Sociopath Community

by Machiavelli

 It's a mix between boredom and restlessness. I feel like if I'm going to live this life, I'd better do something great, and not be weak, pathetic, and servile like the rest of the sheep. It's ego issues only in that I have really bad other esteem. I'm a misanthrope. So having to deal with being "just like everyone else" is ego-shattering. I don't think its a bad thing though to be like this, it does push me to do exciting things. It feels shitty to feel nothing, its so boring and unexciting for me.

 A misanthrope? But there are infinite things you can get from society. Dislike the people, sure. But participation gets you further than isolation would. Not unless you stole all the resources and information you could before you isolated yourself.

And who in the fuck is "just like everyone else?" I've never met anyone in my life that I would consider like anyone else, other than in basic function and tendency. Most people are so dynamic and round, they are far more interesting than even the physical sciences, sometimes. To me, at least.

"Dislike the people, sure. But participation gets you further than isolation would."
That depends on what the person wants out of life. Someone who values solitude might prefer to be isolated.

"And who in the fuck is "just like everyone else?""
People have more in common than they like to admit. After hearing enough stories you begin to see the similarities between people's "unique" experiences and see that there's only so much to really do when you look at things. Sure there's a difference in how they witnessed it, but there's patterns there too.

"I've never met anyone in my life that I would consider like anyone else, other than in basic function and tendency. Most people are so dynamic and round, they are far more interesting than even the physical sciences, sometimes."
I've spent a lot of time dissecting for differences, but the more that I find out about people, the more unremarkable the findings feel. It's sort of an ego killer once you look at yourself and see the same thing.

Haha, I can't identify with any of that.

by Turncoat

"Dislike the people, sure. But participation gets you further than isolation would."
That depends on what the person wants out of life. Someone who values solitude might prefer to be isolated.

"And who in the fuck is "just like everyone else?""
People have more in common than they like to admit. After hearing enough stories you begin to see the similarities between people's "unique" experiences and see that there's only so much to really do when you look at things. Sure there's a difference in how they witnessed it, but there's patterns there too.

"I've never met anyone in my life that I would consider like anyone else, other than in basic function and tendency. Most people are so dynamic and round, they are far more interesting than even the physical sciences, sometimes."
I've spent a lot of time dissecting for differences, but the more that I find out about people, the more unremarkable the findings feel. It's sort of an ego killer once you look at yourself and see the same thing.

 It's an ego-killer indeed.

I had some OCD traits growing up, but I think that those were mostly learned behaviours. They dissipated soon after I turned seventeen.

I met the criteria for Conduct Disorder as a teenager but managed to avoid scrutiny by sheer dumb luck: I lived in a town where my behaviour was considered only slightly more deviant than "normal."

I have had no disorders of any kind diagnosed in adulthood. Considering that my father's official Corrections New South Wales documents state that he was both a psychopath and a sociopath, I will never voluntarily seek assistance in analyzing whatever traits I may have inherited from him. I find it odd that certain people on this forum have sought such diagnoses in the past.

by Helena

I find it odd that certain people on this forum have sought such diagnoses in the past.

 Yeah, I wouldn't want something like that on my record. I prefer the safety in uncertainty over the danger of labels and criminalization.

On to the original conversation: Maybe I'm not as self-aware as I thought I was? People are so different from me, as far as I've determined. I mean, yeah, my shit stinks like everyone else's (Literally and metaphorically), but that's no reason for me to claim to be similar outside of basic tendencies/flaws. I'm ok with being human. But other people don't seem to be. And I don't get that. People can agree with me to a limited extent. But most of the time, people start to seem bat-shit insane after I get deep enough. At least, in the sense that I can't understand why they do the things they do, at all. They just seem to be doing things without intellectualizing them. Or they think things without rationalizing them.I used to think I was more self-aware than most people because I felt like I got down to the most accurate manifestation of my personality, and found only blank lines. I felt like I had gotten to the level at which people find some kind of peace with themselves. But I guess more of what I do is subconscious than I originally thought.

You're fine

Levi,

It just depends on what you are comfortable with. I would not be happy with, "finding only blank lines."  To me that is a deficit.

Double. Interesting names choices on here.

Deficit or not, it's relieving to me.