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"Some children insist, from the moment they can speak, that they are not the gender indicated by their biological sex. So where does this knowledge reside?"

I am assuming you are assuming this knowledge... cough... resides in the DNA or something... I would suggest environment plays a major part... perhaps even in the womb, but... I would also read my story on the cave fag... I lean towards a strong push for environmental factors... no matter how slight...

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Did you catch my cold, hun?

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Virus stated: source post

"Some children insist, from the moment they can speak, that they are not the gender indicated by their biological sex. So where does this knowledge reside?"

i didn't say that. i posted the source at the bottom of my post.

I am assuming you are assuming this knowledge... cough... resides in the DNA or something... I would suggest environment plays a major part... perhaps even in the womb, but... I would also read my story on the cave fag... I lean towards a strong push for environmental factors... no matter how slight...

And i did read your little cavefag story, it was cute.

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Primal stated: source post

You two are cute. Frunk, your experience would be more interesting if you feel comfortable to discuss it. 

 Yes, we are the cutest couple here. What do i have to lose? Nothing.

  Starting in second grade, I knew i hated being a boy. I hated most masculine things. I strongly disliked sports, rough housing, and so on. I played with action figures and Barbies. I don't remember how he found this out, but another boy called me a dyke. I wanted to wear dresses and wear makeup and paint my nails and basically just wanted to be a girl. And i hated my dick. But, i had bigger problems, such as wanting to fucking kill myself (mind you, i was eight). So i shoved my gender problems aside.

   I thought about it still though, just not as much. I ended up stealing my aunt's nail polish. My mom caught me while i was putting it on, but she didn't seem to care and said, ''You're doing a good job.'' 

  Fast forward to 2005 when emo started becoming mainstream. Bands such as My Chemical Romance, Panic! at the Disco, Fall Out Boy, The Used, Taking Back Thursday, and so on were bands i looked up to. They wore makeup and i was inspired to wear makeup. I wore guyliner and i wore eyeshadow you know that emo shit. 

My gender problem had kind of dissapeared at this point

Going on, even when i got out of my emo phase, i still wore eyeliner. Hell, i was really good at it. Obviously, there was still bullying even out of my emo phase (there was bullying before it anyways, sooo). I still painted my nails. Even painted them pink other than black a few times. No matter what, i felt like a girl. But i still had much bigger problems (suicidal, depression, ptsd, and all that jazz). So my gender problems were once again pushed aside. 

I've always had more feminine qualities about me. I had pink shirts, made flower crowns, learned how to a bunch of girly hairstyles, and I even made my voice slightly higher.  

Fast forward to age 16. 

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At age 16, the problem came up again while i was in a psych ward. I talked to Gerard about what he thought on boys wearing skirts and dresses.. He said he did't care. He kind of sensed that i wanted to wear the, So he asked and i said yeah. Luckily, gee didn't care. Although there were no skirts to wear.

Fast forward to June. For a few months, i was having those problems again. I'm a girl--> I'm a boy. ---> I'm a girl. 

I finally told Gerard and he didn't care about my gender identity. There were days when i requested to be called she/her. There were days when i requested to be called he/him. In late July, i was back to constantly feeling like a dude. I'm not that masculine, yet not too feminine. I don't wear womans clothing.

 

I think that since i pushed away my identity problem out of fear and because i had bigger problems, they're repressed. Or maybe it was just a phase i didn't explore all at once and came back to finish its business. I'm not sure. 

 

 

There you go, Primal. 

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idk but ppl here like a gender

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Please use english, you fucking furry.

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i still had much bigger problems (suicidal, depression, ptsd, and all that jazz). So my gender problems were once again pushed aside. 

How did the aspects in brackets come about? Were you sexually abused a a child?

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Suicidal: Hated myself and saw myself as worthless.

Depression: Bullying, genetics, ptsd problems.

PTSD: watched my aunt and uncle get shot.

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Brutal. That would do most kids in to watch family being murdered. HOw old were you at the time? 

Was that before or after : I knew i hated being a boy. 

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