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Well,  I get that, but don't you want to be rich? idk..I really love money, and without work and mone, my life would be even more useless...

It's kind of hard to for me to keep a job, somehow someway, something always goes down..

I agree with Thrill Kill, but I want someone else to love me..... and I want to be able to "feel" their love for me... but we don't have it in us, someone wrote that ( I don't know the specifics, but.. something about the brain, and activating this thing,lol) that would increase some connections, so we could feel emotion... however, we would be like a baby, starting off for the first time. We wouldn't be able to handle all the emotions and god knows what the fuck we would do, lol

by Girl_automatic_mentality3

Million Clinical Multiaxial Inventory-III (MCM-III)

you must not have any, lol

 Have any what?

Before I got diagnosed I was given three tests and evaluated. Mind you, I had been seeing the psychologist for awhile by that stage, so he already had a pretty good idea about me. I don't remember the name of each test I was given as the test names themselves didn't seem important enough to remember.

I found a txt version of the test online: http://truthsilo.com/stds/MCMI-III.txt

and a pdf version: http://truthsilo.com/stds/14Appendices.pdf

I might print it out later and give it a go for something to do.

ok, sweet... my family and everyone was like, something is wrong, no one could pinpoint it. I'm kind of obsessed with bf.. "hot antisocial guy, I dated in high school" and he's like.. something is wrong with you, see I am more delusional (not delusional per se.. but I have no idea how I come across to most people, I havn't figured out how to conform) he's more logical, I bet IQ is around 135 or so, he wants me to just chill not  be crazy irritated all the time, so to work it out with him... and to keep getting money from my family to go school, we decided I should probably figure out what is wrong.

I really don't want to, i don't think it will work, but my family wants me in therapy, so... Im gonna do it, but I don't think it will affect me in any  way, I would rather just have some medication to dull my mind,lol.

That's why I came here, to learn how to fake a better understanding "insight" on what's going on around me,  a little bit better. Because Im probably going to ditch the therapy.

i've always been a sucker for a pretty face, so........you have a pretty face

i have no clue what your talking about.

...and dont forget, not matter what, Jesus loves you......

stop bolding your entire replies...it hurts my eyes

So it says I have NPD with a lesser elevation in antisocial, sadistic , and paranoid... Im soo confused, but if its a clinical syndrome to be exact. What is that? I would post it, but it has my name on it... can you msg ppl on here?  That's pretty stupid if you cant..... I would send it to you, so you can tell me what you think... that would be helpful,, the lady just gave me the paper, and some people to call, she said she isn't specialized in what I have, (I thought I had BPD.. u know).. Its only been a few days, and havnt followed up... Ive just been hibernating with my addy's  bored as fuck, but didn't really think I fit the profile, but you don't have to be a criminal to have it, however, if i had been arrested for all the times I have broke the law.. I would probably be in prison, I never get caught with shit ... But yeah, Im pretty screwed up and no, I cant relate to ppl at all, my life would be easier if I could understand their jokes, and small talk and shit,  and to be in a relationship, you have to give, and I never want to, it makes me sooo irritated when im expected to rub a shoulder or hug or give after a fight about me not "understanding, once again',lol... to be with russ and to sustain a job I have to learn to SEE  the "que's", you know what I mean?

but yeah if your interested in seeing the paper, let me know

lol. I bolded it because my cursor wasn't sticking to the text field. had to click something.lol I didn't realize it stuck

Yeah, should probably click like the Italic or the underline next time.

and, thanks for the compliment

by Girl_automatic_mentality3

So it says I have NPD with a lesser elevation in antisocial, sadistic , and paranoid... Im soo confused, but if its a clinical syndrome to be exact. What is that? I would post it, but it has my name on it... can you msg ppl on here?  That's pretty stupid if you cant..... I would send it to you, so you can tell me what you think... that would be helpful,,

I'm not much interested in seeing it to be honest.

the lady just gave me the paper, and some people to call, she said she isn't specialized in what I have

 Were you seeing a psychologist or a psychiatrist?

Psychologists deal more with personality disorders, where as psychiatrists deal more with mental illness's that require medication, such as schizophrenia for example.

and something else  Asda- Attention Deficit for Adult.. you know because I thought i had ADHD my whole life. It said because my behavioral/disorganized, Emotive, and Negative/Social.. were very low, like 98th percentile. which means in inattention is not due to

ADHD, but its "psychological" whatever the fuck that means.. lol. anyway, Im sooo done talking about this shit tonight... Yes, your perspective will definitely be better than most, so your thoughts on this matter may be accurate. LATE

Number 69 is an unfortunate reality that a lot of people have to face until were able to not judge something immediate by how it looks like a primitive animal.