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"what were your triggers and how did you react?"

They weren't triggers necessarily but just concealing my intentions and thoughts just lead to a build up of excess stress, which vented out in bad ways.

 "i wanna know about your impulsive episodes."

I'd sneak into people's houses at night and steal things. Nothing of serious value mostly food haha. Vandalism was one of my big ones, violence occasionally. I almost really got into tagging though.

random people's houses? how did this relieve the tension? when i think impulsive i think 'over in seconds'. that sounds more calculated than anything..were you stealing out of necessity or just for the fuck of it?

really interesting way of looking at it..i wanna know about your impulsive episodes. what were your triggers and how did you react?

by shimmer

neither suggest nor assume anything...consider that the meat puppet is the self when it is controlled by the need of substance or other...it's a weak position in existence....would u not agree?

What?

Substances don't control people. Not alcohol. Not substances, either. Withdrawl or addiction to a substance, well that'd be anger for sustenance.

So yeah, food, gas, housing, they are all weak then.

However, I hear you. Poverty and crime are loosely associated with each other. Now I know, we're scientists here, so causation does not equal correlation or some bullshit like that.

by TheZodiac

"I agree this void you describe sounds like depression" -- It is, indeed, but remember this quote: "what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger". Eventually you'll learn how to face them...

Does it make you stronger? Because I thought for sure that if something was killing you, it was in fact, making you weaker.

I understand the whole reverse psychology thing, and I most certainly all for growing immunity to iocane powder, but if you are depressed, there are thing in your environment that are working towards directly against you. Takes a long long time to gain awareness or muster up the strength to fight back, but that's what self medicating with alcohol is all about, right?

Don't get me wrong. I am no perfect type of guy, obviously. Only saying.

So, if the SSRIs or the equivalent of those, are essentially crutches, are they any better than mild alcohols?

If it doesn' say full remission on the package after so and so weeks, then what are they? They certainly are no cure.

"I agree this void you describe sounds like depression" -- It is, indeed, but remember this quote: "what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger". Eventually you'll learn how to face them...

PS: When I started working out, it definitely helped me. I don't know if you have a routine, but you should try it. Running, for example, clears my mind and helps me with the stress and strange moods. 

I agree this void you describe sounds like depression. The days roll into each other into a never ending abyss. I went on the ssri for a combo of too much bad feeling combined with not much feeling - basically anxiety and the blahs. 

The ssri didn't help much. Then I moved to Effexor, within one week I felt much better. Then I stopped taking them and fell apart. Now I am working through that. Bottom line, I think drugs helped to break things up and snap me out of that void place.  I don't know what the future holds.   

"I enjoy it for some reason" -- Read some of the things I posted before. Probably you're experiencing some of these things as well. Nevertheless, like I said to MissC: "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger" (I know you probably hate Nietzsche's philosophy, but hah, this quote is accurate). 

I'm sorry, I don't even know what I'm talking about anymore. I guess it's the lack of sleep

by MissCommunication

The ssri didn't help much. Then I moved to Effexor, within one week I felt much better. Then I stopped taking them and fell apart. Now I am working through that. Bottom line, I think drugs helped to break things up and snap me out of that void place.  I don't know what the future holds.

Why'd you go off them? Run out of money?

Or did you stop eating mercury laced High Fructose Corn Syrup?

http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/article/2009/01/26/AR2009012601831.html

The use of mercury-contaminated caustic soda in the production of HFCS is common. The contamination occurs when mercury cells are used to produce caustic soda.

 

Perhaps your father and mother fought in unions, and got big fat dental plans?

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/uk_news/england/hampshire/4023425.stm

A British Dental Association spokeswoman said only a tiny number of people have proved to be allergic to mercury and that a mercury sensitivity test could be requested from GPs.

Doctors were baffled by her condition, labelling her "a conundrum".

Like many women, Mary's first pregnancy led to calcium deficiency and she needed 19 mercury amalgam fillings.

 

Is that common? Calcium deficiency and dead mothers after their first child?

Whoa... I guess home birth is almost as safe as a hospital birth for a reason.

i don't know if effexor is the "heavy stuff" per se? It just works on two brain chemicals instead of one and that is what some people need.  Other people respond better with just the serotonin worked on. It is rough to get off of effexor but it gets easier.

When i was on the drug I rarely drank alcohol. I never wanted it but before I was on it I wanted to drink a lot more. :D

I don't think drugs are always the answer but I also think they can help. Some people are too freaked out to get help and suffer needlessly. i don;t see the point