Alright thanks.
I believe that the words "self-diagnosis" (in reference to psychiatry) and "self-discovery" are not compatible.
Should you be truly interested in discovering who "you" really are, which is and has always been quite fashionable (so I suppose that really makes it something more akin to something we'd call human nature than to something we'd call a fashion), then I wouldn't suggest that you delve too deeply into psychiatry. Take a glance, sure. Why not? But travel, meditation, reading about a broad range of topics, and seeking out those experiences you'd normally consider to be "exotic" - even if they exist within the confines of your home town - are more likely to lead you to self-discovery than browsing websites about psychiatry that are often compiled by failed psych students. There are plenty of ways to explore your identity, and psychiatry is very limited in its scope.
I apologise if someone has already offered this, or similar, advice: I'm in a rush and don't really have time to read the whole thread.
In all honesty my only purpose for this thread was to find out if I was a sociopath or not. I'm not sure what I expected as far as answers go. But I did get a little insight. Some people said I was. Some people said I wasn't. Some people said why does it matter. So basically i've gained no new information. After all though, this website is called "Sociopath Community". Not "Are You A Sociopath Commuinty?". I guess that was my fault for not understanding that. From here on out though it doesn't matter. The only thing I can do is continue toward the future I want and will get. All finding out if I was a sociopath or not would do is speed up that process. But for now, i'll conclude that i'm not. It'll make it easier to sleep at night. Especially if that's the truth...
Alright. I'm not satisfied with the way this thread ended. I want a new ending. Only because I have a new question. I feel like the title to this thread was misleading and so was the description. But it was useful. And after giving a little bit of history about myself and mixing that with what I asked, there were some interesting views to say the least. Anyway I was thinking to myself (I think someone in the thread actually asked this but) even if I am a sociopath (most likely a narcissistic one), why does it matter? Why do I feel the need to identify as that? So I thought maybe it was the ideal that society loves placing labels on things. Especially things that don't need labels (my opinion anyway). But in all honesty I could care less about what society thinks about me. So that doesn't exactly answer my question (there could be more too it but that settles the matters with society for now). Another answer that I thought was the right one, would be that it helps me understand who I am. But I could care less about who I am right now. I'm only twenty years old anyway. I don't believe in being lost or found. But I do believe in creating yourself. Creating the life you want to live and the person you want to be. Wether thats right or wrong I don't care either. It's just what I believe. So that still doesn't solve anything. But I did come to a new and better conclusion. I sometimes like identifying myself as a Narcissistic Sociopath for a couple of reasons. One would be is that I just feel almost empowered by saying that. I look at it less of as a label, but more of a title I can be proud of if that makes any sense. But it's not like I walk around with a badge that says Narcissistic Sociopath or go around telling people that thats what I think. Another reason is that I see it as sort of an advantage. Especially in things like business. It could have its negatives but I definitely could care less about those. Finally, the last reason would be that I believe things like Narcissism, Sociopathism and Psychopathism (I don't know if ism is right but whatever), can be used to measure a man or woman's level of morality from 0 meaning good and ten being evil. What I am on that scale isn't important lol. What is important is that it doesn't have to much effect on the spectrum of sanity and insanity. So by identifying as a Narcissistic Sociopath not only boost my ego but helps me monitor my own behavior (things like anger, sadness, stress, anxiety, fear, doubt and anything else that I consider weak) and control my more delusional and paranoid side of my mind. With all that being said, the new question I have; which is a little contradicting, since I say that I don't believe in right or wrong would be; Is it ok to consider myself a Narcissistic Sociopath for peace of mind?
I don't think it's good to idealize a label that you know is intrinsically silly. What really matters is understanding the workings of your own mind, and figuring out how to enjoy/better your life. You asked yourself why you wanted to identify with something, and then came full circle into identifying with it!
I won't tell a person to not do something that works for them, but remember that all clinical labels are descriptions that were created to categorize people, and do not describe who people are; they only place people into sets based upon some of their behaviors.
Also please space your paragraphs. Walls of text are daunting, and most people here have short attention spans.
The purpose for all that writing was to help the question make more sense. But it's all unimportant. The only important part was the question. Really I know that if I have to ask random people on a forum or psychologist things like that, that they'll give me answers like that. But ultimately things like happiness, peace of mind identity and whatever else are the least of my concerns. I really just enjoy the ideal of asking people these questions for the pleasure of it really. I find it entertaining, the various different responses. Also how many sentences are in a paragraph?