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Yeah, in the middle and right below where the pic cuts off. You're in a very submissive position :) imagine that.

is that..supposed to be you and ed?

by Edvard

Btw, you know my post is just a stupid fucking role play and a play off Tryp and Aurora going back and forth. Calm down buddy the music hasn't even started so we can't start dancing yet.

Yeah I know you're a faker playing pretense all the time. It's what got you dumped, remember?

Is that what it was? I was so broken up over the whole thing I forgot what the reason was. I'll try to keep it a little more real for you my friend.

 

And I didn't need to know you were thinking of me while looking for gay porn on the internet, pal.

 I wasn't thinking of you during, but after when my cum stained hand slid over to Sc and saw your heartfelt reply I couldn't help but get a semi back. I look at gay porn in front of a mirror. Now tell me to go fuck myself. 

by GhostOfTKsWetPanties

That's ok bae.

I'll just cut off your dudely bits and use them to fuck myself when you're not looking.

Who needs permission to do anything when you have a big knoife?  ;)

 Don't call me bae, I wouldn't want to be caught slippin' again. That's the first time my not so mini-me has been called "dudely bits" so thank you for that. xD

Are words and body language expressed different? Oh my words are definitely different. They are my most blissful form of sadistic abuse. I like to be just as poetic and seductive as ever, but that would only be while I'm still calm. Once I'm too excited, you will be sorry you gave me that rope to hang you with. As for body language... I'll have to think I'm that some more before I answer. 

That never gets old.

Btw, you know my post is just a stupid fucking role play and a play off Tryp and Aurora going back and forth. Calm down buddy the music hasn't even started so we can't start dancing yet.

Yeah I know you're a faker playing pretense all the time. It's what got you dumped, remember?

And I didn't need to know you were thinking of me while looking for gay porn on the internet, pal.

That's ok bae.

I'll just cut off your dudely bits and use them to fuck myself when you're not looking.

Who needs permission to do anything when you have a big knoife?  ;)

"What would happen if you didn't bother to tear at their esteem? If you were surrounded by people who both expect and possess the capability of handling it without changing from it?"

In my experience, there are no such people. Only ones who think they are capable of handling it until I really get in their heads. 

"How would you respond to someone who loves and adores said monster? It sounds like a lot of your motivations are rooting from how you believe others would respond. In my case, I instead sought company that was fine with it since there's a lot of people out there."

I don't root it from how I believe others will respond. I've experienced the response a hundred times.

"Elements are fragile too, they have things that can make them both stronger and weaker if not protected."

You've planted a seed with this one...

"From what I've gathered, sadists are stuck with the same issue in their own way, feeling like whoever they're being when not hurting someone is them playing a part, role playing a "normal person" for their partner's sake out of some form of self-negativity."

When people say things like the quoted above- it usually starts a conflict inside my mind. One side of me is like, "Oh yeah? I should be allowed to just unleash the beast and be that? God! What a relief to get to be included with a society that have a right to be accepted for who they are! I'll just let go, and indulge those sadistic traits I'm trying to rid myself of." 

Then I think about how I've come far enough to recognize when I'm pulling shit I know comes so natural to a psychopath (Yeah, I said it- not that I am one), like the natural tendency to begin deconstructing my friends and lovers subtly and consistently, as I condition them to fall under my control. The almost reflex brain washing I begin to do for the purpose of having them depend on me for their supply of self esteem, while subtly tearing at that esteem because secretly I loath that dependency and the insecurities that would drive someone to give me that kind of power over their mind. So I get pleasure from slowly unraveling this harmless creature. What have they done to me that they would deserve such an abusive form of control? My brain justifies it as them being inferior and weak, so they must be destroyed.

So the other side of me is like, "You are your father's daughter when you behave that way." I think of that little girl I was when he once had my developing mind under his spell, and remind myself that I wasn't doing anything wrong- being helpless and fragile. I loath my father with every fiber of my being. Why would it be OK to emulate that which I inherited from him? I work hard...  but, not to repress my sadistic need to cause the suffering of others and relish it... I work to deconstruct who I was, and reconstruct something that feels less like a monster to me, so that I can get close to people in a way that I feel is right for everyone; not just them.

Are you then saying to me that if I could unleash the sadist in me strictly in the bedroom with my lover so that I can have that release, the rest of my sadism will then be softened and I won't feel the need to act on it? I say that my sadism is comparable to an element. It doesn't stop when given what is required for it to come into action, for the sake of the human beings it comes into contact with. I don't wish to be an element. I am happy being a mortal human- vulnerable and fragile underneath all this armor.   

Trust, ultimatums, and enough reminders to have them know that breaking their toys means they can't play with them later (and hospital bills). I can typically bank on my value of how much I can decadently take compared to others to give them a reason to play nice. Otherwise I am prone to getting into someone's head, and I'm usually what mentors them in BDSM in the first place.

So far I haven't had to stop anyone, and the one who'd originally set the bar on some days I suspect wouldn't have stopped when in her manic phases, at least not immediately. If it's a lack of self control though, it'd be a matter of discussing it once snapped out of it to help more self control form... and hoping for survival. I wouldn't outright stop it from happening ever again after the fact, I'd say gaining a handle on it'd be the way to grow with that time as an example.

I don't believe in a person with no "off" switch, but I do believe in people who don't know what their off switches are.