what are your hobbies turncoat
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How often and to what degree do you go full blown psychotic? What triggers the episodes?
You are Aware...not in denial....the rest....is being aware of the other wonderfully simple previous statement ...and applying it.
It more often than not comes about on it's own. I can usually tell when I wake up that day if it's going to be "one of those days" or not. If I'm not careful, it can be caused by even the smallest bullshit, like accidentally stepping on a crack in the sidewalk. Otherwise it usually takes something pretty jarring to cause it to happen independently of wake up symptoms.
As for how "full blown" it is... I don't even know where to start.as someone who had this issue myself in the past and felt there was no way to predict when it might happen, therapy helped. there are reasons, even if you don't fully understand them. of course i mean reasons deeper than stepping in the crack on the sidewalk. no gag here ;)
...please tell me you aren't suggesting that it's one of those "suppressed past trauma" situations that TV loves to make psychological maladies out to be.
There are reasons, and mine are genetically tied.
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what are your hobbies turncoat
Reading, video games, martial arts, small distance travel, psychology, people reading, theater, parkour, internet forums, lolcows and other laughable sorts, television, internet videos, dungeons and dragons, random analysis tangents, random online articles, making/looking at art, sex, B movies, food, cats, dogs, card games, conversation, watching plot porn for the acting, bdsm, humans vs zombies nerf wars (years ago), lounging about, introspection, board games that don't involve trivia, non-B movies, breathing, comics, catching up with old friends, listening to music...
I do less of them these days from having less motivation overall, and I tend to blend my interests into what other people want to do as a tag along. I also want to eventually take up cooking.
For non-interactive stuff, there's usually an initial discovery burst from the novelty, but not too long after it tends to become stale and predictable, more about having something to do. After so much time away from them old things can feel new, so eventually revisiting old things can become briefly fun again. I otherwise do some of them somewhat robotically as routines that keep me sharper.
As for interactive stuff, it tends to feel fresh more consistently from the people variable adding more to focus on than without it. Even something like watching TV becomes a different experience with other people around. Somehow the social aspect can distract from the mundane, making even mulling about boredly with nothing to do more fun than doing it alone.
It'd be nice if I could know how long that it takes to renew the old. Novelty and the room for obsession is what makes something fun for me, but as I get older more things feel pre-expected.
Turncoat stated: source post
...please tell me you aren't suggesting that it's one of those "suppressed past trauma" situations that TV loves to make psychological maladies out to be.
There are reasons, and mine are genetically tied.
you don't even bother to ask before jumping to conclusions in an effort to shoot me down. no i don't think it's necessarily suppressed past trauma, that's what therapy is for. to figure out what it is, how you think, if there are ideas you have about yourself or others that are harmful to you. it's so obvious you would benefit from trying to take it seriously. you should also look at how opposed you are to the idea as a clue..your subconscious doesn't like the idea of having to dig deeper and actually try rather than immediately give up and it be your own choice to have done so.