"Despite this, you still would prefer it to be the case."
I didn't get to choose what I was diagnosed with. That's not how it works.
"It's safe to venture that you have a preoccupation with not being seen as a victim"
lol, Right... because admitting I was abused as a child is so helpful in that way, isn't it...
If I was that worried about being seen as a victim I could have easily lied and claimed I was never abused as a child and nobody would've known the difference, but I didn't do that. I was honest instead.
"So much of you is about needing to be seen as strong"
I've admitted to my weaknesses in the past. After all, we all have them. Even psychopaths have them. They're no exception.
The strongest people are the ones who have no personality disorders. A healthy mind is a strong mind.
Now, about your PTSD from that rape you experienced, what's it like for you?