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how did people know though? who told all these people?

also, regarding your claim that you developed a big ego as a result of being successful, this could well be the case, but look at reaper. a great example of a delusional narcissist who is a complete failure. it's not always due to success that large egos are born, although they can help to get there.

it's looking more likely that you did the thing..i mean you were stalking this chick for 4 (or more) years, doesn't really strike me as the actions of a normal heartbroken ex that was done wrong..

by Systematic

Like I said before, whether it was true or not the suspicion itself was enough to have people she knew not associate with her.

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You said she couldn't live up to the woman you stalked for 5 years? How could she not if she is the woman you stalked for 5 years? Is it possible she is nothing like what you've made her up to be in your head?

"By neutral I mean I view things by results."
Results can be heavily skewed as well.

"My view has been time tested and proved reliable."
By who?

"It's not only ideal but practical to rely on your own judgment."
Not by itself.

"My view isn't perfect but it doesn't have as many holes compared to most people's."
How could you know that?

"doesn't mean others are actively accomplishing or pursuing that goal."
Accomplishing yeah, many aren't succeeding in their goals unless their sights are typically set toward small gains, but as to whether or not they are pursuing it is a matter of perspective.

"But when I see someone who was in my shoes, walking on the streets in rags I realize the only difference between me and that man, is persistence."
What has you so certain that that's the only underlying difference? Do you commonly strike up conversations with rag wearing street rats? What's to say it wasn't things like upbringing, disorders, or chance encounters?

Some persistent people still fail.

Stalking doesn't give you the entirety of someone's character. With the scraps of information I learned I'd piece together her personality. Some aspects of her personality went unaccounted for and I over time, subconsciously filled those vacancies with more favorable traits. As I found out when we dated shortly.

Nevertheless, she's close enough and the only thing that would resemble the person I've made up.

You call 400 texts /day scraps of info? I'd say you know that girl inside out...

If she's close enough why would it have been stale once with her. You prefer the fiction and fantasy. Admit it. You're chasing a phantom inside your head resembling yourself  more than someone real who's just like you.

Depends how much depth is in the texts themselves, and on how one-sided the conversations are. It could be like:

Person A: [talks about stuff]
Person A: [talks about stuff]
Person A: [makes a joke about the stuff]
Person B: Lol. 
Person A: [elaborates about stuff]
Person A: [talks about stuff]
Person B: I see.
Person A: [talks about stuff]
Person A: [talks about stuff]
Person A: [questions if she agrees about stuff]
Person B:  Hah, yeah. Can't disagree there.
Person A: [starts to tell a story about himself]
Person B: Oh, I don't know that one.
Person A: [story detail 1]
Person A: [story detail 2]
Person A: [story detail 3]
Person A: [story detail 4]
Person A: [story detail 5]
Person A: [story detail 6]
Person A: [story detail 7]
Person A: [story detail 8]
Person B: Then what happened?
Person A: [story ending]
Person B: I see. I'm glad you found a way to make it work for you.

Probably not his case, but a number of texts doesn't really show much beyond chatter duration. The texts themselves could have even lacked depth or could have been misleading or even brimming with semantic mistake potential. Some texters even send fragments instead of entire messages, send corrections when autocorrect screws up, things of that nature that can bog your inbox.

On top of that, people texting aren't seeing the person's expressions nor are hearing the tone behind it, which already makes it rather easy to mistake or hide motivations and beliefs.

Edit: There, that ought to be more clear.

That was the first 2 years. The last 3(with some exceptions) have spent in the dark. 

I'd prefer it, doesn't mean I can have it. 

She's the closest thing.

Almost the opposite. 

I cared for what happened in her day more. It was me asking her how her day was or if she had any problems, not me sharing my own stories.

Quite a bold conclusion you wrote yourself there..