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kinda wish I didn't have NPD or ASP...


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Well, I don't want to be like them, but it would be nice to understand their emotions better, then you could really have fun, and always get what you want.

My family; To give you a picture ( I am mixed, but their all white,and my son is half Russian, btw. I know in the city there are a lot of stereotype segregation, ghetto or not menatalities. bla bla bla, but I'm from the an area where most people would consider country,hick mixed with hippies and yuppies, Oregon! lol 

but....I think my family will never look at me the same again, they keep saying  ASP a good thing, it protected me from the mental and emotional abuse from my step-dad. but still.. I want to come across as normal as I can, and it seems like I crack, eventually.       I Just want to finish college and have a good career that will last... but know I'm not so sure

Is anyone here Diagnosed with a PD that's holding you down? or work to your benefit?

I don't know alot of information about PD's, I would like to hear your stories and how you have decided to deal  or not deal with it

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kinda wish I didn't have NPD or ASP...

As long as you're critical about the fulfillment of your desire, you already have what you need. If you get too comfortable with that, then you're prone to leaning toward habbits you'd rather avoid  as you are now. Don't over think it, just keep it simple. You look good by the way, I guess your narcissistic side wanted that. If you can master not seeking complement, then you'd be winning this internal battle. You know you're lovely.

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kinda wish I didn't have NPD or ASP...

Focus on your good traits and put them to beneficial use. A lack of empathy is actually a beneficial thing when you use it to achieve your goals, because you don't need to waste time questioning if what you want is also best for the people around you. You just need to be crafty about it and hide the fact that you're in it only for yourself. Make people like you, and when you have to, make them fear you. Don't get too caught up worrying about maintaining your image, and don't get defensive if someone calls you out on your bullshit. You'll most likely fuck up at some point. Admit your faults when you have to, because that's what "normal" people do.

Don't reveal too much about yourself to others. This entire paragraph you've just typed out, for instance. Don't tell people that shit in real life. The fact that you've actually managed to receive a diagnosis of NPD and ASPD (I'm guessing that's what you meant with 'ASP?') leads me to believe you're rather transparent IRL. Hopefully, you have enough time and the capacity to grow. In fact, I would highly encourage you not to reveal too much about yourself even on this forum. Plenty of people here will try and exploit your weaknesses.

I'm not sure if that's actually you, but for the love of God, do not use a personal picture as an avatar. That's just common sense. Practice common sense. If this doesn't come naturally to you, research more effective ways to use common sense. Read a book. Use Google. There's a million resources at your disposal.

Practice impulse control. Unfortunately, I'm not an expert on this one, so I don't have any beneficial advice to give you. Maybe try and surround yourself with people who encourage positive outlets, rather than destructive ones. It's not as fun, but it would certainly help to achieve what you're looking for.

I'm extremely skeptical that you genuinely have NPD. Narcissists, at their core, do not recognize or acknowledge that there is anything fundamentally wrong with their world view. You seem to have at least some mild self-awareness. This is a good thing. If you can remain consistently aware of your actions and the negative impact that they leave on yourself and others, you can slowly begin to recreate you image so that people can see what you want them to see, rather than for what you truly are at your core.

Read Robert Greene's "48 Laws of Power."

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kinda wish I didn't have NPD or ASP...

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kinda wish I didn't have NPD or ASP...

Do you think they could be sociopaths? They are thrill takes?

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kinda wish I didn't have NPD or ASP...

 

by Margo

Do you think they could be sociopaths? They are thrill takes?

You're grammar sucks horrendously. Why?

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kinda wish I didn't have NPD or ASP...

Because it seems like outside the norm risk talking? Is that what the mean?

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by Margo

Because it seems like outside the norm risk talking? Is that what the mean?

 I strongly suspected that you were a troll. What is risk talking?

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by Girl_automatic_mentality3

I will say this, I never thought I was crazy, until my bf called me out on my behaviors, I always knew I was different but I realized that i needed to be more stable if I ever wanted to have a meaningful relationship with him or anyone else for that matter.. ( I THOUGHT I HAD BIPOLAR OR BPD) I freakin hate having this diagnosis NPD and ASPD! I will always have this label.. but when they give you the paper saying you have ASPD, it's really hard to believe that your not perfect anymore.. idk.. I don't want to think im flawed and depraved. 

I think that's why most people who really are crazy don't want to believe or see it.

I have been taking photos of my face and my eyes look so cold or scared.. How come no one ever said anything before, Having crazy eyes sucks!

Just be you, don't live your life obsessed about being crazy or not, if you can't relate to people, and never flinch when watching gore movies, and hating sappy shit. (you will notice that your not normal, because normal people will look at you like, wow HE doesnt even have a reaction to that,lol) Your probably a sociopath. But that doesn't mean it defines you, and most normal people "sheep" don't understand us and they want to fit us in a depraved, evil, little box. There is no black and white with socio's. Its the "sheep" that want to define us by normal feelings or evil. Good or Bad. Fuck them, even with ASPD your good, in your way and they fuck off and stop telling us what's acceptable behavior and/or feelings. just be you, no label

 Are you sure you are ASPD? Did you get diagnosed as that? It could've been a misdiagnosis too. I've been diagnosed alot of things.

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Well, Im new to this whole thing, like I didnt even know that i was causing chaos around me and picking on people becuase i liked it. I am  so dissociated from reality (due to the NPD)  and normal behavior is foriegn to me, I feel like a such a robot sometimes, I want to get it down how most sociopaths do. I appreciate your input, I need someone to tell me the ways to interact with others! I will admit, tonight is not the most sober night for me.lol.

But honestly, if some asshole tried to exploit me, there is nothing in the world I would rather do, then get revenge, it would be fun! This is my weakness, I love to poke people, to get a rise..Everything in life is so boring that Im constantly looking for a thrill..I didnt have this much freedom when i was married, now I'm divorced and I'm having a hard time controlling my impulsive behavior.  .... I think its because I always feel empty inside, living alone and not having anyone as your sidekick.. really sucks

But I agree in work settings, it seems like there is always that bitch that's jealous, who's worked there for 4 years and wants, needs to get rid of me. I need to brush it off and not battle with people, and keep my manipulations under control, sometimes I feel like I have to keep talking so they wont think I don't care, especially its my boss.  Saying less is definitely a good thing. Thanks, btw

 

 

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