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Good luck Mika. I hope you did the right choice, and I hope I didn't influence your decision.

That's an interesting angle on it. That makes sense, and explain the, what I find, contradictive and somewhat confusing mix of feelings whith guilt as a the core. 

That is a really good comparison, binge eating but relationship wise. Thank you this will help me a lot.

I bet

Don't smoke though. Can't even remember if I've ever tried it...might have when I was drunk. 

lol.

Breastfeeding issues are easy to deal with if you let baby sleep in the bed with you. You'd know that if you weren't a male troll.

I guess that comes down to definition of free...

Emotionally I have quite the journey before being truely free. 

Well regarding dynamics within the relationship, I don't know what you believe. Your reply how ever works in general to describe the situation I guess. Shedding light and all that. 

You're right. I had a chance to patch things up I guess. But it wasn’t right to do that again. It's been years. Not enough has changed. I keep going into the same circle. I've been stuck repeating old mistakes, over and over.

What keeps me doing it is emotions. It's time I stop relying on them for decisions.  

He has been nothing but good with his daughter. The issue is how he treats me. However, I did stuck around for selfish reason. Raising a child that sleep less than the norm, and breastfeed a lot, and has issues with her tummy is quite demanding, and I needed help to survive. Now that she sleeps 3+2 hours, I could leave him. But I couldn't with less than 3 hours a day. For me, that's been a struggle. Being alone has also been a struggle. Loving him has been exhausting. 

Who are you to judge if I find that a struggle or not? There will always be someone with a much worse faith, doesn't make it less of a struggle for me though. But I am starting to see why you think I am fake. 

by Mika

As I said, I managed to stay away for weeks at times. But I went back to him. Every time. It's been a struggle. I am not trying to hide that fact Ed. 

There are real struggles in this world Mika. You just selfishly stuck around to satisfy your emotional co-dependency without giving a shit about your rape baby.

by Xena

lol k.

So cupcake, tell me what it feels like when you're on your period  xD

She already talked about that, it feels like a mild miscarriage XD

by Daddy

I find it quite entertaining that you go through such trouble to archive the conversations that take place on this forum.

Did you really copy paste all of that into a notepad?

Hm, how the hell did you make it in the military if touching the keyboard 3 times for copy pasting is much trouble. Do you even get out of bed in the morning?

by Deep

At least we know Luna will never have to keep a record of anything because Edvard will have it all on his hardrive. 

Was that a jab? Why didn't you post that under your real name? You are all hugs and kisses to me in private.

Uh... sounds like she wants to be robbed.