So who is actually in control here? It would seem that she is. You enjoy her participation and she strings you along as she feels.
It feels less like a stalking situation and more like a tease and denial D/s scenario.
Who knows.
All that i understand is that this whole symbiotic relationship i had with her was wrong, self destructive and complicated. Maybe later on in life I'll come back to it. But for now, i want to ignore it.
2 weeks in the woods is all it took. Had plenty of time to sort her out, I can say I'm done with it now.
I have no desire to pursue her anymore, shame it's taken me this long. I still don't regret it.