I don't try to be a better person for those I care about. I try to be a better person for myself. (Though "better person" is a subjective term.)
I am however, good to those I care about. Because I like having them in my life and I appreciate a stable and harmonious environment. Treating others badly just because I can do it without feeling guilty, would be stupid. It's self-sabotage.
what indicated that i even thought that, you square? nothing in my posts claimed anything remotely close to your comment. chill out, you are entirely too defensive. i know why you are, but remember you are the one who came here for interaction. you are getting it, accept it. either take in ALL of what is being said, and apply it to yourself, or just leave and drop this subject. coming into this with a closed mind does nothing for you if you had an actual problem. why are you so bothered by my commentary?
1. "all of my relationships since age 16 or 17 are people who are psychos or similar"
2. " i especially like when they're sadistic... it's stuff they're capable of"
3. "he shot a stray dog with a bow and arrow...this was the most turned on i'd probably been in my whole life."
4. "i get more pleasure out of their exploration of depraved things than my own."
5. "i like when someone is an asshole or callous towards everyone else, but intimate with me"
6. "the bigger the contrast of ow he regards humanity and how he regards me, the more good it gets."
7. "we've been on and off, mainly due to drama with his ex-wife (he's older)."
Given the fact that you've provided so many important information on your mental state and your sexual selection preferences, I think I can give a pretty accurate explanation - what is missing from the "equation" is you didn't state your biological gender (and a few other variables, by I can ignore them for the time being) - so I'll assume you are a female, probably in your 20's.
Your instinctual desire to mate with males who are perceived by others (and you, indirectly) as "psychopaths" has NOTHING to do with them actually being psychopaths (so no, it's not a psychopath fetish), and everything to do with how your instinct interprets masculinity. For the female in you, the most important biological imperative is to mate with a high-status male (aka "an Alpha") and "she" interprets status and power physically, achieved through brute force. You are, to a large degree, similar to those women who deliberately stay with their abusive boyfriends/husbands - the only difference is that the "abuse" is not directed at you, but outwards, toward those not included in your little pack of two. You perceive your "psychopath" male as the alpha-dog, and yourself as his second-in-command - which is a pretty high status - and yes, it is an ego thing. It always is, and everything is.
By no means should you associate your mental state and sexual preference with some kind of pathology - you are more sane then those other women whose mates abuse them. You are siding with destruction, they are siding with self-destruction. And self-destructive beings tend not to live long and/or prosper.
by Archangel1. "all of my relationships since age 16 or 17 are people who are psychos or similar"
2. " i especially like when they're sadistic... it's stuff they're capable of"
3. "he shot a stray dog with a bow and arrow...this was the most turned on i'd probably been in my whole life."
4. "i get more pleasure out of their exploration of depraved things than my own."
5. "i like when someone is an asshole or callous towards everyone else, but intimate with me"
6. "the bigger the contrast of ow he regards humanity and how he regards me, the more good it gets."
7. "we've been on and off, mainly due to drama with his ex-wife (he's older)."
Given the fact that you've provided so many important information on your mental state and your sexual selection preferences, I think I can give a pretty accurate explanation - what is missing from the "equation" is you didn't state your biological gender (and a few other variables, by I can ignore them for the time being) - so I'll assume you are a female, probably in your 20's.
Your instinctual desire to mate with males who are perceived by others (and you, indirectly) as "psychopaths" has NOTHING to do with them actually being psychopaths (so no, it's not a psychopath fetish), and everything to do with how your instinct interprets masculinity. For the female in you, the most important biological imperative is to mate with a high-status male (aka "an Alpha") and "she" interprets status and power physically, achieved through brute force. You are, to a large degree, similar to those women who deliberately stay with their abusive boyfriends/husbands - the only difference is that the "abuse" is not directed at you, but outwards, toward those not included in your little pack of two. You perceive your "psychopath" male as the alpha-dog, and yourself as his second-in-command - which is a pretty high status - and yes, it is an ego thing. It always is, and everything is.
By no means should you associate your mental state and sexual preference with some kind of pathology - you are more sane then those other women whose mates abuse them. You are siding with destruction, they are siding with self-destruction. And self-destructive beings tend not to live long and/or prosper.
This guy makes some good points. What the so called "psychopath fans" have in common is that they consider themselves special enough to be "different" from the other "victims". I have commented on this in the past many times. A lot of females think they are special snowflakes that can turn the big dangerous beast into prince charming, that they are somehow above the rest by being someone "special" to the psychopath. Smth like a Messiah complex, with them being able to affect and make a change where others fail.
It really is an ego thing. I think what you said in the sexual fantasy thread is very telling:
by KiloSquarea sadist raping a girl with a spikey condom-like device wrapped around his dick, then taking it off and fucking me more gently, using her blood as lube.
See? You're not like the average victim of this sadistic alpha man, you're someone that he treats differently. Special snowflake syndrome.
yeah, i'm female. and i'm 20. this makes sense for the most part.
the only thing is that one is high school doesn't fill out all of this criteria, i think. then again, at that time i was just working out what i want.
"you are more sane then those other women whose mates abuse them"
thank you lol and i think the rest of that last paragraph is spot on. i know i'm not completely sane (doubt anyone really is) but of course it makes a bit more sense then being some temporary play thing that's there just for someone's sadistic urges. these relationships benefit me more.
Lol, I didn't insult you at all, i responded to your query. ironically you did exactly what i said you were doing. this whole time i have been trying to have a conversation with you, and instead you assumed, made some snark remark, and ignored all of what i suggested.
such a baby, man...
