the friends went off to a concert in the distance, and then one of the girls in the group went missing. So me and the friend I was with- we were sitting on the beach looking at the waves and... I started asking people around that were just chillin on some blankets and shit I was like, “have you seen this girl?” 

And they were like, “she went that way with some men” or something like that so I followed and ended up finding her and she had been kidnapped or something- so I befriended the men, acted like I was “one of them” and there to help. 

I was like, you don’t know? Your boss sent me, he wanted me to do this and this and tell you blah blah blah i dont’ remember what i said but. I acted like I was one of the bad guys. Undercover? 

And I looked at the girl who was kidnapped and like crouched down and whispered to her while the men were walking into the other room, and I was like, “I’m gonna get you out, this is a staged thing” or something like that and she like, nodded quietly and i was like, “don’t- say, anything. Shh. Let me handle it.”

and she like looked like she maybe wasn’t goign to trust me and i as like, “you have to trust me. Trust me? This wont’ work if you don’t trust me.” Like trying to get her to agree and be on board with the plan. 

And then I told her like, “okay I’m gonna create a distraction and when I do the signal you run out of here.” 

And i gave her a walk-in talkie or something. And then while I did the distraction with the men i think we had some sort of party on the roof top and i provided them like alcohol and drugs which was hard to get in this world for some reason it was like slightly post apocalyptic. So they were enjoying themselves. 

And then i like, fiddled with the walk-in talkie in my pocket and it made a beep sound and then the girls walk-in talkie beeped and she ran out of where she was being kept. 

And then after the party I was like, “I REALLY gotta get home I’m just REALLY tired yeah i gotta goooo” like trying to end things as fast as possible 

And so I walked back to my apartment which apparently was like, up high and had lots of stairs to it, it looked like inner city New York or something 

and i was like smoking a cigarette on the balcony with one of the kidnapper dudes, knowing that the girl was inside my apartment cuz thats where i told her to go. I just needed him to go away so then i could report them to th splice and they could be arrested (once we were in safety first) 

and i was like “aight see ya later man i gotta go to bed I’m fucking TIIIIII RREEDDD HAHA YEAHHHH SO TIRED MAN. WOOWEEE CYA LATER MANNN aight YEAH aight cool aight BYEE YEAH, BYEEEE. Ok CYAAAAAAA BYEEE” 

and he finally went down the stairs and left and i came inside the apartment quietly and like set my keys down and then put my finger over my mouth looking at the girl like shhhhhh don’t say anything yet 

and i just picked up my phone and texted some police officer and told them where they would find the group and i had proof of them kidnapping someone and they’ll do it again and i was worried bout our safety blah blah blah i had the girl blah blah blah 

and then i woke up

Shopping in Covid 

last night I dreamt I went to get groceries in the near future after things reopened and no one was wearing masks anymore but I put mine on 

and we all stood in line waiting to get into the grocery store they were limiting the number of people that could go in at one time 

it was rather crowded cuz no one had been in so long 

I just was getting bare essentials and getting out as fast as possible but, I was really tempted to wander to the non essential items and get them 

and it crossed my mind I really wanted to get candy and chips and bull shit junk food to eat while watching movies I thought about how nice it would be 

pizza and coke 

and then I just kept walking out the store without a second thought about it 

Dorms and a junkie / Dance class? 

this dream is vague to remember for me but I’m trying 

so there was more than 9 buildings, I know that. Because they were numbered. And they were like apartments, but lots of students lived in them. Young people only. 

we were survivors of the apocalypse, all of us orphans now 

but regardless we were going to school to continue our very, shitty hopeless futures. Trying to anyway. Just trying to live. I think if you got into this school then you had a place to live and food to eat was essentially the deal. 

So one evening I parked my car in a dark parking lot and was walking to my building building 9, when all the sudden I became delirious and couldn’t walk straight, and couldn’t make it to my building. I was worried people would attack me in the dark? And I wandered like my feet crossing over each other in a complete state of wobbliness and confusion, I couldn’t think straight though I was trying. Breathing heavily. 

I finally made it to a building, they all looked the same, so I wasn’t sure if it was mine or not. And started banging on the doors for help. And I was like which way is building 9.... is 401 upstairs or downstairs.. is it that way??? 

and there were girls all packed into a dorm, everyone had dorm mates- lots of them. Including myself 

but yeah so I finally did manage to get myself to my dorm and like laid down and wrapped myself in this blanket 

I drank a glass of cold water and the delirium and dizziness went away, and I was playing with my hair a bit like just rubbing my fingers through I sitting on my bed wrapped up in this blanket 

when suddenly I realized there was little sacks hanging off the ends of my hair and there was sacks in the blanket too and I started freaking out 

I got up to find scissors to cut it off. It looked like spider eggs 

so I was worried if I popped or thousands of spiders would come crawling all over my head 

and once I skipped it off I then like pulled back the blanket that was left sitting on my bed, because I was looking closely at the sack that was woven into the fabric 

and it had a small vein connecting to it that was white and puffed out it looked human and Alive

and I followed that vein all the way ariund to a larger point of connecting veins and there was this massive cluster of them now all running together and then I followed out a very massive red and bulging aorta to a larger vein 

they were purple and red and disgusting and white... and it led to a giant heart that was growing and feeding off these veins. It was like size of an average chair. This giant three d bloody heart, perfect detail of the human anatomy 

it was pumping and gorging on the disgusting blood Sacks and veins 

and I backed up from where I was holding the blanket back and let go of it kind of frightened and I literally was just taken aback I video taped it for a second before I realized there was this grudge like demonic woman? Surfacing out of the dark corners of the cave like blanket 

I stepped backwards maybe a few feet just looking at it with pure shock and horror as she like crept up and out of her hiding place her bones were cracking and she was making these disgusting demonic noises, her hair was stringy and wet and she was skin and bones like pale pale grey she looked dead. then I turned around and ran out of there and ran down the hallway to the elevator and started pressing the button rapidly Because I thought this demonic thing was going to like try to do something to me I dunno 

went downstairs and then I met some friends in their dorm and I was like you’re never gonna believe what I just saw 

I pulled out the video and showed them and I was like look look at that 

and then it turns out whatever I got on film wasn’t appearing in the film and it was just nothing happening there at all 

and they were like oh... you were hallucinating. And I was like oh am I schizophrenic now?? And I started doubting everything I saw and was confused  and was scared like I didn’t know when another hallucination would come or how to stop them 

and they told me to just lay down and rest 

after that point I couldn’t like stay with them forever and I was scared to be alone. I started getting wrapped up in this paranoia that I couldn’t get to go away, irrational thoughts but. I was just lost in it and I knew I was going full blown paranoid schizophrenic but I just was like well maybe it’ll go away soon... 

so now I was homeless and I wandered to a shelter where I knew my friend would be who is homeless, he’s a heroin addict IRL. And I walked through the sleeping bags, it was just a trap house essentially of homeless youth it was sad and I was stepping over all these sleeping dirty homeless people and looking at the faces like is that him? No... him? No... excuse me is tha- no. Not him. 

I was starting to give up when I just sighed and looked over near a wall and saw him leaning against it slumpt out on heroin and he had it like still on his face from snorting it and I cane over to him and I was like “I have no where to go can I sleep here for the night.” 

and he was like yeah lemme hook you up, you can take a spot over there I’ll let them know you’re good. 

the people running it needed to know like you were “in” and approved to be there in the group

and I was like thank you so much. And I was like do you have any cigs 

and he was like yeah check the front pocket 

and I looked through his backpack and food weed and cigs 

and I took some and walked off to a spot and stood there smoking for a bit 

then it was morning and it was time to go to class so I told him I was heading out and I thanked him for the cigs and left

and smoked on my way walking to class down this long asphalt road with nothing but tall tall green grass along the sides it was wet and damp and sort of dark out despite being morning. Dusk. 

Must of been like fall or winter

and then the class was like just a make shift class of whatever students there were and wherever we had it wasn’t much supplies and decor was very limited 

and then we did some yoga at the end of the clsss after some trig and chemistry 

I was bored because I’d already learned this stuff but the other students had to catch up 

but yeah I folded up some sweaters for everyone to use as yoga Matt’s to sit on cross cross 

and we did some like deep breathing meditation and then the class was over 

and I was looking for another cigarette standing in the corridors outside the class room it was raining no and Grey out 

when some girl came up to me and was like need a light and I was like oh I’m- im, Sure. Lol I knew I already had a lighter but I figure she just wanted to talk to me so we stood there and chatted for a bit but I wasn’t that interested in her 

She started like messing with my hair like shagging it around gently and like smiling at me and I was like um I gotta go 

I really wanted to get high like that’s all I could think about in the dream was along with the weed there was also heroin in his bag and I dunno I just wanted to get fucked up but it was like an impulsive thing, or a compulsion rather

coukdnt stop obsessing over it in my head 

I came back to him and asked him if I could have a little and made up some dumb excuse as to why I didn’t have my own at the time and I would pay him back and all this shit happening unfortunately and that’s why I needed just to borrow from him right now even though it was all bull shit 

And he was like oh sure yeah no worries I got plenty of it 

I immediately did a line and then took a couple bags and stuffed it in my pocket with the weed and cigarettes and I was like thanks man I gotta go 

and I went back to the dorm and sat in my bed and got high again and then several hours later after laying there and dozed off I woke up and did it again and then it was time to go to class so I went to class high and then I got out and went to some cafeteria for dinner but I wasn’t hungry anymore 

so I just walked around with a tray and grabbed food and took it back to my dorm and then the next day repeater ifseld and so on and so forth and I lived many days in this constant state of euphoria and feeling ok but of course I had to have another bump to maintain that reality 

and then that same girl came up to me again after class and she was like “why can’t you face reality?” And I just shrugged like she noticed I had a slight drug problem and was high all the time because of my pupils and she was like cmon... what are you doing this for 

and I told her about the time I hallucinated some

Shit and then I looked in my carton to find there was just heroin no cigs left and I got frustrated 

and I was like, “it’s just concerning to me even when I looked at the video I saw it still while others didn’t.” 

and she was like, “well maybe you were just seeing what you wanted to see because you wanted to see it so bad.” 

and I just didn’t say anything and was kind of confused. I was trying to figure out Just how insane am I. And I felt pathetic for like doing such low habits and operating in such a lowly way about life. There was just a lot of like down on myself and she and a shyness about it 

Which is why I just didn’t say anything and I was like yeah... I gotta go. I was thinking of getting more cigarettEs somehow.

Blanc said: 

I found this today. 

 

Didn’t wanna show photos of myself as a child so that pedos could get off to it. 

Also crossed out sensitive information. 

 

It’s a card for what to do if your kid is missing. Those numbers at the bottom are associated with how to look me up in an FBI database

 Your second name is Mcgregor? Mary Mcgregor? Oh lol that's so cute, oh, oh, I just can't right now.

I don’t remember last nights dream that well, the memory of it is faded though, the dream itself was vivid like any other dream. I just didn’t do a good job of going over it as soon as I woke up so it didn’t cement that well.

So all I remember was, I was walking into an old place I worked as a barista and I was buying some stuff at the counter. And then my boss noticed me there, I think I was saying hey to some employee/friends of mine, they were friendly. And then my boss was like, “oh hey, you buying some stuff? Here come over here let me ring you up.”

My boss is very friendly like this and loves to give everyone discounts and free stuff all the time. And so because he knows me, he just was being nice and threw me some free breads to bring to my mom on Mother’s Day. The stuff I was buying was for the mothers in my life already but, he gave me extra for free I guess.

It’s funny because it is Mother’s Day in reality.

That’s all I remember lol.

two nights ago's dream was vague memory wise too and kind of all over the place, the most vivid part i can recall is that i had a shark and had to give it to some team of shark people so they could handle it cuz it was actin wild and i didnt know what to do with it 

last nights dream though i went to the store with some people, i dont know it looked like a combination of every walmart target and grocery store i've seen in my life. and i was just like, "i don't touch my face while i shop" i remember saying that and like also not touching anything because of the rona. and i was fearful of the people around me, like the strangers. 

and then my friend was like omg did you see the pics XYZ posted look at them theyre so embaressing and bad she's gotten ROUGH. (makng fun of my ex gf to make me feel better about us breaking up i guess?) and i looked at the pics on my phone and i was like lol what happened to her and she was doing ratchet shit and looked ratchet 

and that's all i can remember, i think there was more but it's gone lol