Ah. Well, the interest has nothing to do with the forum anymore. Now it's all constructs in my head that are building off of each other. It may be nothing but a bunch of empath bullshit, but we'll see where it goes.
"I'm guessing Turncoat meant that I'm actually not interesting at all, and the only reason you think I am because you haven't been here long enough to find out I'm not."
Mostly saying that it seems that newer users have a very different impression of you than those who have been here for longer (excluding the more obvious puppets from this of course).
Timeline-wise I'm actually somewhere toward the middle, I think.
"If my interpretation is accurate, then I can't help but wonder if Turncoat isn't just a little jealous of the fact that you find me the most interesting person here."
Seems legit. 
by Thrill Kill
I had a mammogram yesterday and I asked the radiologist if there was any way she could tell me if she knew the lump was cancerous or not (after the mammogram was done). She told me she wasn't allowed to tell me, but I convinced her that I wouldn't tell anyone if she could at least give me some idea of what she thinks it is. She told me that she thinks it's a Fibroadenoma, which is a benign (non-cancerous) tumor.
I'm hoping she's right. I won't really know though until I get the results of the biopsy, which I haven't had yet. I'm booked in for the biopsy next week and at this stage, I'm not sure how long it will take to get the results of it.
I hope she's right, TK. Once it's confirmed you don't have cancer you should take me to that old secluded building we talked about. If you have cancer though I won't be taking the chance.
by whoameyeMost people in here know I have been intrigued by Thrill from day one. Sure we have our differences on stuff. That being said. I don't understand why some of you care, if she has cancer or doesn't. Its not like I want her to die from cancer. But on the other hand if she does die. I wont loose a wink of sleep over it.
I don't understand why someone would give a shit if someone else in here lived or died. Its not like your life is going to be affected at all by there death or anyones death. Its shit like this that perplexes me.
Wow. I'm so proud of you, Jason. 'Intrigued', 'perplexed'... when you first came here, you'd never read a book in your life and could barely construct a coherent sentence, now look at the vocabulary you're using. Well done you :)
Some might accuse you of typing it out on a word document first, but I don't believe those cynics. Most spell-check software would automatically correct or at least highlight apostrophe errors such as 'anyones' too.
It would be interesting if you did have cancer. I'm not saying that in a nasty way, I just find it fascinating the way people react when confronted with mortality. I wonder if you'd finally say fuck it and head out on that road trip you've always talked about, or if you'd still find some more excuses and live in denial.
by GypsyIt would be interesting if you did have cancer. I'm not saying that in a nasty way, I just find it fascinating the way people react when confronted with mortality.
I've been aware of my mortality for a long time. I've been in situations where my life could have ended had things turned out differently. I also used to know a woman who died of cancer. So, I'm very much aware that no-one lives forever.
I'm the type of person who lives in the moment because I believe life is unpredictable. You just never know when your time's up. I'd like to believe that I have another 40 years to live, but I or anyone else here, could die tomorrow for all we know.
I wonder if you'd finally say fuck it and head out on that road trip you've always talked about, or if you'd still find some more excuses and live in denial.
I would have headed out on that road trip ages ago if I could have, but as it is, I have a daughter to raise who requires schooling. Once my daughter finishes school and ends up leaving home eventually, then I'll be able to decide what I really want to do with my life. By then, I may have to get job and put the road trip off even longer. If that happens, well, shit happens.
I've been aware of my mortality for a long time. I've been in situations where my life could have ended had things turned out differently.
But this is different. It's not an adreneline-fuelled, split-second confrontation. It will be slow. You'll have time to think, lots of time. People will want to talk to you about it. You'll start reading stuff and lurking on cancer forums where people are talking about regrets etc. You will confront your own life, it's inevitable.
I'm the type of person who lives in the moment because I believe life is unpredictable. You just never know when your time's up. I'd like to believe that I have another 40 years to live, but I or anyone else here, could die tomorrow for all we know.
You're contradicting yourself here. If you truly live in the moment and you want something, then you just fucking take it NOW. Because this moment is all we really have. The past is gone and the future may not happen, so if you wanted to go on that road trip so bad then you'd just pack your bags today.
There is never a 'good' time for anyone to say fuck the world and go do whatever they want, and if you're waiting for some time in the future where your to do list is empty and your responsibilities are over, then you'll be dead and buried before you do anything with your life.
I would have headed out on that road trip ages ago if I could have, but as it is, I have a daughter to raise who requires schooling. Once my daughter finishes school and ends up leaving home eventually, then I'll be able to decide what I really want to do with my life. By then, I may have to get job and put the road trip off even longer. If that happens, well, shit happens.
You know there are schools that will do that for free, right? Even if the special snowflake has some problems there, she needs to learn to deal. Because she's presumably gonna have to go out into the real world and relate to people at some point, you can't protect her from that, unless you want her living with you forever. Which I think you do, because you are afraid of living your life, and she is the perfect excuse to hide behind.
How old is she anyway? 16? She's basically and adult. Lot's of parents absolve themselves of responsibility at this point. I was living independently at 16 and I can't say it did me any harm. Also, if she's still studying at 16 then she must be taking some kind of special exams, yeah? No offence, but I'm surprised you have the qualifications to teach that.
In any case, the thing that would provide the best education of all would actually be going out and seeing something of the world. Why not take her with you? It's not like either of you have anything keeping you where you are. When I was a kid we never lived in the same place more than 8 months, and honestly it was better than any formal education I've ever had. She could still take her books and study while you're on the road. What's holding you back?