'BPD create their own suffering and then spread their shit around. So, fuck it /them and the crazy train they ride in on. The online breeds of BPD attention whores with the covertnarc mix of the ultra fucked up, is another thing that needs to die...lol...but whatever, it is kind of funny as well.'
what are your experiences with BPD's that lead you to this conclusion? you can't possibly only feel this way on account of research lol
Not sure where this became a conversation about borderline as opposed to bipolar, but they are very different things.
I was diagnosed with bipolar as a teenager and I've since learned that it's a very misunderstood condition. Bipolar I refers to episodes of mania and depression, and rarely in a rapid cycling fashion.
Mania is not simply "feeling good", it's extremely disruptive. When I've been manic, I've stripped in public, accused people of poisoning me, flew to Florida (from fucking Australia) thinking I'd be recruited as an astronaut, bought cars, spent thousands of dollars of nonsense and spent days bouncing around bars and nightclubs without sleep.
As a working professional, I live in fear that I'll become manic on the job and do something to destroy my reputation and career. The strain this puts on personal relationships is incalculable.
As for depression, that is a far worse kettle of fish. I've seen patients become catatonically depressed after sky-scraping mania. One man I remember didn't leave his bed for months, smelt like a corpse and could barely speak/eat.
Depression isn't always "feelings of hopelessness", it can be extreme and debilitating.
My experience with depression following mania has seen me stay indoors for weeks on end, make attempts on my life and lose extraordinarily dangerous amounts of weight.
The only advice I have is this; bipolar I is an extremely difficult illness with which to live, and may never be well-controlled. If the good outweighs the bad, I wish you luck. Love isn't easy, so it's gotta be worth it :)
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"scratching post"
lol yeah. Literally.
Not sure about those soul rewards, tho.
Do you buy into all that religious mumbo jumbo about offering up your pain and misery for the gods and such?
It has nothing to do with offering them pain and misery, where did you get that from ?
As I might have mentioned, in our next state of being we're to become all knowing. This level of consciousness includes everything, including what others are experiencing. Everything including having ultimate empathy. Had we this ability now, we'd be sweet as pie to one another. for we would share what we feel to the point of experiencing it.
To experience that won't always be a walk in the park, but to say we'll sympathize with our subjects would be an understatement. The physical has all kinds of harshness, physical pain being one of those things that mold us. What we accomplish here will stick with us, and in that reality that's more real than this one, we'd wish we mastered our emotions in this state.
It's not offering the creator pain and misery by no means, but a matter of personal coping skills that supply better conditions for us in our true form.
All those times I broke your heart. I'm going to have to confront how I made you feel.
Solid point. Last night was a pretty tough one. I was assuring her I was there for her, and I loved her. She went from depressed to anxiety, saying how much she hates me.
I know she doesnt, I'm here for her if she needs me. But I dunno, I think she may actually just pack a backpack today while I'm at work, and go live in the streets.
I'm doing what I can, it's a challenge. But I really like this one, and for me it's just a labor of love. I ultimately don't mind her switching back and forth, her good moments are worth it.
If she matters, just be there for her and recognize how much it's going to test your emotional stamina to keep it going. It's not by choice on her part either, and justification after the fact for emotions is what everyone does, it's just more extreme from her from the emotions themselves being more extreme. It's like knowing more than one person co-habitating the same body, able to re-write the impression attached to memories to sell a completely different narrative. It can be easy to be gaslit by this as they'll appear to know what they're talking about, as far as they know they aren't lying, so in that sense, try to hold onto your own perspective and see if it persists the next time she swings. She likely doesn't agree with her former self, so in that case you're the closest thing to consistency that you'll find.
It's up to you if it's worth the pain, as there must be other things about this relationship that are keeping you on board.