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Safety nets are not always good. The risk of not having one and facing really dangerous situations is the edge some need to surpass mental/life blocks.

Turncoat stated: source post

I tried picking up some Thai while I was traveling from a friend I made there, but little to none of it stuck either.

Lmao you can't learn a language like that, and especially not in a trip. Sorry Turncoat, but if you really want to learn a language, you will learn a language. Lock yourself somewhere with no distractions, books, movies and dictionaries, and even that can get you there, without courses. If I told you I'd shoot your family in 2 months if you don't reach a certain level in that language you'd do it. You are not dislexic or anything.

Again, plenty of places have become victim to English influence and Westernization, so thankfully that gives me more options even if it's my being thankful for something that is destroying culture in the process. 

The idea of English being your advantage wouldn't be valid anymore though, and that is why I suggested learning a language. If you go somewhere where English is not that mainstream, you have a natural strong advantage against the "competition"  that seems to be too much for you here..

I'm not a good person, I don't care about other people beyond a closely knit few that infiltrated my mind at some point, so why would I feel geared towards causes? I don't even understand patriotism, comradery, support for your fellow man, or whatever other words could be used to mean the same thing, as I'm not absorbed by that stuff the way others are in ways I don't relate to or understand. In essence, to me, it's all about me, so unless I'm fighting for me I won't care. 

Causes are typically an opiate for the like-minded more than anything else. 

I don't like people, but I do like person. 

In time, none of it will matter. It's a defeatist perspective, but it takes the wind out of the sails if "making a difference" is the distraction of the time. I'll keep trying to thrive, but donating my time to a cause is more likely to contribute to the stagnation.

I didn't mean some distant abstract cause like ending world hunger or perfect equality or stuff like that. It is hard for most people to care about those. I meant, getting personally involved and working close with the people/children you help. Education of healthy disadvantaged kids is good, I wouldn't recommend for you anything that has to do with physically ill people since that can be depressive. Even if you don't like it at first, in time this can change a lot, seen it happen. You can't know until you are doing it. If not education maybe it can be something else. Working with male victims of rape maybe, since you have a minor in psychology and can also relate. Or getting into BDSM -related mental problems within those communities? XD Again, in the USA I understand how it isn't easy to find a gap, but in other countries there certainly is a place for you.

Edvard stated: source post

Safety nets are not always good.

Neither are public schizophrenic breakdowns. 
 

The risk of not having one and facing really dangerous situations is the edge some need to surpass mental/life blocks.

For me, it's the edge I'd need to lose myself. I need structure of some kind or I completely fall apart in ways that have me picking up the pieces once lucidity eventually returns. Some parts of me are fragile and chaotic, and if they aren't contained then I can become a slew of psychobabble and insanity the likes that I have never allowed myself to express here beyond aloud hindsight recollections. A safety net isn't stopping me from dipping a toe in the water, it's stopping me from self-destructing. Taking risks is a requirement, but complete abandon into said risks risks even the gains of said risks. 

Self-preservation is necessary if I am going to make it anywhere in life that isn't a padded cell. It's not a willingness to be weak, it's knowing my own limitations from a history of thinking I could just "get better" if I pushed myself. Spoiler alert: I can't. You worry about things like your temper, I worry about things like screaming in the middle of a crowd in public before bolting into oncoming traffic. 

It's apples and orangutans when it comes to comparing us.  
 

Turncoat stated: source post

I tried picking up some Thai while I was traveling from a friend I made there, but little to none of it stuck either.

Lmao you can't learn a language like that, and especially not in a trip. Sorry Turncoat, but if you really want to learn a language, you will learn a language. Lock yourself somewhere with no distractions, books, movies and dictionaries, and even that can get you there, without courses.

I've only given you two examples of the effort. I've wanted to learn another language multiple times (as well as invent my own), but at most it sticks around in a referential sense. Even immersion just tends to make me go silent and deal with the repercussions of it, as I have comprehension issues when it comes to the spoken word and a short memory of things said if they aren't written down. Even with English, I'm only where I am because of how difficult language and communication in general has been for me, being only where I am now from that being my birth tongue with YEARS of immersion and forum use. If I'm to learn a language, it'd take far longer than it should. 

For an accurate comparison sans the prior effort, it'd be like you trying to learn Astrophysics or Biochemistry. You'd learn some tidbits that might stick around, but my money'd be on it tefloning off. 
 

If I told you I'd shoot your family in 2 months if you don't reach a certain level in that language you'd do it. You are not dislexic or anything.

...actually, I'd be more likely to warn them and prep for the failure. It's better to prepare for the glass half-empty than to assume the glass will be half full when the time comes. 
 

Again, plenty of places have become victim to English influence and Westernization, so thankfully that gives me more options even if it's my being thankful for something that is destroying culture in the process. 

The idea of English being your advantage wouldn't be valid anymore though, and that is why I suggested learning a language. If you go somewhere where English is not that mainstream, you have a natural strong advantage against the "competition"  that seems to be too much for you here..

Not many people leave the US even for just a small vacation. There is a demand for it even in places with a fairly strong English linguistic presence, as it's seen as a requirement to be a part of "the rest of the world" these days. Both developed and underdeveloped places need it, but naturally a country like Myanmar might need it more. 
 

 I didn't mean some distant abstract cause like ending world hunger or perfect equality or stuff like that. It is hard for most people to care about those. I meant, getting personally involved and working close with the people/children you help.

But I don't care about people/children, I care about person/child. I'd rather see someone who matters to me thriving than a group of nobodies. 
 

Education of healthy disadvantaged kids is good, I wouldn't recommend for you anything that has to do with physically ill people since that can be depressive. Even if you don't like it at first, in time this can change a lot, seen it happen. You can't know until you are doing it.

There's plenty of room for hunches. It's like guessing that you won't like Strawberry Jam from having hated the taste of Strawberries in the past: While it's not directly related, it's related enough to give a strong impression. 
 

Working with male victims of rape maybe, since you have a minor in psychology and can also relate.

...you mean what few are actually willing to come out and talk about it? I'd be in a room of people I could count on one hand. 
 

Or getting into BDSM -related mental problems within those communities?

I have thought about it, but that'd require me getting a stronger degree (at least a full Bachelors). While I'm not against that, it's not in the cards right now. 

Systematic stated: source post

"...that wasn't the question nor the exercise..."

that graph is pretty simple and easy to get at one glance. It's too basic to have many interpretations, im a bit confused as to what you're asking. 

Just copy and paste it, and type in fail and space over a few dots then start ( augment) and do it again, Don't use the delete button. It is irrelevant re # of interpretations.....sometimes if not most times....the simple answer is the hardest to understand.

"Use your own words...not Sam's...lol...although he is really good.  The first quoted paragraph contains one sentence of relevance."

When I'm trying to express how this is experience is for me, I'll judge its relevance. I chose those 2 quotes out of that entire linked page for a reason

wry grin ...in your own words....not another's....I have read those links before and found them very interesting and also that it was Sam that wrote it, given his  character....were those his words and perspective or taken from another isn't known....so...

Primal's closer to saying "Put up or shut up" instead of "Hope makes the world go 'round". 
 

Good observation. The lazy answer:  " It is what is is." acceptance and tolerance etc etc etc....however, it is both at the same time. 

"it is what it is, until you choose to make it not." 

But...lol....you don't like my simplistic mind set...ok. 

How often and to what degree do you go full blown psychotic? What triggers the episodes?

You are Aware...not in denial....the rest....is being aware of the other wonderfully simple previous statement ...and applying it. 
 

Primal stated: source post

How often and to what degree do you go full blown psychotic? What triggers the episodes?

You are Aware...not in denial....the rest....is being aware of the other wonderfully simple previous statement ...and applying it. 

It more often than not comes about on it's own. I can usually tell when I wake up that day if it's going to be "one of those days" or not. If I'm not careful, it can be caused by even the smallest bullshit, like accidentally stepping on a crack in the sidewalk. Otherwise it usually takes something pretty jarring to cause it to happen independently of wake up symptoms. 

As for how "full blown" it is... I don't even know where to start. 

. If I'm not careful, it can be caused by even the smallest bullshit, like accidentally stepping on a crack in the sidewalk.

Uh huh.....seems like....Cause = Known, Effect = Known....and the cause is pretty damn lame.....and within your capacity to recognize it and render it irrelevant..

Belonging and wanting to be accepted.

Most people have this universal need to belong to some group. You can see it everywhere. Its how cults are made. Cults are genius manipulation of the mind. A cult, can make the most intelligent person, an absolutely irrational savage, who does and believes the weirdest shit. Its all emotional manipulation and entrapment.
This is also what the feeling to belong does to people. Of course, if its not a cult, its usually mellow, much mellower, because there is no active enforcement of manipulation by a sentient party. This is what peer pressure is.

Wanting to be accepted for who you are, is just the need to be validated, that you are a good person. This is the main tool that belonging does. It makes you feel accepted.

I have never felt any of those needs. I might enjoy certain groups of people, or think that i have a duty for them, or rationalize a reason to help a group. But i will never feel emotionally invested in it. I cannot do it, i have tried, out of principle to try. I would enjoy the people, help them and stuff, but i will still remain on the edge, as if i am not part of it, but an ally. And i like it like this.
I actually feel lied to when i am accepted. I think they are trying to emotionally manipulate me. Why would they care to accept me? This is what i used to ask myself, now that i know i am not like other people, i can see. They just feel bad for me, or think they should offer me acceptance as courtesy or they like me and think this is a reward. But i do not want it. I am actually drawn to groups that outright do not want me. I want to challenge those people, i want to fuck with them. They are interesting and/or fun to fuck with. I want to prove to myself that i in fact am not wrong.
I only seek understanding from people. I do not need or want acceptance and i do not like to give it. I will only pretend give it anyway. But i will give understanding. Acceptance is irrational and emotional, it has no basis on reality, its how you feel. Understanding is the opposite.

This is why i can freely indulge in the Socratic method and dive into any weird culture, group or cult. I can give them understanding and they take it as false acceptance. I adapt to their needs, as long as mine are not infringed upon. And then i observe and study the patterns of people. I learn this, from a distance.

I believe this is all thanks to my emotional distance. My emotions are on another plane of existence. I need heavy spikes for them to pierce my plane of existence and for me to feel them. This is also why i exaggerate a lot of things. To stimulate myself. Of course this is just a principle, it has almost no real effect. But the principle is to do all the little things too. And i follow the principle, no exceptions. To make things heavy:

Primal stated: source post

. If I'm not careful, it can be caused by even the smallest bullshit, like accidentally stepping on a crack in the sidewalk.

Uh huh.....seems like....Cause = Known, Effect = Known....and the cause is pretty damn lame.....and within your capacity to recognize it and render it irrelevant..

This is seriously like having someone take a bunch of shrooms before telling them to just will away the symptoms of it through recognition. I can see it and not act on it now, but on bad days it's a different me. 

Seriously man, where's the science? 

Turncoat stated: source post

 

Primal stated: source post

. If I'm not careful, it can be caused by even the smallest bullshit, like accidentally stepping on a crack in the sidewalk.

Uh huh.....seems like....Cause = Known, Effect = Known....and the cause is pretty damn lame.....and within your capacity to recognize it and render it irrelevant..

This is seriously like having someone take a bunch of shrooms before telling them to just will away the symptoms of it through recognition. I can see it and not act on it now, but on bad days it's a different me. 

Seriously man, where's the science? 

Seriously? Why all the excuses?