Sociopath Community

Alright, lets see if this block of text can be dissected:

How would an individual diagnose them selves as a sociopath?
Even someone with eight years of study would be foolish to only rely on their own findings. A second opinion (and then some) can be outside of your own lens of blindspots and errors, and it's safe to say with the state of the media that it'd be safer to find someone qualified (and even then... error potential is quite high).

I tried doing so by researching through numerous websites.
Yeah, THAT sounds promising.

It was a very long and boring process but I came to the conclusion that I had NPD.
Not a fan of research? What had you fall upon that conclusion?

But I would never find my self satisfied with that conclusion.
So because you don't like the answer, you felt the need to keep looking? You don't see a problem with that method of analysis? Labels aren't something you just pick and choose from like produce in a supermarket, even if the setting we're in allows people to treat it that way.

So I started doing more research.
Why?

After a while I came across the definition of a sociopath, but I didn't think it fit so I dismissed it.
Have you regarded opinions beyond your own flawed ones?

After a while I started researching again.
So you need to find a label to conform to, to belong to, even though the whole process bores you?

Eventually I came across bipolar disorder and that fit perfectly.
Ever hear of hypochondriasis?

But the distinction between me and someone who's actually bipolar is that my moments of mania and depression all had a reason behind them.
When did you define those "reasons"? During? After?

So I had to dismiss that as well.
You almost seem desperate to find a label.

Then I recall that I also have OCD.
The horrors of that disorder isn't something you just forget. Are you sure you even have it? Describe to me some of your experiences with it.

So then I realized maybe I actually might be sociopathic.
Wow, you're trying far too hard to find a label. Have you ever thought that need to find an answer could be what's throwing you off track? You haven't even looked at every possible answer, from the sounds of it you're not looking towards others to provide a second opinion, and here you are trying to jump from one category to another like it's fads and cliques. Is it even providing you any impairments toward living your life?

Which would describe my narcissistic thoughts and behavior.
Of what sort?

Also symptoms of NPD are bipolar episodes of mania.
Hm?

Experiencing depression for non moral reasons and of course OCD.
How can you be certain?

That doesn't mean that I'm sociopathic because of those things.
It sounds like you're not, so far.

But do to genetics, DNA, environment and how I was raised; I feel a lot more comfortable in my own mind believing that I live a sociopathological life style instead of believing that I'm normal.
Does being normal scare you?

It would also explain the link between my creativity and why I'm so good at music (which you can listen to if you search up 3xp-Ress on YouTube or SoundCloud).
Actually, it explains none of that, and your music sounds quite generic. You sound more like you're trying to recreate the things heard millions of times over instead of making anything I'd dare to call "creative".

I think that's to do the link between mental disorders and genuis.
So you aim to attach a disorderly label to yourself to feel you have any worth? You poor, misguided thing. "Normal" people can succeed too you know.

At this point I can do two things.
Only two?

I could say I'm completely normal and deny my mind and it's giftor I can embrace all those imperfections of the mind and create the
perfect lifestyle in the midst of all the chaos.
Translation: I can accept that I am normal, no one special, not a unique snowflake, or I can convince myself that I'm "different" from others to satisfy my ego, my existential crisis-based need to not be "everyone else".

Sorry dude, no one's special. Even beliefs of those who are seen as special are all hype that will fade with enough time.

I'll be choosing the ladder over anything else but I am interested in hearing someone else's opinion and there ideal of what it means to be on the spectrum of essentially what would be madness.
You're not "mad", you just need to feel like you're more than you are. A disorder isn't going to free you from being a boring nobody just how it wouldn't really free anyone else from it. How old are you anyway?

Also not really sure what "ladders" have to do with any of this~

That would depend on how good looking he was. :)

That's psychopathic or narcissistic behaviour right there not sociopath

But it can also be related to anxiety disorders too scared to share then it would be pathological lying or denial of ones flaws which Ia narcissism

Maybe you just have a low IQ and have no idea what you were researching 

You are putting so much intensive analysis into this. The real question is: Why does it matter to you what "label" you fit under?

only people with a history of being abused(Neglect maybe parents dumped you onto other people to take care of you, psychical being slapped or punched a lot or things thrown at you, emotional people yelling at you, psychological like people lying about you everywhere and you are forced to eat vomit and bullied at school, sexual like some older person licked your pussy or sucked your dick as a kid)are sociopath so if you don't have that then you aren't one and usually your parents have a bunch of problems 

http://similarminds.com/personality_disorder.html this has lack of empathy percentage and lack of respect to authority figures what ever (this is better for sociopaths since it has the authority figure thing bla bla bla)

http://similarminds.com/personality_disorder.html do this usually sociopaths have a whole bunch of high scoring shit on here

After all of that do this http://www.aspergerstestsite.com/75/autism-spectrum-quotient-aq-test/#.U_RfiNkazCQ if you score in the 26-30 or higher then you are retarded and all of the first two tests are invalid 

I honestly don't care about the label. All I wanted to know was why I am the way I am. I thought I might be the way I am because I might be a sociopath or something like that. 

I have an important question.

Lets imagine you are in the subway/bus(other PUBLIC transport). And you are just sitting and minding your own business. How would you react, if some random stranger, a dude, goes up to you, looks at you for half a second and licks you on the cheek? Then he smiles and goes away. All this in under 4-5 seconds.

http://personality-testing.info/tests/LSRP.php

We need to know the percentages and

do that and SHOW A SCREENSHOT

by psychopathic

http://personality-testing.info/tests/LSRP.php

We need to know the percentages and

do that and SHOW A SCREENSHOT

 ffs, josh, really...

How many times do I have to tell you those online tests don't prove shit.

Depression + OCD behavior

is just ADHD since both of those can come from that 

and people with aspergers tend to have routines very similar to ocd person and are very emotional to be depressed at times

maybe you should just go to a psychologist... Clearly you have problems and for you to actually need to ask a bunch of strangers who know basically nothing about your life wether you are a sociopath

then you aren't a sociopath if you were you would know it on your own by now  mainly from being haunted by your abused past