Sociopath Community

Score from the first test: Paranoid |||||||||||| 49% 
Schizoid |||||||||||||||||| 71%
Schizotypal |||||||||||||||||| 73% 
Antisocial |||||||||||||||| 68% 
Borderline |||||||||||||| 51%
Histrionic |||||||||||||| 60% 
Narcissistic |||||||||||||||||| 71% 
Avoidant |||||||||| 39% 
Dependent |||||||||||| 41% 
Obsessive-Compulsive |||||||||||||||||||| 81% 

The second test: Paranoid |||||||||| 34% 
Schizoid |||||||||||||||| 64% 
Schizotypal |||||||||||||||| 70% 
Antisocial |||||||||||||||| 62% 
Borderline |||||||||| 40% 
Histrionic |||||||||||| 46% 
Narcissistic |||||||||||||||| 70% 
Avoidant |||| 19% 
Dependent |||||| 25% 
Obsessive-Compulsive |||||||||||||||||| 80% 

For the final test I got a 13 lol. I might as well answer the other questions at this point. It's not like will ever meet in person. I remember as a child my dad and grandpa were fighting over custody over me and constantly taking me back and forth until I was about 12-14. By then I just decided to live with my dad. I did that until I was about 16. Then I moved in too my grandpas. Nothing really changed though. My dad never physically abused me. But I was his sort of trophy child. He would bring me around every where and talk about how great I was. Accept I wasn't that great. He would consistently tell me how much he loved me and how good of a son I was. Then he would wake up hung over and would tell me how much he hated me. After a while I couldn't really tell the difference between love and hate. Then when I moved in with my grandpa. He set me up by cutting himself and sent me to juvie which I got a year of probation for. Then he would consistently lie to my probation officer to make sure I was in juvie as much as possible. I was supposed to learn a lesson I guess. Anyway my dad continued living with me and my grandpa after juvie. That was really depressing. Recently though I fought my dad twice since he was living with us. I basically won twice but he's not a fair fighter lol. I felt a lot happier but never felt right. Then my uncle moved in I became depressed again. As far as my child hood goes, when I was about 4-7 (more or less) there was this neighbor girl around the same age. We found porn at her house, but something tells me she knew what porn was before we found it. Anyway we went to my house and she made me eat her out every now and then and would never return the favor. Then I guess her brother find out but I'll stop there. Basically growing up until about 14 I just had really weird sexual experiences. But never actually having sex. It's not too bad depending how you look at it. Just a really weird and depressing childhood I guess. As of now though I feel fine. Just bored due to my constant need for everything pleasurable and the feeling of emptiness after it's all gone. Aside from that I have no problem meeting new people since i'm the best producer & DJ in my city. Which isn't saying much but yeah. Also I disowned my friends that i've known for four years because they kept telling me how to do music. I don't feel bad at it for all. I never really liked them. I also have a best friend that seems to envy me as well. I usually only go there to play his ps3. When it comes down to it. People usually like me when they meet me. After a while though if they have nothing to offer, I don't feel the need for association. I'm not sure if that makes me anything or I just had a shitty childhood. It could just be my dad had a bunch of problems. Who knows really lol. I guess there's still not enough info to tell what I am now. Just what I experienced as a child. Now though I feel quite dead inside. Lifeless really. But around every one else. I'm completely normal. I probably appear to be full of life and joy around others. But it's easy to act joyful when you get what you want all the time. Aside from that i'm not sure what else to say. Hope this makes thing a little clearer though. Just go easy on me as far as replying goes lol.

Show screenshots as proof not copy and pasting 

You went to prison then all those other personality disorders you definitely would be a sociopath

But do the LSRP test

Lol

Making more money than the government has with generic dubstep and techno.

I'm sure he'll do swimmingly~

For starters I enjoyed your reply the most. It made me laugh. It wasn't the answer I wanted, which upsets me. But exactly the one I needed, which challenges me. I'll start by replying to all of your statements and questions that have meaning to them now, using numbers so I don't loose track.

1. Even someone with eight years of study would be foolish to only rely on their own findings. A second opinion (and then some) can be outside of your own lens of blindspots and errors, and it's safe to say with the state of the media that it'd be safer to find someone qualified (and even then... error potential is quite high). - That was something I was going to do. See a professional. But I don't believe I need too at this point. It would be a waste of time. Because I know the answer to all these questions already.

2. Not a fan of research? What had you fall upon that conclusion? - No I enjoy research, I just get bored easily do to my habit of thinking about multiple things with no relevance towards my future and all that matters n my future. Also I figured I might have NPD because of how great I think of myself. Then I realized I just have a great amount of confidence and self-esteem, which nobody on planet earth could affect in any sort of way. 

3. So because you don't like the answer, you felt the need to keep looking? You don't see a problem with that method of analysis? Labels aren't something you just pick and choose from like produce in a supermarket, even if the setting we're in allows people to treat it that way.  - I felt the need to keep looking for a sense of satisfaction and relief. So I could end the wars in my mind already. They only seem to destroy myself. And time seems to be moving faster and faster the more I think. The solution would to be to stop thinking. Which is easy. I just enjoy making it complicated. As far as labels go, there just an easy way of identifying something. If you don't believe my label for you or myself fits, then you prove me wrong. Until then I have every right as an individual to see things how they're presented to me. It's not rocket science after all. It just makes things simpler.

4. Have you regarded opinions beyond your own flawed ones? - This one was a good laugh. If I was to listen to the opinions of other people, I would be just as great as they are. Which is not great at all. Anyone can give me there own opinion. After all I asked for them. That doesn't mean I'll believe them. There not facts. Also opinions are a great way to get perspective on what other people think and what they believe, not to apply to myself. These people and there opinions might be here now. But they'll all mean nothing twenty years from now. And I will be victorious. Not over other people and they're opinions but in the game of life. A little non needed information towards the end of that reply felt unnecessary but it felt right as well.

5. So you need to find a label to conform to, to belong to, even though the whole process bores you? - I don't need a label for anything really. My ultimate question in life has never been who am I but what am I. It's just a process of discovering more about myself. Now I'm realizing none of that matters. At all. I know who I am. I know that I am great. I know that I'm more than any simple mental disorder. But using a mental disorder to define my behavior is just a form of comfort really. Then I realize maybe everything that I do thats considered wrong and everything that I do that's considered right is just a bunch of moral bull shit and that there's no reason to consider the pitiful thought of myself having some sort of disorder. As if that would make me better or something. In fact it would make me lesser and I'm greater than all of that.

6. Ever hear of hypochondriasis? - Yeah I have. I tend to worry about these things not for the fear of having them. But for the prevention of death and the purpose of living as long as possible. Which I will do. I have no reason to fail.

7. When did you define those "reasons"? During? After? - Usually after. A good example would be for an episode of what I would call mania (which might not be) is when I discover something that makes me happy I get a sort of rush. Usually from there I can walk for hours at a time around my city which gives me more of a rush. I guess that's not really mania though. Just pleasure. I love pleasure. As far as depression goes, I usually get depressed when I don't get what I want. I guess that's just disappointment though. 

8. You almost seem desperate to find a label. - Could be. Who knows really. It just felt like something I needed to at the time. No I don't feel the need at all.

9. The horrors of that disorder isn't something you just forget. Are you sure you even have it? Describe to me some of your experiences with it. - Well the only reason I think I have OCD is because i'm probably the best organizer of items you'll ever meet on planet earth. Maybe that just makes me a good organizer though lol.

10. Wow, you're trying far too hard to find a label. Have you ever thought that need to find an answer could be what's throwing you off track? You haven't even looked at every possible answer, from the sounds of it you're not looking towards others to provide a second opinion, and here you are trying to jump from one category to another like it's fads and cliques. Is it even providing you any impairments toward living your life? - That makes sense. Maybe there's no real answer I need. Maybe there's no need for the questions really. I guess maybe there's no real problem at all. That's the answer I'll go with for now. It's more reassuring than any sort of label.

11. Does being normal scare you? - Not really. It's just the thought that by being normal that i'm just like every body else. But I don't believe that to be true. In my discovery that I have my mental health, it gives me the opportunity to be greater than all that was and is. I have no reason not to do that. Unless I wanted to remain just like everyone else of course. Which will not be the outcome. My last breath on earth will not be that of a normal one, but a great one. I promise not to you but myself.

12.  Actually, it explains none of that, and your music sounds quite generic. You sound more like you're trying to recreate the things heard millions of times over instead of making anything I'd dare to call "creative". - I acknowledge your opinion and you have every right to believe that. So if that's how my music sounds to you. Then I only have one job. I'll just make better music. So I guess, thanks for your opinion.

13. So you aim to attach a disorderly label to yourself to feel you have any worth? You poor, misguided thing. "Normal" people can succeed too you know. - Maybe normal people can succeed as well. But there is a difference between normal and great. So I may be normal now or too you any way. But I promise YOU this. I will not die normal. You can choose that path if you want. But I would be the biggest fool in the world to die normal. A repeat. A clone. The same as every one else. It would be a waste of my entire life to die normal. There's really no reason for me not to aspire and do great things and be great by doing that all. 

14. Translation: I can accept that I am normal, no one special, not a unique snowflake, or I can convince myself that I'm "different" from others to satisfy my ego, my existential crisis-based need to not be "everyone else". - I can defeatedly admit you're right. But once again I have no reason not to consider myself great. I feel like me considering my self a sociopath just made me feel greater. I guess because I can't fathom what it's actually like to be one. Overall though. I don't think any sort of mental disorder would make me any less or more than what I am now. I guess that concludes my attempt to be greater without accomplishment. I know now that I can continue my quest to be the greatest alive not through words but through physical accomplishment.

15. Sorry dude, no one's special. Even beliefs of those who are seen as special are all hype that will fade with enough time. - This is once again your opinion and that's fine. But I do believe without people that I believe are great, the process of evolution and the progress of mankind would be a lot slower. I guess that's what separates me from you after all.

16. You're not "mad", you just need to feel like you're more than you are. A disorder isn't going to free you from being a boring nobody just how it wouldn't really free anyone else from it. How old are you anyway? - At this point I know i'm not any form of crazy and I can continue life with peace of mind and clarity. I really don't deal with things like anxiety or stress anymore. I just create them my self. Now I don't think thats necessary anymore. Also I'm not sure how this applies to anything but I turned 20 about a month ago.

17. Also not really sure what "ladders" have to do with any of this - Finally I met latter not ladder lol. Also forgive me for the numerous amount of typos in this post. I just feel to lazy to proof read everything right now lol.

By the way I forgot to inform you that music will not be my only source of income. I'm actually starting my own record label soon. From there I'll be bridging smaller business to help and support the major company which is of course the label. From there it's pretty self explanatory. Make money. Save money. Invest money. Then I just repeat the process until I have all that I need. Also thanks for your reply. I finally got the answer not that I wanted but needed. I'm perfectly normal (in terms of mental health). As far as being great goes. I could be greater. Until then, good luck on your journey through life. For mine has just begun!

Being bipolar is horrible. I do not enjoy it. 

Antisocial personality disorder has a very clearcut list of traits. I would say if you fit the criteria that you have ASPD. If you want a further diagnosis, go to a shrink.

Narcissist 

Sigh... computer crashed while I was replying to this. I'll add answers through a series of edits on this post:

1. That was something I was going to do. See a professional. But I don't believe I need too at this point. It would be a waste of time. Because I know the answer to all these questions already.
The seeking of this answer is largely decadent anyway, but what has you able to trust your own opinion solely, just the fact that it's yours?

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2. No I enjoy research, I just get bored easily do to my habit of thinking about multiple things with no relevance towards my future and all that matters n my future.
...imagination bores you?

Also I figured I might have NPD because of how great I think of myself.
That's a pretty great sentence.

Then I realized I just have a great amount of confidence and self-esteem, which nobody on planet earth could affect in any sort of way.
That seems like it'd make it harder to learn lessons.

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3. I felt the need to keep looking for a sense of satisfaction and relief. So I could end the wars in my mind already. They only seem to destroy myself.
That doesn't really sound like "a great amount of confidence and self-esteem", and how is finding a label supposed to fix it?

As far as labels go, there just an easy way of identifying something.
No, that's what they should be. Some use it as cliques or models for their lives (some without meaning to).

If you don't believe my label for you or myself fits, then you prove me wrong.
I don't really see what I have to gain from that. You already shrug off the notion of seeking a professional opinion, so I don't see why mine would have any impact on you at all. I'd imagine you're likely cherry picking for answers you'd prefer.

Until then I have every right as an individual to see things how they're presented to me.
If you think that can be trusted. I'm more prone to collecting a series of views to try to come out with a more informed conclusion instead of relying purely on myself.

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4. This one was a good laugh. If I was to listen to the opinions of other people, I would be just as great as they are. Which is not great at all.
What makes you so special?

Anyone can give me there own opinion. After all I asked for them. That doesn't mean I'll believe them. There not facts.
Funny story, you're likely about as factual as they are.

Also opinions are a great way to get perspective on what other people think and what they believe, not to apply to myself.
An outside perspective can be humbling, educational in it's own sense. To not use them as well is to curse yourself with tunnel vision and inaccuracies.

These people and there opinions might be here now. But they'll all mean nothing twenty years from now. And I will be victorious.
This almost sounds like a passive cognitive defense of sorts. Do you often feel oppressed by other people's views of you, particularly when they don't match?

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5. I don't need a label for anything really. My ultimate question in life has never been who am I but what am I.
I'm surprised you haven't looked in a mirror to answer that one for yourself. I'm fairly certain you're a human being.

It's just a process of discovering more about myself.
...without even looking towards how others see you, how do you expect to find any clarity in your answers there? They'll see the things you likely won't.

Now I'm realizing none of that matters. At all. I know who I am. I know that I am great. I know that I'm more than any simple mental disorder.
I'm pretty sure you're no one of merit.

But using a mental disorder to define my behavior is just a form of comfort really.
With or without a disorder, it won't make you any more special than anyone else.

Then I realize maybe everything that I do thats considered wrong and everything that I do that's considered right is just a bunch of moral bull shit and that there's no reason to consider the pitiful thought of myself having some sort of disorder.
You sounded more proud of it during your youtube promotion, an explanation for the "creativity" and "genius".

As if that would make me better or something. In fact it would make me lesser and I'm greater than all of that.
How badly do you need to believe that you're greater?

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6. Yeah I have. I tend to worry about these things not for the fear of having them. But for the prevention of death and the purpose of living as long as possible. Which I will do. I have no reason to fail.
That sounds sort of like it could be from fear. 

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9. Well the only reason I think I have OCD is because i'm probably the bestorganizer of items you'll ever meet on planet earth. Maybe that just makes me a good organizer though lol.
That's not OCD. This is OCD:



You're thinking OCPD, which even then, it's not just "Lol I organize stuff", it's a compulsion that can drive the person crazy.

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10. That makes sense. Maybe there's no real answer I need. Maybe there's no need for the questions really.
No, questions are how you can identify if there are problems or not in the first place. Not asking questions is arguably worse. Questions are good, but questioning the questions is good too.

I guess maybe there's no real problem at all. That's the answer I'll go with for now. It's more reassuring than any sort of label.
So now the labels are scary? What's suddenly so bad about a label?

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11. Not really. It's just the thought that by being normal that i'm just like every body else.
Even abnormal you'd still be very much like "every body else".

But I don't believe that to be true.
Again, what makes you so special? You're just one person, one person among billions, one person who is likely accomplishing less than many others whose name isn't even one of merit.

In my discovery that I have my mental health, it gives me the opportunity to be greater than all that was and is.
...what?

Unless I wanted to remain just like everyone else of course. Which will not be the outcome.
Do you know how many people think the same thing and don't become anything special?

My last breath on earth will not be that of a normal one, but a great one. I promise not to you but myself.
What do you plan to be breathing in when you die~?

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12. I acknowledge your opinion and you have every right to believe that.
I usually hear that from people who put up walls.

So if that's how my music sounds to you. Then I only have one job. I'll just make better music.
How do you plan on improving? Not saying it can't be done, but if you keep yourself within the frame of other people's music you will only stand to become a shadow of their successes.

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13. Maybe normal people can succeed as well.
"Maybe".

But there is a difference between normal and great.
Smaller difference than you give credit. Even "the greats" are still mere people who happened to stumble upon something that works.

But I promise YOU this. I will not die normal.
...you can't possibly know that sort of thing in advance, so all I've learned is how lightly and readily you promise things without guarantee. Not the safest way to go about things.

But I would be the biggest fool in the world to die normal. A repeat. A clone. The same as every one else. It would be a waste of my entire life to die normal. There's really no reason for me not to aspire and do great things and be great by doing that all.
The only thing stopping you from "dying a normal" right now is that you aren't dead yet. There's billions of people in this world, and it's hard to escape just being a number.

I'd honestly be more concerned about your need to feel special than anything else right now.

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14. But once again I have no reason not to consider myself great.
You have no reason to consider yourself great either, so why is that your go to answer?

I feel like me considering my self a sociopath just made me feel greater.
It doesn't. Even beyond the "from one human to another we're both nothing" argument, being a "sociopath" is not an advantage, but rather a list of disadvantages with a distracting silver lining.

I don't think any sort of mental disorder would make me any less or more than what I am now.
Some can be acquired, and they can wreck havoc on an otherwise functional life. Depression is an example.

I know now that I can continue my quest to be the greatest alive not through words but through physical accomplishment.
...from just this? Do you not often talk to people or something?

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15. But I do believe without people that I believe are great, the process of evolution and the progress of mankind would be a lot slower.
I don't think that's something that can be proven, for there is just as much of a likelihood that if that "great" didn't make an appearance that someone greater might have done something else instead.

I guess that's what separates me from you after all.
In time, everything is erased. What is "great" is a temporary hype that only lives as long as it's history does. With how short our lives are, I'd say it's wiser to seek peace with yourself as opposed to relying on greatness to do it for you. In the end, nothing we do really matters, so at the very least I'd say if you fail to achieve greatness you ought not be so hard on yourself for it.

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16. At this point I know i'm not any form of crazy and I can continue life with peace of mind and clarity.
I wonder how many crazy people think the same thing...~

I really don't deal with things like anxiety or stress anymore.
Uh... at all? Stress and anxiety can be helpful in the right situations.

Also I'm not sure how this applies to anything but I turned 20 about a month ago.
I thought you'd be younger personally.

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17. I just feel to lazy to proof read everything right now lol.
Pfff, some "OCD".


Wow, from browser crashes to internet disconnects, this post was far more work than it ought to have been. Your post showed a transition, but I replied as I saw each individually anyway.