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"Actually I wasn't trying to convince anyone of anything. I just thought it weird that you were horny at some kid on TV that was about your sons age and felt the need to post about it. Your word choice for that post was hilarious."

Um... usually people who are not trying to  prove w/e don't respond to the person's character assessment with irrelevant remarks that have been cherrypicked from 2 year old posts and twisted completely out of context.

So here's the original post to which you were referring. Note the date. 27 months ago. On a different forum. In a journal entry about food. A topic totally unrelated to Alan's character or anything that has anything to do with how the guy argues.

http://www.psychforums.com/online-journals/topic135250-10.html

Note the language and the redfaced emoti. (That means embarrassment if you're too stupid to figure it out alena.) The post also said "didn't LOOK much older" See the difference? Does not appear =/= is not.

Here is the band. I remembered this post bc I went so far as to google the kid the day I felt my disturbing progesterone surge.

Note the date on the thread. My own post is directly above the boy band in question.

http://www.psychforums.com/post1393486.html?hilit=youtube#p1393486

Here's the vid for any of you who are too lazy to click.

And here he is. Andrew VanWyngarden.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Andrew_VanWyngarden

Oh look. He's 33. He was 25 when that particular song was released.

:P

"I just thought it weird that you were horny at some kid on TV that was about your sons age and felt the need to post about it."

So now that we've established that the kid was actually 25 at the time of the vid (age 33 in 2016) my need to post about it was very relevant. More relevant than anything you've said here.

If you'd actually read my journal, instead of cherrypicking through it to try to find shit to twist around and question me about when you're bored, you'd see that it was a food journal. I used it to keep track of my mental states while I was experimenting with some extreme weight loss manoeuvres. The point was to lose weight not put myself in the hospital.

Progesterone surges wee relevant at the time.

If you find that weird, don't dig around on google to try to find my old posts.

Duh.

Reminds me of Twilight Moms.

Turncoat stated: source post

Reminds me of Twilight Moms.

Lol

Having vices = being a self-destructive person? Mine are not currently interfering with my life, or ability to live it.

"You've not poked for reactions, anyone can behave as if they're calm online. I'm of the opinion that you never truly know a person. And let's face it, you're not exactly a good judge of character."

lol. Better than you are.

Didn't you just say you gave a bunch of money to an alcoholic for 'food'?

And I don't poke people for reactions when they show good manners. That's the best way to turn somebody who's not an asshole into an asshole.

Xena stated: source post

lol

You mean he was not  a manipulator and denied it when you and only you  accused him of it.

 

Hint: Saying "no I'm not" =/= having a tantrum, triggering or having a meltdown.

Anal Rage stated: source post

Actually, he was an emotional manipulator and tantrumed when you called him out on it. 

Um... no. This is what somebody does when an argument starts here  ^ and gets dragged into smthg that's ridiculously off topic (untrue accusations of pedophilia.)

I said Alan was a nice guy and backed up my opinion.

You responded with a bizarre, untrue and irrelevant ad hominem.

You're crap at arguing, therefore you're crap at convincing anybody of anything that's worth arguing about.

So now that I've countered every ridiculous round of cherrypicking on alena's part...

precisely what does any of that have to do with my opinion that Alan is extremely likeable, well mannered and that he argues calmly (if he argues at all)?

God, you are such a pedo.

"How'd the substance abuse start? What was the initial motivation, escapism, boredom, numbing?"

I began abusing alcohol out of boredom. I reached a point in my life where everything began feeling banal, and my ability to be interested in things began to fade. I do not think it would be wrong to say such behavior is escapist, as it helped me avoid constant ennui. It also helped me deal with my insomnia...it seems preferable to the prescription med I was given (Trazodone) for a multitude of reasons. Alcoholism is rampant on both sides of my family. That does not excuse my drinking, but I think it certainly lends me to a propensity toward it.

I am able to stop drinking. I did so for half of last year and felt no craving. Boredom and enjoyment of intoxication led me back into it. I'm considering stopping again sometime soon. I am working out ideas on different thinks I'd like to do, and being drunk would be a hindrance to all of them.

The tranquilizer abuse was definitely an attempt to numb. I started taking them habitually when I found myself in an environment where despite many efforts to ameliorate the situation, location defeated my attempts to improve things. Stress was almost constant, sometimes nearly unbearable. There was the frustration of being unable to do anything, combined with other things I won't get into. The tranquilizers allowed me to relax.

I've found myself pretty stressed out not long ago, and began to take them again. I'm already ramping down my dosage because of how physically dependent they can be.

"I don't recall seeing you sober when you were visiting, and you seemed like an anxious sort energy-wise."

The first half of my visit you seen me intoxicated constantly, and the second half you seen me withdrawing. At no point did you see how I am at baseline. I apologize for that—it was unfair to others. I was off-kilter from a pretty fucked year before that.

"I figured that the turbulent behaviors were a result of the substance abuse. It seemed to coorelate more with how out of it you were physically and with how much slurring was present."

Yes.